SECRET Love High School

My feelings

Along the way the atmosphere was silent, several times I lyrics towards Dimas driving, he seemed to focus on the streets. Logically, I did nothing wrong. There's no connection whatsoever between me and Dimas of course I don't have to explain the case. But my heart felt uneasy and wanted to explain everything.

"I can explain everything" I said breaking the silence

"He said he was your future husband and you said it was true, what else is there to explain?" asked Dimas without looking at me

"It's not what you think!"

"You know what I'm thinking?"

I went back to silence, Dimas was right I don't even know what Dimas' head was about. I'm just worried it's unclear. But a moment later Dimas pulled over, he stopped on a fairly shady road.

"Explain!" he said it made me confused, I really don't understand Dimas.

"He's the son of my father's friend who was betrothed to me, we haven't agreed to get married, we've just met, '" I tried to explain

"Then why does he talk like that and you justify it?" Dimas looked at me with a look of intimidation scaring me

"Because of the win we are being betrothed, and in the ta'aruf stage" I replied softly

"And he feels fit maybe soon will continue to the khitbah stage so? since when did it become a gini religion?" dimas said it made me angry.

"Why are you?" upset me

"Jealousy!"

Once again Dimas made me silent. I asked the obvious. Although I was hesitant, I felt that Dimas still liked me.

"I'm wrong, I should have asked you right away, but instead of waiting, I think you still need time to settle your past with Abas, Aaah it's time you won't be able to go back, forget it!"

Dimas was driving his car. I was still silent, what was in my head at the time could Dimas be disappointed, angry and would stay away from me? could it be that this time I will lose Dimas for good? Fifteen years without it my life feels dead. Just a routine, without passion without emotion.

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The next day Dimas did not show up at all. I wanted to contact him but I was hesitant. Until the night is almost gone I still think about it.

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Thursday morning after dawn I found Dimas talking to Dad on the porch. I made coffee for them.

"Tumben you made, your mother where?" ask Dad

"Still shopping" I replied

Dimas seemed indifferent not to see me in the slightest. Unlike usual a lot of talk and nosy that day he just kept silent while continuing to look at the picture of the new mosque building plan.

-*-*_*-*-

The sky was so bright, the afternoon breeze tossed the kite high touching the clouds. Old, young boisterous crowded in the field, there are those who play kites and who just look like me.

I deliberately went out of the house looking for fresh air. It feels tired of my head thinking about Dimas plus from noon Adi kept calling but I did not reply to the call.

I know my attitude is unfair to Adi. But I still feel lazy talking to him. I feel so bad as a woman. I gave him hope but I didn't think about it.

Clucical clutches

The voice of the incoming message, I found Adi the sender. He invited me to meet, tomorrow after Friday prayers he'll pick me up. I agreed because there was something I wanted to talk about.

-*-*_*-*-

Fragrance of perfume abah semerbak filled the entire house. My sister Dwi looks handsome in her black clothes and peci. Dad and Dwi were preparing to go Friday prayers to the mosque, suddenly Adi came to visit, faster than his promise.

Perfectly, Dimas would see Adi into the mosque with Dad and Dwi. Not to mention the father who will most likely introduce Adi as his former candidate to the neighbors. I could think that Adi would be my real husband is really getting runyam this is a problem, I thought.

What I was afraid was right, coupled with the agenda of the mosque management meeting in my house made the atmosphere more dramatic.

"Dad, Eka said to go first," I said goodbye to Dad who was with Dimas, Papa Dimas, and several new mosque building committee

"I am Adi, greetings to all the fathers,"

"Wiih pantes Eka long wait, which is sought like this, already handsome doctor anyway," said Mr. Kamil perfect this chaos.

Before things got complicated I immediately decided to leave.

-*-*_*-*-

We went to a famous restaurant in the city. Resto Adi family subscriptions, where many cool shady trees. Not too rame, maybe because the price is quite expensive but indeed the price carries flavor. The taste of the cuisine is delicious and stomach-fitting.

"Eka there is something I want to talk about about our matchmaking" said Adi began the conversation

"Eka there is also something to talk about Mas, can Eka first?" my answer interrupted the conversation

Not to be disrespectful just that I don't want to get caught in an unfortunate situation. Luckily Adi let me talk early

"I want our matchmaking annulled," I replied without further ado

"Because of the man who was in the hospital yesterday?"

"No, but because Eka's feelings are not for Adi mas,"

"Yes, since Dik Eka's feelings are already for her," Adi replied with a smile

"Sorry Mas Adi, but it's about me, not about him, I'm the one who doesn't feel like Mas Adi is the one I'm looking for,"

"It's okay, Dik Eka, I know, I was going to say the same thing, too" Adi's words surprised me

"You mean Mas Adi also wants to end our arranged marriage?" Ask to make sure

"Yes, I'm sorry that time was presumptuous to say that I was your future husband, but I did deliberately know the man's reaction,"

"meaning?"

"I knew immediately when Dik Eka refused to eat with me, at first I thought because of the man who walked with Dik Eka, but apparently because the other one. To be honest at the time I was a little jealous, but seeing his reaction I felt ashamed, it seemed like my feelings were not strong enough to compete with him,"

"meaning?"

"I mean, Dik Eka married him only, I'm sure no one loved Dik Eka more than him,"

"If that is what I know," I said with a smile and Adi welcomed my smile

"Don't call Mas dong again, I feel older hahaha, Adi only?"

"May, if I were you to be impressed more familiar how?"

"May, but I'm used to my word, understand doctors almost always use formal language, so it's customary, sorry if you forget?"

"Yes, I'm just, hahaha,"

We laughed together

"Thank you Di, I thought you'd be angry not to accept,"

"I want to get married to be happy, if your heart is for someone else how will I be happy? so do not apologize, this is not the name of a mate," said Adi wisely

We laughed together again. My heart feels relieved like breathing the cool air of the mountains after being tired of urban pollution. I'm sure Dad will definitely choose me the best husband candidate so no wonder Adi is so good.

"Eka's coming tomorrow for a reunion with me?"

"Well we're an alma mater?" ask me for wonder

"I also just found out, Dik Eka's father said, I was told to pick up Dik Eka, let it come together,"

Me and Adi chatting this is about our school. It feels like my burden has diminished by one. Now there is a problem of making peace with Dimas.