Single Female
Emotion
I drive a car at a moderate speed. Sasha looked really tense knowing we were going to see mom. Many times I made sure everything would be fine and he believed.
The trip we took felt very long, because many times Sasha asked to rest because she felt nauseous. We stopped at the restaurant several times to fill our hungry stomachs. Although Sasha sometimes only eat snacks and warm water.
My phone switched off after I asked the banner for permission to travel out of town. Without asking much he also agreed and backed me with a lot of transfers. What a very understanding girlfriend, right...?
We arrived at my mother's house when the sun was almost sinking. Because I don't want to face the neighbors who came home with us.
Our house is now under renovation. It really is a big and luxurious house.
Sasha opened the fence and I followed behind her. The door was still open but no one was seen.
"WHY ARE YOU COMING BACK TO MY HOUSE AGAIN..?"
A successful shout took Sasha and me by surprise.
"Get out of my house.."
Mom pushed Sasha's body very roughly. Sasha doesn't fight him just crying while holding mom's arm.
"Sit down Mom.we're talking about it"
Suddenly Tora hugs mom to calm her down. I just look at it while sitting next to my feet.
Mother was crying hysterically as was Sasha who was already sitting on the floor sobbing. Tora pulled mom to sit in front of me.
"Sit on top of Sha." I said.
But Sasha didn't budge, maybe she was afraid that mom would do things she didn't want.
"What's this Mom..?"
"You don't have to ask, because I know you already know what happened"
"Sasha's pregnant but she kicked him out.."
Mom looked hard at me, but behind her gaze I knew she was hurt.
"You must be laughing right now, seeing Sasha get pregnant out of wedlock.."
"Why should I laugh, Mom..?"
"Because you managed to get me hurt.."
"Haha...Am I the one who made my favorite child, able to get pregnant without a husband..?"
Tora and mother looked so shocked when they heard me laughing out loud. Maybe they think I'm crazy for being able to laugh when everyone's hurt.
"Why is every pain you feel, should I be the target of your anger..? Why am I always wrong in my eyes..? WHAT WAS I LACKING ALL THIS TIME, HUHH...?"
I don't know what demon possessed me, so I could scream in front of the woman who gave birth to me..
"Sarah.." whispered mother.
"I hugged myself when I was hurt.I tried not to kill myself when the world was so cruel to me.. Is mom there..? is mom there to just ask me? Son..did you eat enough??son, did you get enough sleep..? I never asked.."
I cried so much that it wasn't even just crying, it sounded like a lament.
"Mother just thinks of me as a money-making machine.Mom never loved me.Mom always said my bad to everyone. I'm stamped on a bad boy because of mother's words..I'm a bad boy and..EVERYONE KNOWS THAT..."
Tora immediately hugged me and cried with me.
"Sister.." he said softly.
"I'm also a human mother.I also have a heart to have feelings.Please just think of me as a child, because I am also a mother's daughter. Mother's first daughter, a daughter born out of the love of father and mother..."
I cried until my head felt dizzy, but somehow my chest was so relieved.
Forgive me Lord.I've truly become an ungodly child..
