SILENCE LOVE'S

Chapter 13

Toronto this morning was a lot of fun. The sun is quite friendly and leaves a warm feeling this autumn. Just as is the case with London and other sub-tropical regions, the green color of the landscape is now slowly yellowing and reddish, leaving an impression of softness, solitude, and autumn romance. Some students living in the area are seen walking to look for public transportation and to their campus. Most of them come from abroad to study in Canada.

"Are you serious?! You came back to Canada without talking to me and now you just called me?!" helena across the phone.

I let out my breath.

"I'm sorry. Complicated problem. I'll tell you later if you have free time" I replied.

"I'm going to Canada the day after tomorrow because of a job meeting. We met and you should tell me. Understood?" said Helena.

"Okay."

"Then until later, it's my turn to be on duty again" Helena said and then closed the connection.

I put my phone on the nightstand near my bed. I slowly opened the window near the bed and enjoyed the early morning view of autumn from my apartment.

Yep.

I'm already in Canada.

That night, I booked a VIP ticket to return to Canada. No matter how much I paid for the plane ticket it was important I came back here quickly. All the business in London I've done, including the housing problem there, and I've been in the apartment since yesterday.

I feel good to be back at my home, where I live other than in Korea. But I don't know why my heart feels empty. Bizarrely.

Not long after, a call came back to my phone.

"Hello?"

"Soyun! You're back in Canada?!" taehyung exclaimed from across the street, as surprised as Helena I was talking to earlier.

"Yes, that's it. You know where it's coming from?"

"Your neighbor. He said you went back to Canada yesterday. I'm right now in front of your house. Why didn't you tell me, huh?!" taehyung once again. Why is that guy upset?

"My neighbor?" my many.

"Eoh. The old woman who lives next door to Baekhyun's house. Oh yeah, Baekhyun also just left that house. I think he's moving from there. Well, why are you leaving me?" said Taehyung again who now makes me raise one eyebrow.

"Get out of that house?"

"Yes. He brought his bag and suitcase. He really left London. He was with a man who was quite old, who I think was his manager" he said.

I sighed and shook my head. Why am I thinking about that guy again?

"Oh, fine then. I'm sorry I just told you now, Taehyung. I'm in a mess" I replied.

"Is this your job problem? You were forced home by your editor?"

"No. I just feel like I've been on a long vacation and I need to get back to work,"

Taehyung sighed, "Don't force yourself if you can't, Sohyun. You need to relax in your work. If I get to Canada, I'll let you know. We need to meet and talk."

I smiled, "Eoh. Alright."

He turned off the connection and back I was struck by silence. But it didn't take long, now my apartment bell rings. I breathed once again. When I feel too quiet, I feel lonely. And when there was the slightest disturbance, I felt dizzy and wanted my calm back.

Why am I like this now?!

***

"You came back to Toronto yesterday? Why did you just tell me today?" ask Mr. Kelly is sitting on the couch in the middle of my apartment.

I put the packaged orange juice on the table, "Luckily I still want to tell you this morning. I didn't think you'd come sooner, sir."

"How come I didn't come quickly when I heard a sudden news like this? Is there a problem there that makes you come back here quickly?" ask Mr. Kelly.

Problem, huh?

"No. I was just bored so I decided to come back sooner."

Mr. Kelly narrowed her eyes, looked at me and tried to look for any dishonesty that might be stored in my eyes.

"Are you serious, Miss? You're very suspicious" he said again.

"Yes, I am. All the interesting places in London I've stopped by and now I'm doing better. I can write later" I replied smiling.

Mr. Kelly sighed and leaned back, "So, when are you going to get to work again?"

"Maybe two more days. I need to relax for a moment."

"You still want to relax after almost three weeks in London?!"

"Hey, my cut ration is still a week away, and I cut it to two more days, is it wrong? This is my devotion to work, Mr. Dear kelly!" my answer displayed a confident cry of myself.

"elright. Up to you, Miss. I'm waiting for you at the office, and mentally prepare you to meet Mrs. Johnson. He wants to hear your presentation on your writing this time."

