SILENCE LOVE'S

Chapter 22's

Seoul, November 10, 2017

Not much has changed in my country of birth. Seoul, my hometown. It's just more interesting with yellow and fallen leaves adorning the streets of Seoul which is crowded with skyscrapers and several settlements. The temperature is getting colder from day to day, not unlike here. Much the same. A few more weeks are the rest of autumn, where you can still feel the sunlight even though it is no longer warm. I haven't been here in a few months. It was nice to be back in the real house.

"I don't think you'll remember coming home this time," said a girl in front of me with an annoyed face. He took out some of the food he bought from the supermarket.

I chuckled at her words. My parents are in Japan, and the groceries at home are empty. Hearing about my return to Korea, this girl immediately bought groceries and headed to my house.

"I came home because I had important business. If not for what?"

Yoojung narrowed her eyes and looked at me sharply.

"What's going to get you home, huh?" tanyakanya. I can only smile at his question.

"Is it because Baekhyun is going to hold a concert and you're going to come there, huh?"

Yes, my friend already knows the relationship between me and Baekhyun. He called me when he saw Baekhyun's news with a girl in London. It made him suspicious because he was very detailed in knowing someone. He saw the clothes I was wearing when he was caught on camera with Baekhyun. Yoojung is very familiar with my habits that do not like to buy a lot of clothes.

The girl was excited when she found out that her best friend was close to her idol. After persuading her not to get angry with me - since I didn't tell her about it - then I told her everything.

"Yes, that's it. He gave me a free concert ticket, how come I didn't come, huh?" my word. Yoojung now widened her eyes.

"He gave you a free ticket?! Well, I can't believe it!" yoojung exclaimed in annoyance, which I responded with a small laugh. The girl still painstakingly took out the groceries and prepared to cook something.

"How was your life in London? You got any friends there?" ask Yoojung.

I nodded my head and approached Yoojung who was in the kitchen, "Yes. A Dutch girl living in London. Her name is Helena and she is very beautiful and kind. You should meet her sometime."

Yoojung smiled, "Alright. It seems like that girl named Helena is very attractive."

"Ah, yes, how are you doing with Minseok?"

The girl sighed, "It's normal. He was busy with some work. Being a prosecutor is not an easy job."

I just admired him and now I'm starting to play my phone. My wish is to find news about Baekhyun. But I was surprised by an article. My smile that had been imagining Baekhyun faded suddenly from seeing the news.

"What's wrong?" yoojung asked who noticed the change in my face.

I just fell silent. Yoojung grabbed my phone and was surprised by the article there.

"Baekhyun is dating Min Yuri?! That's right!" yoojung was also surprised.

In the article there is a photo taken secretly, showing a man who looks like Baekhyun is holding the hand of a girl who looks like Min Yuri.

I'm still quiet. I don't know what's the right syllable to describe my feelings. Why didn't Baekhyun tell me he already had a girlfriend? Why would he send me a letter with the words that he misses me?

"I don't think this news is necessarily true. In this photo, they just hold hands. Maybe there's something important that makes them like that."

I was silent without any meaningful comment. Yoojung looked at me and sighed.

"You really like it, don't you?"

This time it was my turn to sigh, "How did that feeling not appear? After what we did in London and Canada, you don't think that meant anything to me?"

"This is the result if you fall in love with a public figure. You could get hurt later. You better ask Baekhyun if the news is true" said the girl as she walked towards the kitchen, leaving me with a myriad of thoughts in my head.

I'm just afraid if it really happens. Is it wrong to like someone to be selfish?

***

"Yoot!"

I quickly walked over to the man with that dimmed smile. Lay immediately hugged me when I was right in front of him.

"It's great to see you again in Seoul, Sohyun!" lay said happily and he let go of his embrace. He invited me to sit in a cafe that is quite famous in this region.

"What do you want to order?" ask Lay while looking at the menu book.

"I think you know what I'd order if I was in the cafe" I replied.

Lay smiled and called the waiter, "One Ice Cappuccino and a Hot Moccaccino."

I smiled when the waiter was gone.

"So, how are you?" ask Lay.

"As you can see, Lay. I'm doing fine. How are you and the others?"

"We're good. They'd be happy to know you're in Korea now."

"Hm, Baekhyun how are you? I hear he's dating a girl right now?" I asked Lay. Lay's lost smile was replaced with a surprised look.

"Baekhyun's dating? News from where is it?" ask Lay.

"The article is already spreading on the internet, Lay. You don't know that?" my answer.

Lay quickly opened his phone to see the article. He was really surprised to read the news.

