SIGITS
IF IT IS THE BEST
It was morning when I opened my eyes. The sounds of Birds and Chickens waking my sleep. I saw a wall clock in front of me. The time is 06:30 in the morning. I saw Sigit's door open, Sigit was no longer in his room. I cleaned up and changed my clothes.
I went down into the kitchen to see a plate of fried rice on the dining table, and an empty plate of someone's food. Could this be Sigit making me breakfast. I ate the fried rice Sigit made.
After that I saw the backyard turned out Sigit was not there, I looked for him to all parts of the house but there was no Him anywhere. Maybe he's going to the parlor or the plantation I thought. As I was about to put on my shoes to go to the parlor, Sigit came in full of sweat and a towel wrapped around his neck. Turns out he just got home from a morning run.
Thank goodness He is good – is fine, I said inwardly. Sigit came in just ignoring me.
Is he still angry with me. I don't know but it's really painful to see him being cold towards me. He doesn't even look at me at all.
Hmmm I sighed and left her towards the parlour. I think Anyun will come after that.
“ Assaamualaikum Bu Risma.” I said to Ms. Risma who was accompanying the child – children breakfast.
“ Wa’alaikum greetings, Yes Allah Nak Risya here sit down to eat breakfast with us.” Miss Risma asked me to have breakfast with them.
“ To Risya.” Shouted the – boys when they saw me and they approached and hugged me. I am very happy to be treated this way by them.
“ Come back and finish your meal, so you can grow tall and healthy.” I said to the kid – that kid. Children – the child went back to their seat – each.
I approached Ms. Risma and kissed the back of her hand as a sign of respect.
“ I've had breakfast earlier Bu Risma, yes I will be secure to prepare the needs of children – children to learn and play.” I said to Ms. Risma and left them to the backyard garden. Seen those who eat rush – hunt because they want to quickly snuggle.
Child – the boy had already finished eating when I finished preparing the painting tools for them.
They ran towards me and sat on the mat I had prepared. Some of them were fighting for a seat to be close to me. Who's fighting over watercolors. They are so funny and make me laugh.
Kiky came to me. Yes at this time it is Kiky's turn to accompany me to teach this – children. Kiky teaches – children how to clean their teeth through painting media. They are very enthusiastic, occasionally Kiky joking and make them laugh out loud – bahak.
I saw Sigit coming with Aida. They walk and laugh. Sigit came up to us and watched us paint every once in a while Sigit joked with Aida, it seemed like he was very happy.
I tried to take my eyes off them but I couldn't, I tried not to think about it. Why did Sigit do this in front of me. Said Bu Risma Sigit only thought of her as a sister but I saw more than that.
Sigit swung Aida in a swing, occasionally Sigit gently stroked Aida's hair and placed a flower in her ear. My heart hurts so much and it hurts to see all this.
“ Kak Risya what is it?” Said Husna who arrived – suddenly rubbed my cheek.
“ Nothing – what a dear Husna, let me see your painting.” I said I saw a piece of paper containing Husna's painting.
“ I'm not good at painting Kak.” Husna bent his face.
“ It's okay Husna is very good, but isn't today's theme Gigi and Germs, then this is what you made?” I said when I saw Husna's picture.
“ This is Sister Risya, This is Sister Setya and this is Husna. Husna love you guys.” Husna explained the picture. He made a picture of a small family.
“ Wow thank you Husna for making Kak Risya a picture, this is good sekal.” Saying while
hugging Husna.
“ Husna would love to have Parents, it's okay – what if Husna considers Kak Setya and Kak Risna as Father and Mother Husna?” Husna said while rubbing my face. Husna was found and cared for in the orphanage since Infancy, his mother died while giving birth to him and his father went somewhere due to depression. Husna is now placed in this cancer parlor. From birth he had abnormalities in his body,
He was born with a heart that was broken. Husna has performed several surgeries on his illness.
Sigit listened to Husna and approached him.
“ Dear Husna, We are Your Parents. You don't need to ask permission to consider us Your Parents.” Say Sigit with glazed eyes – glass and smooth stroking Husna's hair and kiss her forehead. 6-year-old child who does not know what the face of his Parents like, it is remarkable Husna is a smart child even He is one of the memorizers of the Qur’an. Although his body is not as healthy as other children but his spirit is very high.
“ Brother Setya what if we call you Father and Mother only.” Say child – the child happily.
Kiky who saw the child – the child was crying. I looked at Sigit who was also staring at me.
When Aida says that my heart hurts, but I keep smiling in front of the – boy. I realize I am not who – who for Sigit so Sigit is free to choose his life partner, anyway I have Arka as my partner. I'm selfish if I'm jealous.
“ But Husna only wants Sister Risya.” Husna said spoiled while hugging me.
Aida looked at me with a cynical look. I'm sure Aida doesn't like me very much. Maybe I think let Aida take care of Sigit. Maybe tonight I'll decide not to stay at Sigit's house again.
“ OK Kids – kids lesson today is finished, it's time we play.” Kiky said thawing Susana so as not to heat up. Kiky who looks very happy to face the – children of this home.
They collect their paintings and go play with Kiky. Aida leaves the home for some reason and Sigit drives her.
“ Can I help.” Said Sigit while cleaning the work of the child – the child. I thought He was gone with Aida but why did – arrive He was beside me.
I just smiled and nodded at Sigit. We brought the painting to Ms. Risma's room.
Today Ms. Risma is going to the City because there is an important business.
I put down my body and sit on the park chair while watching the – children play, he said,
it feels really tired. Last night I couldn't sleep thinking about Sigit.
“ Risya.” Said Sigit who caught up with me and sat beside me.
“ Yes.” I replied while glancing towards Sigit.
“ What you can help me.” Said Sigit while bowing his head, his hand holding the iron chair we were sitting on. Sigit held out his long legs. Sigit's body now looks a little thinner.
“ Help what Git?” My curious words.
“ Later tonight I will take Aida to dinner, I intend to propose to her. Can you arrange the decorations tonight. Quite simple in the backyard of my house.’ Said Sigit who was still bowing
head and not look at me one bit.
DEG.. It feels like my heart arrived – suddenly stopped that's it, am I not wrong to hear it as soon as Sigit will propose Aida. God be honest I can't help him, but I can't be selfish I have to throw all my race for him. I think if this makes Sigit happy and can make it more
the passion for Kenpa life is not.
“ Good, I'll help you. What time Sigit you will have dinner with Risya.” I said while holding back the tears that had been rolling in my eyeballs.
“ Maybe at half-time 8pm, I want you to document everything. I want to have memories for that day and so that I don't forget them.” Said Sigit increasingly making my heart hurt and broken.
“ Yes I will prepare the best for you.” I said, holding back my tears and the pain of my heart.
“ Thank you Risya.” Said Sigit who stood up and touched my shoulder. I dare not look at Sigit's face. Sigit left me alone after that.
After Sigit left my tears fell on my cheeks. Oh my God, this pain is so incredible. How can I document when someone I love proposes to someone else. How can I smile
when the one I love circles the ring in another woman's sweet day.
If I knew Love was painful I would have wanted to be born without love.
If I knew that love makes suffering, I might want to be born without love.
There are two reasons why someone just leaves.
First because of the deep hate
Second, because of the deep love
And I chose to leave because of my deep love for Sigit.
If being away from her makes her happy then I will go as far away from her as possible.
(Ost Purple “ IF IT'S THE BEST “ )
