SILENCE LOVE'S

Chapter 19 [Baekhyun's Eyes 4]

Baekhyun was silent in the apartment with a myriad of thoughts perched on his head. Why does he feel bad after hearing Sohyun say that Taehyung will come to Toronto and invite Sohyun to meet.

"Why is that guy always there wherever Sohyun is?" baekhyun. He himself was not aware that he was the same as Taehyung.

Being late in his daydream, suddenly heard the man's mobile phone vibrate.

"Hello?"

"Yeah! Baekhy! Are you crazy or what?! Now you're in Canada, huh?!" chanyeol from across the street. Baekhyun sighed. Now how does the tall man know he's in Toronto?

"Where do you know? Did Manager Yoo tell you and the other friends?" ask Baekhyun.

"As you know, Mr. Byun, you're so hard to contact! You must still often activate silent mode on your phone. How many phones have you not picked up?!" chanyeol's words still sounded annoyed and did not respond at all to what Baekhyun was asking.

"Sorry, I'm busy."

"Busy paying attention to Sohyun, huh? How great is your fight to the point that you have to follow him there to apologize?!"

"Hey, why are you so angry?" lay's voice rang out there, and several other men's voices were very familiar to Baekhyun's ears.

"Hey, Baek! You can finally be contacted!" lay sounded happy behind the phone. Baekhyun feels this time Chanyeol activates the loudspeaker mode.

"I'm sorry I didn't give you any news" Baekhyun said.

"Baek! How about we video call now? I want to see how you are doing now," Sehun said sounding there. Baekhyun turned off his phone and connected to a video call. Before long, the faces of his four best friends appeared on the mobile phone screen.

"Well! You're a little full of ya now!" kyungsoo exclaims when he sees Baekhyun.

"We'd almost follow you to London if Lay hadn't told us you were in Toronto" Sehun said.

"Lay?" ask Baekhyun astonished. How did Lay know he was in Canada?

"I called Sohyun and asked him how you were doing" Lay replied which made the blonde-haired man startled.

"How did you get Sohyun's phone number?!"

The four friends laughed when they heard Baekhyun's question.

"Well, I didn't think a Baekhyun didn't know the number of the girl he liked!" chanyeol Goda followed the laughter of Sehun and Kyungsoo.

"How did you lose to Lay who got the girl's phone number first?" sehun.

Baekhyun tries half-deadly to hide his upset face because he feels inferior to Lay who is not close to Sohyun, but can get contact from the girl.

"Give me Sohyun's number!" baekhyun.

"alright. I'll give it to you. Thank goodness you were okay there. I see your apartment is really interesting" Lay said, observing the background of his cell phone, watching Baekhyun's room look neat behind the man's body.

"As you can see, Toronto is more attractive than London" Baekhyun said.

"Isn't it because of Sohyun? If there's no Sohyun there, do you still want to go to Toronto?" chanyeol said again.

"Well, I didn't think you'd fall in love again, Baek!" exclamation Sehun.

In love?

Is that really what Baekhyun feels?

"Don't just talk" Baekhyun replied with his flat face.

"I don't just talk. That's how it is. It's just that you're not aware of your own feelings, you idiot," Sehun said again, irritating Baekhyun.

"If there's nothing else important, I hang up" Baekhyun said. The man quickly turned off the connection because he was disturbed by the words of his friends.

The man put his body on the bed. His mind glared once again at Sehun's words.

Is Baekhyun in love with Sohyun?

The man himself could not answer either.

He had not felt it for a year because of his severe trauma, making him almost forget what it was to fall in love.

***

"The development in Korea this time is quite interesting. Especially in the entertainment world" Lay said behind the phone. Later that night, Lay calls Baekhyun again to talk and is shocked by Baekhyun's situation. In his heart he was grateful for Sohyun who made Baekhyun like this.

"What's that about?" ask Baekhyun.

"You know, your agency is attracting new artists to debut. His name is Min Yuri. The girl was pretty and her voice was good" Lay said. Baekhyun who was preparing dinner just cleared his throat. To him, it was not interesting at all. Manager Yoo did not tell Baekhyun either, because he knew that Baekhyun would not listen and did not care. But this time Baekhyun patiently listened to Lay's story.

"Lay, I'll turn off the phone for a second. I have a little business with my cooking" said Baekhyun.

"Oh, okay. I'll call you back later. There's something else I need to talk to you about" Lay said.

Baekhyun turned off the connection and walked to the kitchen with a plastic bag containing food there. Suddenly accidentally, the bag nudged a plate on the table which was very sidelined, so the plate fell. Baekhyun was shocked and instantly his body stiffened. He saw the broken glass and a dark memory a year ago appeared again in his head.

