Single Female

flashbacks

When I first became the only child I was so spoiled. My father was a responsible man even though the work he did was sometimes just enough for us to eat.

My mother lived happily with my father and me. Until my sisters were born who made my father not feel at home living in our house. Father often spends his time with friends or with his family. Leaving the mother with three small children.

More and more Mother became a grumpy figure for us her children. No more laughter and jokes from his lips. Only screams and swearing could be heard from our humble home.

For years, mothers lived like that, even though the father is still responsible for giving the mother a living, but life is not just a living..! Until my father finally died. The car he was driving hit a roadblock and Dad died on the spot.

My brother and I cried over the sudden departure of my father. Mother, not a single tear fell on her cheek. Mother was so strong to take care of all the funeral needs and take care of us who could not accept the departure of father.

After my father's departure, I worked as a housekeeping assistant in a mansion away from home. Mother came home every Saturday afternoon to meet the three of us who lived at home. I was eleven years old so my mother asked me to take care of my two younger siblings, who were seven and six.

Are you wondering about our other family..We have no one but mother, because my mother and father married without the blessing of their parents. Even when my father died, no family came, either from my mother or my father.

I met my father's youngest brother once. With his words he said :

"When your father was alive we didn't want to consider you family let alone your father's dead"

Mother's grumpy nature increasingly became even mothers often hit my sisters because of their naughty behavior. But that never happened to me. Mother never beat me even though a rude swearing still stopped by my eardrum.

For the sake of my two sisters still getting an education I was willing to just finish high school. I don't want to add to my mother's burden. From the past until now only I am his son mother who never once denied his words. Although I think this self is true I remain silent to keep my mother's feelings.

After I worked, my mother stopped working. I was the one who asked my mother to stay at home so my sisters would be watching.

Every month I send all my paychecks, I just take a little overtime. It could even be days I just eat instant noodles so my money stays enough until the end of the month.

I never complained because I knew everything I did was not worth the sacrifice of the mother who slammed the bones for us her children.

Two years on, I never came home even on holidays. Because entering work when the holiday money can add transfer for mothers.

Did my mother or sisters not complain..? No. They never asked me anything. Incoming messages are only limited to when to transfer money.

Honestly, sometimes I think I'm just a kara in this world. There is no place to lay your head down when your heart is not okay..