I sighed and nodded my head, "Alright."

Mr. Kelly got up from her seat and went home. The silence greeted again accompanied by the seconds of the clock that sounded. I went back to my room and grabbed my phone. I decided to surf the internet and read the news. I haven't opened the internet in a long time. While busy exploring, netraku glued to a web with the name Baekhyun there. The accident case, it was long enough. My mind fell back and a sense of tightness enveloped my chest.

Damnit.

Why should I feel this way when it comes to that man even though I know he hates me himself?

I shook my head and closed the internet, to stop thinking about Baekhyun. I try to think positively and encourage myself. Ah yes, I still have two days off. This remaining time I will spend taking a walk here and preparing a presentation.

Well, my life will be fine after this.

***

"Your presentation was great" Mrs said. Johnson, the chief publisher in my office. We just finished a script meeting, "I've always loved your ideas and your work, Sarah. Why take a month off?"

I smiled sweetly, "I'm sorry, Mrs. Johnson. I was right to run out of ideas and feel overwhelmed by that time. That's why I asked for a leave."

Mrs. Johnson nodded his head, "Alright. Welcome back, Sarah. I'm waiting for your script to be finished."

He patted my shoulder gently and passed. Mr. Kelly is now coming up to me and nudging my arm a little.

"Well, you saved me today. If you're not ready for your presentation, I can make sure we both finish today" he said.

I chuckled lightly at his words, "I cannot possibly destroy my own career, and it cannot be difficult for my beloved editor."

He put on his disgusted face at me, "I don't love you, Sarah."

I laughed again and he smiled.

"After this you have another job?" ask Mr. Kelly.

He nodded his head, "Alright."

I left the publishing office that became my place of work, and headed straight to the cafe not far from my workplace. Helena invited me to meet there because she had just finished her meeting at the hospital.

"Gram!" call him with a face and he hugs me tightly.

"Have you waited a long time?" ask me while we sit.

"just now. And well, how are you? Why did you come back to Toronto all of a sudden, huh? What's the problem?" ask Helena without further ado. This girl was indeed impatient if she was very curious about one thing.

"Nothing," I replied, "I'm just tired of the holidays, so I decided to go back to work."

"There's no way you'd rush home like that if you're tired of the holidays, right? Let me guess, is this because of Baekhyun?"

I was silent without being able to answer. Hearing her name again this time was enough to make me feel bad.

"I suspect something's happened to you, because Baekhyun also left London."

I sighed, "Just a little commotion." I admit it this time because I'm free to cover up again if my opponent talks about Helena. He is also an expert in playing the psychology of a person.

"Little ruckus? Because what? Is this time he doing worse to you than leaving you in a lonely place like yesterday?" ask Helena. The girl's face was so upset that it made me smile.

"No need to talk about it anymore, Helena. I'm lazy. What matters now is that my business and he's done, and I don't want to think about it anymore."

Helena sighed with her eyes still demanding more explanation from me. But he didn't want to force it because he understood my privacy.

"alright. Well, then, how about you accompany me for a walk in Toronto?" it was the one that got me excited again. Helena is a good friend. I would like to introduce her to Yoojung, my best friend. Speaking of Yoojung, she was recently proposed by her boyfriend, Kim Minseok. They're getting married in six months. We rarely communicate by phone, but he often e-mailed me.

Helena and I decided to take a walk. I love the view in Toronto. I first took her to Toronto City Hall, which is the city's main icon, and then took her for a walk to Chinatown. In this place is a world of shopping because we can buy all kinds here, but the most popular and famous is the food and trinkets here.

Helena told me about the man in the hospital who was close to her. He himself was also interested in the man who was said to be very handsome and kind. Helena looked flowery when she told me that which made me smile.

A little sad because I had to cancel my intention to tell Helena about Chanyeol. It's a pity that the man had to be heartbroken.

"Hey, Sarah, when are you going to have a boyfriend?" ask Helena with a smile. I know he's teasing me.

"I'm not interested in dating yet and I'm still enjoying my own time" I replied.

