SIGITS

THE LAST TEARS

　

　

This morning I decided to go back to Jakarta. I know that our KKN is not finished but I can no longer live in this village maybe I will find another place to complete my KKN but not in Bandung anymore. Because these memories in Bandung are enough for me.

“ Why Risya you decided this side of the party?” Said Kiky who was disappointed with my decision.

“ I'm sorry but I have to go from here.” I said while packing all my – items.

“ No Risya, this is not your will, stay here Risya our duty is only a few days away. Tomorrow Arka has returned to Bandung.” Said Runa who tried to hold me back.

“ What Archa asked you to return to Jakarta?” Ask Amel who is standing at the door of my room at the house of Mr. Agung.

“ No, Arka doesn't know any of this. I didn't even tell him I was going back to Jakarta.” I said sitting on the edge of the bed.

“ It's up to you Risya, here I don't like the one called Love. He ruined everything. You should be more mature facing Risya instead of sacrificing our work. You think it's just about you. You're wrong this is about us, about our value Risya. All of you go.”

Said Kiky in anger and kicked through the door of the room. Kiky left us.

“ Kiky where are you going.” Said Runa who was trying to catch up to Kiky.

True Kiky said I was stupid in terms of love, should not I play – play with love, should not I meet with Sigit and love him. I was wrong and I was stupid.

“ Already Risya does not need to listen to what Kiky.” says Via meranngkulku. Amel is now approaching and embracing me. I knew they were amazing friends to me.

“ You don't know and don't see what really happened. I'm tired.” I said as I shed tears in the arms of Amel and Via.

　

“ RISYA.”

“ RISYA.”

There was someone calling my name from outside, the voice of a woman who was so panicked and trembling. We rushed out to get to the woman.

“ Bu Risma.” We said together when we saw Bu Risma with a panicked face and sobs, seen Miss Risma who was barefoot in the living room.

“ What's up Bu?” I took Miss Risma and held her hand.

“ Mas Setya Risya, Mas Setya.” Say Bu Risma stamped – bricks with sobs. My heart instantly stopped beating as Bu Risma called out Sigit. Oh God what happened to Sigit so Miss Risma was this sweet, my thoughts were so bad about her.

“ What's up with Sigit?” My words to Ms. Risma became panic-stricken, I tried to throw my bad thoughts about Sigit.

“ Mas Setya found unconscious in his room.” Said Miss Risma who kept crying, Miss Risma pulled me to go to Sigit's house immediately.

Finally we all went to Sigit's house using a motorbike we borrowed from the residents.

When I got to Sigit's house I immediately ran to Sigit's room. Sigit who was lying on his bed and a Doctor who was beside him.

“ How is the condition Doc?” I said to the Doctor as I approached Sigit.

“ He was able to wake up and call your name Risya.” Said Dr. Adan, Dr. Adan is a general practitioner who serves in the Panti clinic.

“ Sigit, wake this up I'm here.” I held Sigit's hand, I couldn't see him like this.

Sigit didn't respond to me at all, we all cried when we saw him like this.

“ Hey haughty man, I'm here. Open your eyes or I destroy all your basketball.” My words are constantly trying to wake Sigit up. I'm sure he'll hear me and open his eyes.

Miss Risma and the others went out leaving us both. I'm right – right no power to hold back these tears. Not now Sigit, not yet the time you have to be strong and stay alive. I screamed inwardly.

“ Hey Proud guy, do you still remember your promise to climb with me. Open your eyes soon. After that we climbed a thousand mountains together. You must keep your promise.”  I cried as hard as I could at this moment, I kept holding her hand so that she would feel the warmth of my body. I kissed her forehead and I hugged her body.

“ Build Sigit, let's get up don't be like this. Why do you always make me sad.” My words are full of emotion.

Sigit responded to me, he moved his hand and opened his eyes slowly.

“ Hey cocky woman, don't cry. Wipe your tears.” Said Sigit with a very slow and vibrating sound.

“ Why do you worry me like this, let's get up.” I hugged Sigit.

Sigit stroked my hair and smiled.

“ I'm good – just fine Risya, wipe your tears.” Sigit's mouth set my cheek smooth.

“ Don't be like this again, I'll call the Doctor first.’ I said while holding Sigit's hand.

“ No Risya, stay here.” Said Sigit holding me in his arms.

“ Sigit.” I said but Sigit's finger held my mouth back from speaking anymore.

I don't know what he's thinking right now but I'm very comfortable in his arms.

If I could ask Sigit to stay alive by exchanging my happiness.

I am very happy to lose my happiness.

If only I could turn back the clock, I would like to repeat 6 years ago to be next to Sigit forever.

If there was a second chance, I'd like to repeat all our stories from the beginning.

If there is a second chance, I want God to bring us together early.

Lord, if you hear our prayer, I beg you to lift up all his sicknesses, give him a chance to live. I really can't afford to continue to see him suffer like this.

　

*****

“ Hello Ark.” I said to Arka behind the phone.

“ Risya, I've taken care of everything, I want our wedding to be accelerated.” Arka said to surprise me.

“ Why so suddenly Arka.” I don't know why Arka planned this alone without my consent.

“ I'm sorry Risya, but I've got the blessing of your Parents. Maybe after you finish your duties in the village we will have our wedding.” Said Arka behind the phone.

“ But what's the reason, why didn't you tell me earlier. When do you return to Bandung.” My words are very disappointed with Arka's decision.

“ I'm right – am sorry darling, I'll explain it later after we meet. I still take care of all – letters for our wedding. When it's done, I'll see you soon. You take good care of yourself – well. I missed you.” Arka then hung up the phone.

What's up Arka why so soon, why don't we talk first. I never thought He would speed up our marriage. One problem is not yet resolved why another problem should arise.

“ What's up Risya?” Said Via who approached me

“ Arch Via, He's asking for our wedding in quick succession. But I don't know what the reason is.”  I said while holding Via's hand.

“ Didn't you ask him.” Said Via rubbing my hair finely.

“ Already Via, but Arka did not tell the reason. What's up this Ark. He should have waited another year.” I stood up from my chair and was still thinking why Arka had made the decision so quickly.

“ Maybe He can't wait to live with you.” Said Via embracing my shoulder.

“ No, Arka is not that kind of man, I know what kind of Arka.”

“ Yes we have waited until Arka arrives, oh yes are you going to come to the Village Head office.” Said Via who was preparing to go to Village Hall.

“ No Via, I have an appointment with Sigit. I'm sorry.” I smiled and held onto Via's shoulder.

“ Yes Risya I understand, yes already if something happens again immediately contact us.” Said Via who then walked away from the home.