SECRET Love High School

Disconnecting

As usual Dimas picked me up to go to school, the morning was a little drizzling, Dimas gave me his jacket so I wouldn't get rained on. It was the same jacket Dimas had lent to cover the bloodstains on my uniform skirt back then. Two days ago I just returned it.

It was the last day of the semester exam. We were planning to go home but since we got afternoon train tickets then we decided to take a walk first after school in exchange for our first date which twice failed.

I saw Dimas looking so enthusiastic he even said he would finish the exam in ten minutes so that he could go on a date with me immediately.

The last test of the day was English, I remember doing about seventeen of the fifty but Dimas was done and peeked at me from the classroom window several times. I forgot who was guarding the exam back then, but I remember Dimas at the law standing one foot in front of my class for interfering with the course of the exam. Not that he was sorry he was happy to get the punishment.

“Time is up, collect all your answer sheets on my desk now! and you your punishment is done, next time don't disturb your friend who is testing, not everyone is smart like you, understand?” The teacher scolded Dimas, it seemed like everyone in the school knew Dimas

“Ready understand, thank you for the punishment sir,” Dimas replied making the other students laugh

“Punished instead thank you,” with a stack of test answer sheets the teacher hit Dimas's arm, Dimas just grinned the horse

After the teacher left the class Dimas immediately sat on the bench Jiwo who was in the front row seemed to be tired feet, I let him. Wrong himself nosy, arrogant, smartest ass. I don't understand why I have to worry about Dimas's grades, people like Dimas even though working while sleeping will still get perfect grades.

When I think back to that time it only occurred to me that ten minutes of working on fifty matters meant that he only needed about twelve seconds to solve one problem. Though in the English exam there is always a reading problem that must be super thorough. It felt like twelve seconds to read the matter alone was not enough for me, Dimas was indeed a genius!

“Capek? Hahaha,” goda Ayu

“Hehehe yes, tingling,” replied Plain dimas

“Sok is the smartest!” I said as I threw the bag of Dimas lying on the floor, Dimas caught it swiftly

“You didn't take the exam? Really finished?” ask Diah to Dimas

“Hahaha the answer sheet is just me fill in the name, class and number of absences” replied Dimas who I know he lied. Where possible a Dimas would leave the answer sheet blank, that would be impossible.

“Hah really?” aura almost believed

“Long, do not believe the same Dimas!” I said pissing everyone off at Dimas, Dimas just laughed nosily

“Hehehe, uh by the way that girl if PMS how long anyway?” ask Dimas to the friends who surrounded him. PMS here means premenstrual Syndrome experienced by women before menstruation.

“Ih why ask that?” tanya Aura amused

“Soalnya my boyfriend PMS her long time, two weeks after and before the month comes, it's normal not anyway?”

“Hahaha that's your girlfriend's name is fierce!” diah answered while pushing me

“Udah change aja his girlfriend replace me hahaha,” goda Ayu to Dimas

“Gak ah, the more fierce the more beautiful because hahaha,” said Dimas make all cheer

Dimas is so annoying, why would he talk like that to my friends? Just embarrass me.

I immediately walked away from the classroom, in the corridor I passed Abas, he had looked at me but as if he did not think I was there he just passed. I heard Dimas greeting Abas cheerfully, I looked back and saw them cuddling hands as if Dimas was begging for prayer and Abas was encouraging. I wonder what happened to Abas? why is he so cold to me? Did I make one mistake? Or is he jealous knowing I'm going on a date with Dimas? Dimas must have told him.

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“You watch what?” ask Dimas to me

“Gak ah, later miss the train,” I replied dodging

“Eat yuk?”

“Not want ah, just buy a drink I'm thirsty,”

The morning before noon the sky was still gray, the drizzle briefly went back, it looks like the rainy season will come sooner. That day I ordered avocado juice while Dimas ordered hot coffee.

“Tumben you drink coffee?” to my surprise, not usually Dimas drink coffee

“Last night stayed up working on a research proposal for that competition in America,”, Dimas explained

“Kan proposal in English, the exam is English so doing a proposal is the same as studying right? Why drink avocado juice?” he asked back

“Yes because of!” I said, Jutek dimas just smiled

“Avocado juice can make beautiful loh,” said Dimas as if very serious

“Indeed Yes?” ask me curious

“Iya, if you drink it while smiling hehehe,” replied Dimas trying to find my smile.

I realized that since I had indeed continued to frown, I did not mean that just that I still thought Abas seemed indifferent to me.

“We broke up!” the breaking word suddenly came out of my mouth, I had no intention of saying it but given Abas' attitude it felt like my heart was eager to end all of this. I can't take it anymore and it all just happened.

My words shocked Dimas to make the coffee he was drinking spilled on his shirt, fortunately Dimas had taken off his school uniform and only wore a shirt. Students of that era did like to wear shirts in their uniforms.

“What?” Dimas asked as if to make sure he didn't hear wrong

“No need to pretend not to hear,” answered me ketus, I do not mean to be rude just that I feel depressed, it feels like I am not ready to say the word break up. To be honest after the incident came that month I felt Abas was right, Dimas was the one who would look after me better than anyone.

“Why?” ask Dimas while returning to drink his coffee

“People drop out!” my answer is firm

“Again PMS?”

“Now!”

“So because I was punished in front of the class earlier?”

“Not!”

“Anged, offended I said about avocado juice earlier?”

“What the hell? Not that!” my reply was upset, it seems like Dimas took this as a joke

“Continue because what?” dimas asked, seriously, it seems that he understood if I wasn't kidding

“I don't like you,” I replied while looking away

“Because I bwed?”

“Not!” my answer is short

“There are others?” I was shocked to hear Dimas' question.

At that time, I was silent and did not answer the question. I saw Dimas raise his head. The fingers of his hands clinging to each other supporting his back head, he closed his eyes and let out a long sigh. He was silent for a while, then he looked back at me with a very serious look. I could see his forehead wrinkled and one of his eyebrows raised. I've never seen Dimas like that before.

“My head is dizzy, we go home,” Dimas asked later, maybe he wants to avoid this situation

“But we broke up right?” many make sure

“We talk later,” Dimas got up from his seat, he walked leaving me behind him.

The truth within me began to appear a feeling of fear if Dimas would get angry and leave me. I mean, I don't want to be with him but Dimas is my friend, I'm used to him, I can't imagine if it had to be without him.

Outside of the heavy rain, Dimas called a rickshaw parked in front of the building. He told me to go home first. At that time I did not know exactly what I was feeling, maybe I felt guilty or afraid of losing or regretted saying the word break up. I don't know, I can only lean back with an empty look.

Arriving at the boarding house I just realized that Dimas jacket I still wear. I'm afraid Dimas will get cold, he's up and his head is dizzy, maybe he'll go home raining without a jacket. My feelings were getting less and less, I kept looking out the window hoping that the rain would soon subside and Dimas was not rained.