"The man told us nothing about any other woman than you, Sohyun. I hope you don't believe the news right away. Now the media is always making news without knowing the truth. They just want their news to be read. Better to hear the confession directly from Baekhyun." Lay spoke at length and he looked at me seriously.

Well, two people have said that to me. Maybe there's a point too.

"But it doesn't matter if Baekhyun has a lover. Me and the guy were just friends" I replied, trying to be realistic with what was.

"Baekhyun likes you, Sohyun, and I dare to guarantee that man will not go to another woman and make you an outlet." Lay said with a serious look on his face, "But if he did that, there must be a reason. He can't hurt you, Sohyun."

I'm just smiling. Smiling miris imagines that Baekhyun really made me an outlet during his trauma.

"I know Baekhyun very well. If he hurts you, I'll deal with him."

I chuckled, "Heol, you really care about me. Why don't you just be my girlfriend, huh?"

Lay laughed, "An interesting offer, Sohyun. But if I do, Baekhyun will chop me up into seven pieces and will be given to the dogs in his house."

This guy in front of me is very humorous at once.

The next second we only talk about work and holidays that want to be done if there is another opportunity to vacation. Lay is a good person with a myriad of gentleness and care that he has. If I don't like Baekhyun, maybe I'll fall in love with this Chinese guy.

We split up after three hours of chatting in the cafe. Lay offered to take me home but I refused. Time has shown at seven o'clock in the evening. I also walked to the road back home and passed through several storefronts with translucent glass. I saw on one of the televisions there, a promotional advertisement from Baekhyun's concert. I saw him giving a welcome for his concert promotion. He looked different from the original figure I knew. He smiles a lot, and he talks a lot. I lowered my head and grabbed the phone in my coat pocket, opened it and wished for a notification from the man. Even though I know the results are nil, I still open the chat room in the application. Our last conversation took place in October.

I breathe again. I don't know how many times I've felt my life was getting harder. But if it is logical, it is only a matter of the heart. Just a trivial thing if I used to have to comment about Yoojung and Minseok who had several times problems in their relationship. Now, I just found out, that when you fall in love, that trivial problem will look complicated.

***

There was nothing interesting I did in Seoul other than relaxing and accompanying Yoojung on walks and shopping. Sometimes I get Lay, Chanyeol, Sehun and Kyungsoo to eat at their favorite restaurants or shops. I sent Baekhyun a message several times, but he never replied to him himself. Ah, I should no longer have expected much of that man.

Today is the day I've been waiting for. The day I finally got to meet Baekhyun again. This time I will be watching the concert alone because Yoojung cannot accompany me, as well as Lay and the others. When I arrived at the concert hall, it was already very crowded. I had to wear a mask to cover my face. I'm still afraid that there are Baekhyun fans who realize that I was the source of the man's gossip while abroad.

The building is very large and magnificent with the stage in the middle and there is a road to the backstage. I can conclude that there are thousands of seats available to watch this concert. I watched the concert tickets I got.

VIP ticket, and I'll be sitting near the center stage. This VIP seat is also filled by several other artists who will be sitting here. Well, I wouldn't have expected to get this ticket. Besides, with this ticket, I can go backstage to meet Baekhyun in person.

The room was full and soon the concert would begin. I was still sitting in this VIP spot and some people started glancing at me and felt strange. Actually there are also some people who are not artists and sit here. It's just that their appearance is very classy. Unlike me who only wears a brown coat, black shirt, dark blue jeans that I often wear, and my favorite black boots. Some of them started taking pictures of me because they felt weird about my presence.

Oho! I hope this concert starts soon.

Suddenly the lights were turned off and a light source appeared in the center of the stage. A host said a greeting and a few other words of welcome.

Clapping and shouting rang out loud as a figure of a man walked onto the stage in a neat white coat. His hair was painted gray this time and he smiled broadly at the audience. He lowered his body in greeting. My heart was beating so hard because it was so happy to see Baekhyun. He looks better now. Without my eyes begin to feel blurry, and hot.

Time seems to be running slower than it should. Slow motion's. Baekhyun's figure hypnotized my essence and touched my heart. I miss that guy so much.

Slowly, I saw his head moving towards me. He stared at me and smiled. I thought he was looking at someone behind me. Besides he wouldn't know that what he saw was me because I was wearing a mask and the audience seats were so dark.

"Byun Baekhyun, it's good to see you working again on this stage. All your fans are looking forward to your new single. It's not unexpected that the single is going to be so fast once you get back."

"Ah, yes. I also did not expect to be able to return to this world of entertainment. My condition is better now. Thank you to the fans who have always supported me and encouraged me."

The screams and applause came back.

"Are there other people who give you spirit other than your fans?"

