SILENCE LOVE'S

Chapter 24's

"Shyun? You okay?" call Junmyeon from outside the room while knocking on my door. I myself am now holding back my tears while hugging my knees.

Yeah, I'm tired of feeling this way, too.

What do you think I did when I met Baekhyun?

I didn't say anything else. Excuse me quickly and get off the hill. I didn't heed the man's call from far away.

Why is that guy here, eoh?! Why is the world so narrow!

Why do I always meet him when I try desperately to avoid him and forget him, even though I miss him.

Aish! I'll go crazy this way!

"Sohyun, answer me or I break down your door!" call Junmyeon again. From his tone of speech, he wasn't playing around right now. Not looking for trouble, I got up lethargic and opened the door. Junmyeon's face looked irritated.

"Who was that guy that made you cry, huh? Should I go see him now so he stops bothering you?!"

I calmed myself by trying to take a deep breath.

"I'm fine. The man didn't hurt me but I hurt myself" I replied, "You may see us. Obviously he didn't do anything to me but I just left and ended up like this."

Junmyeon sighed, "You want to tell me who that man is?"

Tonight, accompanied by quite bright stars and strong sea winds, I told Junmyeon everything. The man looked more serious listening to all my stories. Starting from our meeting in London until now, everything I told you without anyone being missed. The beach tonight is a little quiet because the time has shown at eleven o'clock at night. A time that could threaten your health if you're desperate to go out at night in the fall like this.

"So that guy on television, who broke your heart to such sadness?" junmyeon asked and I just nodded my head.

Junmyeon let out a long sigh again and he leaned his body on the balcony chair that was outside. We ourselves wear thick clothes just for the fresh air tonight.

"Quite confused. If he already has a lover, why did his eyes look at you like that?" ask my cousin.

I shook my head not knowing, "I'm tired, Junmyeon. I'm tired of loving someone like this while there are others waiting for my answer."

Junmyeon's eyebrows shot up next, "There's someone else? Who?"

"Kim Taehyung, son of the heir to the largest home shopping company in Korea. We also met in London and some time ago, he expressed his feelings and wanted to be my lover."

"Well, I can't believe you're doing too, either" Junmyeon commented, which upset me.

"You don't think I'm attractive, huh?!" I said pissed. Junmyeon chuckled a little.

"I'm kidding. Your nature sometimes makes me doubt that I'm talking to a woman. You're so fierce!"

I turned my eyes towards the sea. Junmyeon is back to being a bitch, and he laughs.

"You better calm your mind first. Don't hurt a man waiting for you. Don't accept that man if you don't love him. It'll hurt him one day," he said. I was silent and made no comment. Junmyeon stood up and patted me on the shoulder slowly and he entered the inn.

***

Junmyeon today took me to Seongeup Folk Village. This village is often a tourist destination in Jeju because in addition to the place and the air is clean, the aesthetic value here is very thick can make us proud to have this culture. While taking pictures of the places here, I saw Baekhyun and Yuri not far from us.

Hold on, man, wait,

Baekhyun and Yuri?!

"Hey, that's the guy who made you cry yesterday, right?" Junmyeon. I could only be dumbfounded to see that and I didn't feel like coming back. Baekhyun and Yuri are seen getting ready in makeup for a photo shoot here.

The umpteenth time, why is this world so small?!

"Leave it. There are still many interesting things that I have to photograph" I told Junmyeon.

"Hey, Baekhyun! Where are you going? The photo shoot is about to start!" shouted her makeup artist from afar which was very audible with a radius of 50 meters.

"He's following us!" junmyeon exclaimed, restrained at the sight of Baekhyun walking towards us, and he grabbed me, asking me to walk quickly away from the place because he knew I was trying to avoid Baekhyun. We walked quite fast and far away from the place. I thought Baekhyun would not be able to catch up because we were looking for a winding road around this village.

"Kim Sohyun, stop!" baekhyun exclaimed in exhaustion from chasing us. I was surprised and my steps stopped because I heard him scream, I did not think he was chasing us.

"Why did you stop?" ask Junmyeon.

I sighed and looked at Junmyeon, "I have to finish everything now."

I turned around and I saw the man seem to be regulating his breathing. His eyes were sharp at me, especially looking at my shoulders.

"We need to talk" said Baekhyun.

"All right, just talk now."

"Only you and I, without the man," said Baekhyun again. His face does not seem to like my cousin.

"Alright, alright. I'm goin. I'll give you five minutes to talk to my Sohyun!" junmyeon said then let go of her embrace from me and moved away. I saw Baekhyun's face getting bent over hearing the call Junmyeon gave me. He walked closer.