Bayangan akan kaca mobil yang pecah dan rusak parah, serta Hyerin yang dalam keadaan sekarat terlihat jelas di kepala Baekhyun. Degup jantung pria itu berpacu kencang.

"Armgh!!" exclaimed Baekhyun holding his aching head. His breathing was tight and he tried to get away from the broken glass. Baekhyun looked like a madman now. He sat in the corner of the room with little light and he hugged his own knee. He held back his tears not to come out. But it felt like the memories were more powerfully haunting him, making his body shiver and his tears spill.

The sound of his cell phone was completely ignored. Ten minutes Baekhyun cried and growled because of his fear. For Baekhyun now everything is empty. He could not hear anything, even what he saw now might not be his apartment, but rather the helpless figure of Jung Hyerin in a car with a state of disintegrated body.

Baekhyun faintly heard the voices of others filling the recesses of his head. But he still could not realize who was calling him, until a warm hand touched his cheek. The hand carried his face to face the figure. The moment their beads met, that was when Baekhyun came to his senses.

"It's okay, Baek, it's me. Don't be afraid."

Warm feeling ensued when Sohyun hugged his body, protecting him from fear and calming himself. Baekhyun woke up from his fear, and he came back crying.

Well, he hated himself who still remembered the events he had desperately tried to forget. Why did Hyerin's memories still hurt her so much? Why was he still thinking about the girl who had clearly betrayed and injured Baekhyun?

The man returned Sohyun's embrace even tighter, releasing all the burdens he had been holding himself.

If you can't solve your problem, at least cry, because it will slightly reduce the burden on your mind and heart.

***

Baekhyun blinked his eyes slowly. The first thing he saw was the position of the room and the state of himself. He was sitting on the floor in a position like last night, and he felt something on his shoulder. He glanced and could be seen Sohyun sleeping there. Ah, he just remembered that Sohyun calmed himself to sleep. The girl also fell asleep next to him. Baekhyun slowly shifted Sohyun's head to the wall, then he carried Sohyun with bridal style. He takes the girl to his room and sheds Sohyun's body slowly. He was a little surprised because when he raised his head, Sohyun's face was very clearly visible in front of his face. Baekhyun smiled slightly and slowly released his hand from under Sohyun's body.

The man took off the shoes that the girl was still wearing when she walked into the house in panic, covered Sohyun, and tidied up the girl's hair. Baekhyun looked at Sohyun affectionately and rubbed Sohyun's head slowly.

"Good sleep," he murmured.

Baekhyun decided to sleep on a sofa that only existed in the living room.

***

I don't know why Baekhyun is so sensitive today. Just because Sohyun asked his circumstances alone, the man became angry. I don't know, but Baekhyun just wants Sohyun to forget what happened last night. Ah, thinking about it made Baekhyun embarrassed. It shouldn't be a man crying just from looking at glass shards like that. Now Baekhyun was sitting on his back to Sohyun who followed him to the room.

Baekhyun actually burst into hearing Sohyun's words and again his tone of speech that made Baekhyun's heart calm. He felt guilty for being angry at Sohyun with such ridiculous excuses. But, on the other hand, he felt ashamed of himself. Slowly Baekhyun finally ventured to look at Sohyun.

"Did I look pathetic last night just because of broken glass?"

"I guess that's how it is, Baek. You're traumatized and I understand that. I don't think it's pathetic."

Sohyun grabbed Baekhyun's hand and held it, giving Baekhyun warmth and calmness.

"I'm sorry. I don't want to worry you about me last night. But my attitude this morning just made you feel the opposite." Baekhyun said that sincerely.

"Do I need to leave so you don't feel guilty like that? Besides, I have to go home because I have to work today" Sohyun said. The girl stood up and stood up. But somehow Baekhyun did not want the girl to leave. He wanted Sohyun to accompany him. The man held Sohyun's hand to not leave.

"Why?"

Baekhyun hesitated, but he finally said what he wanted to say.

"Stay with me for a few days. Please accompany me."

***

Toronto is cold again tonight. Mid-month in autumn makes the air temperature decrease again. Baekhyun was sitting waiting for Sohyun who had not come home tonight. Baekhyun grabbed his phone and intended to contact Sohyun. But he undoes that intention because he thinks that Sohyun is with Taehyung right now. He respected the affairs of the two men even though in his heart Baekhyun felt dislike. The shadow of Sohyun and Taehyung's laughter while spending time in Toronto was the thing Baekhyun wanted to throw away the most.

Suddenly a call disturbs Baekhyun's imagination. His cousin's name is clearly there.

