SIGITS

Goodbye

　

　

This morning I immediately rushed back to Panti, on the road I tried not to remember – reminisce yesterday. This time I was accompanied by Runa.

Right in front of the parlor I saw a yellow flag attached to the fence, and some residents entered the parlour wearing black clothes.

Oh my god, is not the yellow flag a sign of the grieving, who is the bedridden. My words are inward. We stood stunned looking at the parlor.

The parlour yard has been installed tents and chairs and some residents have been sitting in that seat. Sadness on their faces.

Runa and I ran inside. It looks like someone has been put to sleep in the living room and covered by a cloth and wrapped in a shroud. My tears could not be contained anymore and flowed on my cheeks.

My body was no longer energetic, I fell down next to the body, I slowly opened the covering cloth that covered his face.

My God why are you taking Ega so quickly from us, when yesterday we still had time to play with him and even eat with him. Now Ega's face looks calmer.

I can't hold back my tears. I hugged Ega's body which had become cold and stiff, though,

I kissed her forehead for the last time.

Runa directly contacted Arka and the others to immediately go to Panti. It looks like Bu Risma who continues to cry beside Ega while holding the Qur’an.

“ Don't cry anymore, Dy is calm there, Dy is no longer in pain.” Said Sigit while giving a tissue to wipe away my tears. Sigit's face looked tough but I knew that his heart was fragile and broken at this moment.

Sigit took me to the back garden to calm me down. Dy gave me a glass of mineral water to make me calmer. My tears are right – really can't stop.

I still remember the first time I met Ega, Dy who was a very sweet and kind girl. Dy never complained about his pain until Dy never looked sad.

Dy is a strong and tough kid. Dy always looks happy. Dy is a very good and wonderful boy.

Sigit wiped away the tears that flowed down my cheeks, not a word from the mouths of the two of us.

Sigit rested my head on his shoulder. It feels a little calm and comfortable

Sigit stroked my hair finely. Although Dy is sad Dy didn't show it in front of me.

“ We better get back inside, guests are starting to get crowded. Have you started improving Risya?” Said Sigit as my heart began to improve and calm down. I take my seat back. I wiped the tears that wet my cheeks.

“ It is Rishya we pray the best for Ega, maybe God loves him more.” Said Sigit while looking at my face with his smile that made me warm, I still can't say what – what. I smile back from him.

We walked towards the living room again, more and more guests arrived. I saw Arka who was talking with Mr. Agung.

“ Arch, it's been a long time you came.” I said as I approached Arka when Pak Agung went inside to see Ega. Arka noticed my puffy eyes.

“ No dear I just arrived.” Said Arka while touching my smooth cheek.

“ Let's inside we see Ega for the last time.” I said to invite Arka in to see Ega. Beside Ega were Via and the others. Ms. Risma now looks more robust. No more tears flowing.

“ Patient yes Mom, maybe this is the best for Ega.” Said Arka while giving greetings to Miss Risma.

　

　

“ When will Ega's body be buried?” Said Mr. Agung to Sigit. Because it was getting late and the body had to be buried immediately

“ How after Dzuhur Prayer sir? “ Say Sigit in a smooth tone while looking at the Hublot Big Bang watch that Dy wears.

Me, Arka and Sigit are sitting together waiting for the funeral. It seems like we haven't been like this for a long time, the last time we talked three at the last moment of the MOPD.

But the current atmosphere is much different from 9 years ago.

“ Want me to make coffee.” I said to Arka and Sigit as I got up from the chair I was sitting in.

“ May, I make you warm tea only.” Said Arka while glancing at me.

“ I also want warm tea only.” Said Sigit who was looking at me as well. When Sigit looked at me Arka's face looked a little unhappy. I immediately rushed to the kitchen to bring them some warm tea, the two people liked the tea which was not too sweet so I did not find it difficult to make it.

“ Here is the tea please drink, I will help others prepare drinks and food for the neighbors who visit.” I said to them while giving them warm tea and a little snack.

“ Thank you Risya.” Say them at the same time and look me in the face. It didn't take long for me to go back to the kitchen and leave the two of them to talk.

Sometimes when I'm with the two of them I feel like I'm faced with a mistake.

Why are they present in my life ? Why do they fill my heart ? And why I'm a fool can't refuse any of them.

Maybe you think I'm happiest being loved by two men at once. NO. You guys are wrong, I am the one who suffers the most with all of this, I should be a lot smarter to choose but the truth is I can only hurt their heart and hurt my own heart.

Adzan Dzuhur has reverberated, we prepare – ready for congregational prayer after that we will go to TPU Cibuyut to mengemayamakan Ega's body.

　

“ Risya you want to join the hearse or be with me.” Said Arka after we prayed and prepared to bring Ega's body to TPU.

“ I'm coming with you Ka, I don't want to shed another tear in front of Ega.” I said to Arka, I also want to appreciate Arka who has been far – to come here.

“ Yes already let's wait in the car.” Said Arka while leading me. From afar Sigit watched as we stepped together and held hands.

We flocked – flocked to accompany the body of Ega to TPU Cibuyut, the distance of TPU and Panti takes 20 minutes taken by vehicle.

Once at TPU we approached a ground that had been dug, the hole was the size of Ega's body. Ega's body was inserted keliah lahat by Sigit, Arka and assisted by 2 other residents.

Sigit opened the pocong rope tied to Ega's body and charged her one last time. After they rose above the ground, little by little the ground was lowered and covered Ega's body inside. My tears could not be contained anymore when I saw Ega's body was now filled with the ground.

The poor and innocent child was now calm and no longer in pain. Ega was happy in Heaven with the creator.

Arka leaned me on her shoulder and gave me a tissue to wipe my tears.

Now Ega's body is right – really no longer visible, the hole that was made is now covered with soil and mountains. I sprinkle some flowers on top of Ega's funeral, Maybe tomorrow I'll visit Ega's funeral, even though I'll be back in Jakarta I'll take the time to see Ega

and children – children's home.

We pray for Ega together, after that one by one the residents who left the cemetery as well as Bu Risma and –anak orphanage children. Mr. Kades, Via and the others returned home as well.

“ Risya let's go home.” Said Arka while kneeling beside me. I kissed Ega's tombstone as a farewell greeting.

Sigit was still standing next to Ega's tomb and kept looking at him.

“ Sigit let's go home.” Said Arka to Sigit while patting Sigit on the shoulder.

“ I still want to be here, you guys go first.” Said Sigit while opening his sunglasses that covered his red eyes earlier.

“ Yes we have gone home first yes.” I said while shaking hands with Sigit. I know how sad Sigit is right now, even though this – boy has no blood relation with him but Sigit has taken care of them for a very long time.

I walked with Arka and left Sigit alone in the cemetery. Every now and then I look back to see Sigit kneeling holding Ega's tombstone.