"Who is that guy?" ask Baekhyun sangsi.

"What's wrong? You don't have to ask who that guy is. Get to the point of it is, do you want to talk to me?" my many.

"I need to know who that guy is and why you two are alone here! You were with Taehyung then, and now who is that guy?!"

I widened my eyes. For the second time I saw Baekhyun this angry at me.

"Heol, why are you so angry like this, eoh?" my word.

"How can I not be angry?! You already have a lover but you're walking with another guy here. What if-"

Baekhyun stopped his words and his face slowly turned red.

"If what?" manya curious.

He snorted and turned his face away from me, "Forget it."

Weird guy.

"He's my cousin. He took me on vacation here" I replied. He looked at me quickly with a slightly guilty face.

"... b-how are you?" ask her in a soft voice.

I looked into her eyes which were now looking at me intensely and nodded my head finally.

"I'm good. I think you look good too" I replied. He nodded his head and smiled faintly.

"Ah yes, congratulations on your relationship with Yuri! I forgot to congratulate you yesterday" I said with a smile that I forced and I thrust my hand to shake it. But until the fifth second, Baekhyun did not welcome my hand.

"I don't want to accept your congratulations" Baekhyun said with a faint smile. I fell silent and put my hand down.

"O-oh, all right," I replied awkwardly.

The wind slowly blew and some leaves from the trees here fell. Our silence was filled with the sound of the wind touching the leaves, rustling.

"Stop your relationship with Taehyung."

I looked back at Baekhyun in surprise. What do you want this kid?!

"What do you mean?" I asked with a slanted smile, "Why did you tell me to break up with Taehyung?"

"I don't like you being with him" Baekhyun said. The man looked back at me sharply.

I grieved while holding back my cynical laughter looking at Baekhyun's attitude which somehow sucks!

"What right do you have?" I asked, "Are you jealous?"

"Yes I'm jealous!" baekhyun exclaimed, "I'm jealous you're with your cousin, let alone you going out with Taehyung!"

"It's funny! You already have a lover but you forbid me from going out with another man. You're just my friend, Baek. We don't have any relationship other than that but you act like–"

"I'll be your lover!"

My words stopped and my heart was beating so fast.

"I'd be your lover, if I could, Sohyun,"

Without me realizing the water in my eyes more and more, collected a lot and then can not be dammed again.

"Do you like me, Baek?"

He shut up and looked at me deeply. That's a stupid question. Is it possible that Baekhyun likes me when he already has a lover? Was he just jealous because I was avoiding him? Is this just his selfishness?

"I like you, Sohyun."

A confession that makes my heart flower. I should be glad that my love is not clapping one hand. I don't know why I feel pain.

"Then why are you dating Yuri if you like me?"

"Don't be selfish, Baek. Think about Yuri's feelings," I said.

"I'm not selfish, Sohyun. I have a reason" he replied.

"Explain the reason to me!"

"I can't,"

"Why?!"

Silent. Baekhyun was silent and he looked desperate. I sighed, really tired like this.

"Alright if you can't explain why. If you already have Yuri, please appreciate her feelings. I thank you if you like me," I replied in a wise manner. I desperately fought my ever-increasing ego!

"I hope you'll wait for me. There's a lot I have to tell you."

Baekhyun is the very definition of selfishness!

"Do you like me too, Sohyun?"

My lips were about to pull out a syllable but everything stopped because of a sound.

"Baekhyun!"

Me and Baekhyun turned to the source of the voice. Yuri was standing there and set her breath, "Come fast, Chairman Lee is looking for you! I can't hold it anymore!"

The big question mark now hangs on my head.

What the hell is this really?

"You can answer that later. I have to go" Baekhyun said to me and slowly rubbed my head and whispered words that only I could hear.

"I hope the answer is yes" said the man, "I love you, Sohyun."

He walked over to Yuri and went to their photo shoot.

***

"Ah, here you are apparently!" junmyeon exclaimed in annoyance, "I thought that man named Baekhyun kidnapped you!"

I just sighed as I sat down and saw the scene of the layout of the rural houses down there.

"What did that man tell you to make you like this again?" junmyeon asked began to get emotional.

"Stop getting angry, Oppa. He didn't hurt me. But I hurt myself" I said. Thanks to my words, I felt an object hovering in my head quite loudly.

"Yes!" I cried and I saw Junmyeon hit me on the head with the hat she was wearing earlier, "Why did you hit me?!"

"Because you're stupid!" junmyeon replied, "Why do you want to hurt yourself with a man who already has a lover, eoh?!"

I was silent, still wiping my head and looking down. What Junmyeon said was true.