"Hello,"

"Baek! Where are you now?" ask Hyesung.

"In apartment. Why?"

"You can help me become an entertainer at the cafe? It's crowded but the singer who worked for me yesterday just had an accident. Customers seem to be bored at this time. I could lose them if I didn't have any entertainment in the cafe!" Hyesung. The girl sounded desperate but she herself felt bad to talk to Baekhyun, given the man's circumstances.

Baekhyun. But in his heart there was a very extraordinary war. This was his chance to start his career again after a few months he asked for leave. But he was afraid. Because every time he sings, the shadow of the scathing comments from the haters about Hyerin's death always pops into his head, making him regret why he had to become a public figure.

"How, Baek? I hope you will," Hyesung said expectantly.

Suddenly a thought flashed across Baekhyun's head.

"alright. I'll come with Sohyun" he said.

***

He was standing in front of the audience now. Hyesung's cafe is quite spacious and now full of customers who are curious about Baekhyun's appearance. Most of them are caucasian and of course curious about the Asian-faced man who now looks afraid of it. Baekhyun took a deep breath. His heart beat fast, and he was sweating when the weather today was very cold. He looked at Sohyun who was standing from afar.

Baekhyun did all this for the sake of the girl. The girl who is always there for him and always gives spirit to Baekhyun. Sohyun's smile convinced Baekhyun to dare to go this far. Sohyun's grip was still felt in his senses, making Baekhyun confident of this decision. He also spoke to the singer, who is also Asian. And a song he sang.

This song is for Sohyun.

For the girl who slowly filled the void of Baekhyun's heart without the man noticing. He sang while looking at Sohyun deeply. Similarly, the girl who also looked at Baekhyun with a smile on her face. Hyesung was crying.

***

If happiness can be defined by something, he wants to bring Big Ben London clock here. Baekhyun smiled with satisfaction when he managed to sing again after several months of fear for his own abilities. The cheers from the audience and the happy smiles of Sohyun and Hyesung were still clearly recorded in his head.

Seen by Sohyun who had just finished bathing, the hair he tied up high made the girl look sweet. Slowly the girl untied her hair and walked into Baekhyun's room.

"You can already do it. You're great!" exclaim the girl with a big smile. He also grabbed the comb that was in Baekhyun's room.

"Thank you, it's all thanks to you." Baekhyun answered that with a gaze that did not escape the slightest from Sohyun.

The girl nodded her head and she was done combing. Sohyun stood in silence for a few seconds.

"Hey, where am I sleeping?" sohyun asked looking confused. Baekhyun who was already in a sitting position shifted his body to the right side and patted next to him.

"You can sleep here" replied the man.

"After you?" ask Sohyun again, trying to convince.

Baekhyun nodded his head. He knew where Sohyun was talking about. 

"Just calm down, I won't do anything but sleep."

***

Baekhyun looked at Sohyun who was fast asleep. Their sleeping positions are facing each other. The man was unable to sleep and only watched Sohyun. That creepy? Baekhyun feels yes. He himself did not know why he always watched the sleeping Sohyun. His body was tired but the burst of happiness seemed to be his energy reserves so that he could not sleep. Sohyun's sleeping face was very pretty. Slowly Baekhyun approached, taking the pillow Sohyun placed in their midst and eroding the distance.

Sohyun's soft breath could be felt on his face. Their position is very close and Baekhyun deliberately because he wants to pay attention to Sohyun's face, enjoying his beauty alone.

He could not imagine that Sohyun belonged to another man. Moreover, Taehyung who he felt always approached Sohyun.

Wait, hold,

Why did Baekhyun think like this?

Is he jealous?

He looked back at Sohyun's face in silence, looking for answers to his feelings.

Sehun's words this afternoon came back to his mind.

Is this called being in love?

You want him to be there for you, you like his smile, you like whatever he has. Sohyun's annoyed face, his face when pouting, the sometimes messy hair like a tangled thread. Baekhyun liked all that.

He likes the personal Sohyun as it is. And he did not want Sohyun to belong to someone else.

Does loving someone make us possessive?

Sohyun slightly moved from his sleep and he was about to turn around. But somehow Baekhyun restrains the girl's body and takes her into Baekhyun's arms.

He had to swallow his own words just now that he would do nothing but sleep. He held up half his body, propped up with his left elbow and looked at Sohyun even more deeply.

He looked at Sohyun's closed eyes, his nose, and finally his lips.

Baekhyun's heart beat firmer when he saw Sohyun's natural pink lips.

Slowly, Baekhyun brought his face closer to Sohyun, and landed a soft kiss on Sohyun's lips.

And that moment he realized,

That he had already fallen deeper into Sohyun.

***