"Are you sure? You're gonna need a guy by your side, Sarah. You're normal aren't you?" the question I answered with a glancing look at him.

"Hey, I'm still normal. I still like the flat-chested and the field," said I who was infused with small ruckus by Helena. Well, what he said has a point. Sometimes I want a lover too. While we were walking, I accidentally turned my head back and my net caught a figure that seemed familiar to me. The figure was in the direction of four o'clock but when I turned around to make sure, it disappeared at the turn of the road not far from us.

"What's wrong?" ask Helena who knows my strange movements.

I went back to Helena and smiled, "No, I just saw someone who looks like someone I know."

It was just a lot of excitement and then we continued our walk looking around Chinatown. But my mind remained unsettled and felt strange.

Is it true what I saw was Baekhyun?

I shake my head small. You must be hallucinating, Sohyun!

***

The last tourist destination is Queen's Park. This place is not too far from Chinatown. The park today is quite quiet because the sky is now a little cloudy. The people who were enjoying the warm autumn weather slowly rose up from the garden. The weather this time looks erratic and rain could spill this time as well. But still, behind the remaining sunlight, the maple leaves that are the symbol of Canada still look beautiful. The fallen leaves display a reddish-brown color.

"Wow, here is more interesting than in London" said Helena amazed at the reddened scenery.

I nodded my head and we sat down on the garden chair to rest.

"Thank you for coming with me, Sarah. I'll be back in London tomorrow. It's so nice to meet you here. If you're empty, visit me sometime." Helena clasped my hands gently and looked at me with her beautiful brown eyes.

I nodded my head, "I'm also glad to see you again, Helena. You're one of my best friends I have in London!"

"You have friends in Korea?"

"of course. He will be married in six months to his girlfriend" I said, which made Helena smile again.

"Well. I myself now have a bustle. When's your turn?" ask Helena. I frowned because he asked me again when it was my turn to have a lover.

"Hey, Sarah. I believe that soul mate is destiny. I'm sure you'll find it, or maybe you've found it without you knowing it" Helena said.

I let out my breath. Meet my soul mate without me noticing? That was the weird thing he said.

He patted me on the shoulder this time and he stood up.

"Then I have to go back to the hotel, Sarah. I have to rest tonight and tomorrow at dawn I'm back in London."

I got up and hugged Helena tightly. He smiled and waved his hand when a taxi stopped near us. I came back alone this time and I walked to enjoy the park. It has not been here for a long time, but there has been a little change. Some small buildings such as fountains have been decorated and beautified.

Back I went around, my netra caught a figure I knew again. The man who looked like Baekhyun was now standing in front of me and looking at me sharply. I was surprised, but I tried to control myself. Lately I've been sleep deprived and maybe I've been hallucinating that figure. I closed my eyes and lowered my head and shook my head, convincing myself that it was an illusion.

But all the suggestions I did collapsed when I looked at the pair of legs now standing right in front of me. I looked up my head and found Baekhyun standing looking at me deeply. The person who said yesterday that he hated me is in front of me!

"You're not hallucinating, Sohyun. I'm here" he said in a heavy voice. This time it was not a dream! The cream-colored scarf that was coiled around her neck made me believe that this was real.

"You..."

"I'm here to see you" he said.

My angry feelings came up again. Why did he meet me now after he himself said that he hated me?!

"For what?" I asked her, "Don't you hate me? Why do you want to meet me? You want to scold me again, huh?!"

He was still silent with the net glued to me. His face looks guilty this time but I won't waver with his face. Although sometimes every night the sculpture and facial lines are indeed imagined when I want to sleep.

Damnit...

"If there's no excuse, you better not see me again. Because I have no reason to see you again" I said and set foot trying to leave him.

"I had a reason when I came here,"

My steps came to a halt and I turned my body and looked at Baekhyun who also turned his body to face me. Netra we met and I saw her looking at me wistfully. Slowly he smiled faintly, making my blood rustle as my heart pumped faster.

"... because I miss you." she said.

***