"of course. My parents and friends have helped me get better. Besides, it's,..." Baekhyun directed his gaze towards me, "There is a girl who means a lot to me. He always gives me encouragement when I feel depressed during my time off."

There was a voice of disbelief and surprise at Baekhyun's words. Several pairs of eyes were now staring at me as well.

"If the girl's here, what do you want to say?" ask MC.

Baekhyun. Very deep and he looked serious, "I'm sorry for the mistake I made you. Both in the past and in the future. I always hoped you would believe me and always be by my side. Thank you and I miss you."

This time I no longer heard the boisterous onlookers who heard Baekhyun's words. The voices seemed to disappear in time while I was still touched by Baekhyun's words there.

If he knows that I'm here, I just hope, that he feels the same way as I do. I'm afraid I'll lose him because of my selfishness. Slightly hopeful, the news of Baekhyun and Yuri dating is not true.

The lights dimmed, and I heard the voice I missed so much that it flowed beautifully.

Geudael saenggakhamyeon yeojeoni ttatteutae

Geuripda malhamyeon geudae

Meomchugo geudaeman inneyo

Haejugo shipeun geudae

I hate seeing her look. What is it with my eyes that everything feels teary?

Oh someone like you, deutgo innayo

Oh someone like you, eodi innayo

Kkumsogeseo geudael mannalsu ittamyeon jokesseo

Nae geudae nae geudae, Love you

I hope it is true what he said. If only it were true if he felt the same way as I did...

If only the song was for me...

***

The four-hour concert was finally over. I immediately went backstage to meet Baekhyun in person. After showing me my ticket, I was allowed by the guards to go backstage. Slowly I set my foot down while looking for a room with the name Baekhyun there.

Without waiting for a long time, I could see Baekhyun standing in front of his room. As I walked closer, a girl appeared to be in front of him. I saw that they were both in a bad situation. My intention to immediately run towards him I paused. Slowly, I walked up to them.

"Hi, Baek," I said to the man. He quickly looked at me and was surprised.

"Sohyun," he said back and smiled. The girl next to him looked at me.

"Oh, this is Sohyun?" ask the girl I know named Min Yuri.

Baekhyun seemed to dislike hearing Yuri's words and he just kept silent not responding.

"You look really cool, Baekhyun. I'm glad you can sing again" I replied forcing a smile. My heart is pounding with excitement because I hope that Baekhyun and Yuri's news isn't true.

"Thank you for coming here" Baekhyun replied with a faint smile. Suddenly Yuri approaches Baekhyun and wrestles on Baekhyun's arm, confirming that they have a more current relationship.

"My name is Min Yuri, I'm Baekhyun's girlfriend!" yuri said kindly and she thrust her hand out to greet me.

I feel numb now. Slowly and trying to maintain my emotions, I also greeted Yuri.

"I'm Kim Sohyun" I replied trying to smile.

"You're Baekhyun's friend?" ask Yuri.

"Yes, he's Baekhyun's friend,"

I turned my head to hear a voice familiar to me. Taehyung quickly walked towards us and quickly embraced me. I slowly looked at Baekhyun to see his expression. Flat.

"Kim Sohyun is Baekhyun's friend, and he's my lover" Taehyung said.

I was shocked to hear the confession from Taehyung. What the hell is this really? I looked at Taehyung, who was smiling, but not with his eyes. He looked at Baekhyun sharply.

"You, why are you here?" I asked Taehyung.

"This event is working with my company in fashion. It's only natural that I'm here" Taehyung said. The man turned to Baekhyun and Yuri, "Congratulations on your relationship."

Yuri smiled happily and pressed her embrace on Baekhyun's arm. While the man himself just threw his essence in the other direction.

Did it really happen?

Why is Baekhyun silent? Please say something, Baek!

"Congratulations to your relationship, Tae. I can't believe you finally have a lover" Yuri said.

Taehyung nodded his head, "Then I and Sohyun go first. Excuse me."

Taehyung took me out of the room and away. I myself could no longer bear to see Baekhyun's face which I thought was looking at me sharply.

Arriving outside the building, Taehyung released his embrace to me. He fell silent and looked at me who was in a state of chaos.

"I'm sure you're surprised by the news on the internet about Baekhyun and Yuri dating. That's right, Sohyun. They've been dating for two weeks now" Taehyung said.

Are there any other words that can describe my feelings now other than being disappointed?

I just kept quiet and slowly smiled, "I'm not surprised, Tae. Thank you." Thank you."

I quickly walked away leaving Taehyung who called my name.

No. gabe. I can't cry!

Me and Baekhyun did not have any relationship from the beginning. So the man is indeed not wrong if dating another woman.

I'm the only one here who's wrong.

Wrong, why should I fall in love with a Baekhyun Byun.

***