"He's not a good man to you, Sohyun. If she likes you, she shouldn't be dating another girl" my cousin said, "What if she's dating you? Maybe he'll find another woman!"

I was silent and could neither argue nor deny. Everything is true but complicated for me. And again, I felt that there was something strange that Yuri and Baekhyun were covering up at the moment. Butwhat?

I got up from my seat, "I want to go home."

Junmyeon sighed and nodded his head, "Let's go home."

***

I put my body in my bed. It feels so tired. Both physically and mentally, everyone was tired. I breathed a deep breath and exhaled it rough. My mind wandered back and through time. Back I remembered Baekhyun's confession. For God's sake, I was once again so happy when I heard the word that he loved me! But I don't know why I feel bad? I thought of Yuri who saw Baekhyun rubbing my head. Which woman is not jealous to see her lover touching another woman with affection?

My daydream was gone when I heard my phone. I sighed looking at the name of the caller.

"Hello?"

"Hi, what are you doing?"

"Just relax. What's up, Tae?"

"I just miss you, Sohyun," Taehyung replied.

I kept quiet because I didn't know what to answer.

"Well, I know you don't miss me. Ah, it hurts so much not to be missed by my own lover!" taehyung said in a joking tone. I smiled hearing it.

"We're not dating, Taehyung," I said.

"We're going to date, Sohyun. The news about you and me dating has been a lot of talk about it" Taehyung said, to my surprise.

"Is the news really spreading?"

"Of course," she replied, "So, you want to be my girlfriend?"

I paused for a moment and sighed, "Give me some more time, Tae. It feels like you just talked to me yesterday."

I heard Taehyung chuckle, "Ah yes, alright. If you want, you can call me. I hope so."

"Hm, okay."

"Then, you rest first. I have a little business to do" Taehyung said.

"Eoh."

I turned off the connection and looked back at the ceiling. Junmyeon's words came back to my head. If you don't like someone, never accept their feelings because it will only hurt them later. Yes, my heart is still attached to a figure named Baekhyun. I have to answer the question that I like it.

I got out of my room and went out. I heard Baekhyun was staying at an inn not far from where I was staying. I have to see him tonight before I regret it. Baekhyun's inn is located a little uphill because it is close to the hill I came with Junmyeon yesterday. Soon it will arrive but my steps stop when I hear a conversation.

"I know it's wrong, but I like you."

I tried to get closer to hear a woman's voice heard at a turn of the road. When I peeked at her, I saw Baekhyun and Yuri there. I resisted my intention to talk to Baekhyun and I heard their conversation.

"Why?" ask Baekhyun.

"Baek, we've been dating for two weeks! Is it possible that I'm not falling for you right now?!"

Baekhyun was silent with a very flat face, completely not answering Yuri further. The girl looked very sad and upset, she rubbed her face rough because of Baekhyun's attitude like this.

"I don't like you treating Sohyun like it was this afternoon. You can only treat me like that!" said Yuri.

"Stop acting stupid, Yuri." Baekhyun was about to leave Yuri but quickly the girl held Baekhyun's arm and he brought her face closer to Baekhyun.

I threw my face away quickly in shock at all of that. Everything is very clear. Yuri likes Baekhyun. Whether there's a secret to what happened to them, I don't think I need to know. I can imagine now that Yuri kissed Baekhyun even though I didn't see them, it was too painful.

The shadow of Baekhyun's love expression slowly evaporated from my mind. Everything will change. I don't want to hurt Yuri who now loves Baekhyun. And I'm ready to swallow my feelings whole.

I walked quickly down the hills and walked back to the inn. I tried so hard to hold back my tears from spilling because I thought of that. Junmyeon who was working on something with her laptop on the terrace of the inn looked very surprised to see me. And damn, I can't lie to my cousin on this one.

"Why are you crying, Sohyun?" junmyeon asked in surprise and walked up to me.

I was silent, trying to control my emotions.

"Baekhyun again? Oh, what else did that guy do to you, huh?!" exclaimed Junmyeon furious.

The man was about to go to where Baekhyun was staying but I held his arm firmly.

"What else? You want to defend that jerk after you've been treated like this?!"

"He didn't hurt me but-"

"Stop being silly, Kim Sohyun! Where would anyone want to hurt themselves?!"

"It's true I hurt myself! I fell in love with the wrong person. I already knew that it was wrong but I was still stubborn!" I answered Junmyeon.

"Sohyun, but-"

"Please,"

I held her arms tight and held back my tears from spilling. Unfortunately, I failed again. I looked at my cousin who looked angry and was mistaken to see me like this. A desire stamped in my head. Well, maybe this is the best.

"Please, Oppa. I want to get back to Toronto as soon as possible."

***