SILENCE LOVE'S

Chapter 26 [Taehyung's Eyes]

What would you feel if you saw the person you love crying because of another figure in his heart?

Lt hurts?

That's how I feel now. Seeing Sohyun crying on the balcony of his room while hugging Baekhyun's handbook, it really broke my heart. I'd love to beat that jerk up for making my Sohyun cry like this!

I leaned my body against the wall of his room that was directly opposite to Sohyun's position right now. You may be wondering why I got into her room. The girl gave me her apartment password so I could get in easily. I wanted to visit him today to take him to a movie together, but what happened was like this.

My efforts failed. Three weeks I admit is not a long time. Even still a whole corn. I had to put more effort into making Sohyun forget about a Baekhyun Byun. Time felt sorry for both of us. Poor me who also felt sick seeing Sohyun like this, and pity my girl who always cried when she remembered Baekhyun.

I don't understand how long they met until Sohyun loved that man so deeply.

I can't take it anymore, really! It's too painful for me. I slowly walked out of the room and immediately gathered near Sohyun. The girl was wide in shock and would quickly wipe away her tears, but I was quicker to hold the girl's hand so as not to wipe her face.

"Let it go, don't delete it" I said with a smile. He remained silent and tried to catch his breath in sadness and surprise.

"I want to feel how you feel. Let the tears flow if you want, Sohyun," I said.

"I'm sorry" Sohyun replied in a soft voice. I smiled and took her into my arms.

I wish I could hold her like this and make her mine...

"You love Baekhyun so much, don't you?"

Sohyun's body slowly stiffened, I felt that way and he let go of his embrace and looked at me.

"I'm trying to forget it, Tae. I'm sorry," Sohyun said with an unpleasant face. I smiled wryly. It's irony that he loves me for feeling bad about me.

"You're not wrong, Sohyun, what's wrong here is me" I said.

"Tae, don't talk se–"

"If I had approached you more vigorously when you first met, if you had spent your vacation only with me, if you had been on a vacation to Edensor with me. had I made you fall in love, it's not gonna be like this."

Without me noticing my chest started to feel tight and my eyes started to water.

"I won't hurt you like Baekhyun does now,"

Sohyun fell silent and lowered his head deeply, "Sorry. Sorry to make you like this."

I smiled in my wounds and grabbed Sohyun's face. I wanted to see his bead once more before I walked away from his life.

"Our relationship is better here, Sohyun," I said. I saw Sohyun surprised but did not try to resist this farewell. Ah, it hurts so much.

"I can't make you forget about Baekhyun. I failed, and I'm giving up now."

"I'm sorry, Taehyung, I'm really sorry" Sohyun said.

"I'm so sorry," I said, "Sohyun, can I make a request before it's really over?"

He nodded his head and looked at me. I'm not sure he'll grant it either, but this is my last request.

"May I kiss you?"

Sohyun was silent for quite a while, not nodding and not resisting. I slowly grabbed her nape slowly and brought my face closer. He did not resist as I approached and I finally felt a soft object on my lips. Just an ordinary kiss, no ordinary kiss and no desire whatsoever to do now. After ten seconds, I let go of the kiss, let go of her, and let go of my heart.

"Thank you for making me feel the beauty of falling in love with you, Sohyun," I rubbed his chubby cheeks that I will miss dearly, "I'm leaving."

"Thank you also you would like to accompany me here, and sorry to disappoint you" Sohyun replied. I smiled and nodded. I slowly walked out of her apartment and I shaved my feet away from there.

Walking back to my apartment a fair distance away might ease the feeling of this very turbulent wound. This may be called pain but not bleeding. It's snowing tonight and it's cold, just like my heart. I tried to ease the feeling of tightness in the chest by breathing deeply. But damn, I failed.

A single tear dripped down my cheek and now it feels so heavy. I shouldn't have kissed the girl before the breakup. But I really want to do it. I never hugged her let alone kissed her. Let me be a little selfish lately.

Is it okay if a man cries?

It hurts so much.

Ah, why did I suddenly think, is this how Sohyun feels?

How long did I know the girl until it hurt to love her like this?

The answer is, how long can you say. It doesn't matter how long you've only known someone new and you've finally loved it. It's all about time. Time can make your relationship with that person more beautiful because each millionth of a second is very valuable and makes you happy. But time can hurt you and it feels like you want to end that time when you're with him. And I, I'm in second place.

Sohyun and I met at the wrong time. A time when he had met someone else. Sohyun and I did not spend any longer together because it turned out that time was more supportive of Sohyun and Baekhyun's relationship.

I smiled thinly in my tears. I think I did the right thing.

Give up my 'time' with the girl I love so that she is happy, let go of the togetherness that has been established so that she is not burdened.

I had to disappear, until I didn't know how long I had to do it. Maybe time knows more, when will I come back to face him with a wound that has healed.

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