SECRET Love High School
Hollowly
The days after breaking up from Dimas became the bleakest days of my teenage life. I felt numb, unable to feel happy, sad or angry. This situation was completely different from what I had imagined before. I guess after the breakup I'll be very happy and be able to enjoy the days of stealing a look at Abas. But the truth is I'm not passionate about it at all. Not only because of Dimas but also because Aura who had started to openly like Abas.
Abas went to my class quite often to meet Rendi. Alimabbas signal that I used to feel so strong has now dim even sometimes I no longer feel it. Sometimes Abas comes to my bench to say hello or talk about acoustic projects with Aura. Abas and Aura seem to be getting closer, they often go to practice together and sometimes Aura collaborates with RAIN band.
One day Aura came to school wearing different makeup than usual. She also wears a pink knit sweater that is in harmony with her new shoes. The days after the exam are allowed to wear anything as long as they are still in uniform. Aura looked very cheerful, from morning she continued to sing love songs. Of course I, Ayu and Diah were curious as to what happened, although I can guess if it must be related to Abas.
“You are so different today Ra?” ayu asked curiously, but Aura only smiled as she tidied up her makeup on the glass
“Your guests Ra?” I was surprised, not usually Aura like that
“Try guess Abas asked me what?” ask Aura to us
At that moment my heart ached, apparently right about Abas. Remnants of hope to be with Abas it feels finished already. It seems that Aura really likes Abas, where maybe I will ruin his happiness by expressing my feelings to Abas.
“Take a date?” ask Diah enthusiastically
“Hahaha amiiin, but not yet," Aura pretended to be sad by curling her lips down
"Continue what? until you're this happy?" ask Diah curious
"She invited me to collaborate with RAIN band for a gig at the Music Festival, and today is her first rehearsal,” explained Aura with a very happy face
“Wah exciting tuh, so you will spend the day off to practice with Abas dong Ra?” asked Diah, Aura just nodded while blushing in embarrassment
“Ahhhh I also want to spend the holidays with gebetan,” said Ayu complaining
“Gebetan you have a lot to choose, is how am I?” said Diah sewot
Aura, Ayu and Diah laughed together, I tried to smile for formality.
“Ababar the Bagas who was Yu?” my words shifted the subject, not that I meant not to be happy for Aura's happiness but that I needed time to accept the situation.
“Hmmm no longer I respond” said Ayu like hiding something
“Good that Yu, do not respond to people kayak him, mending others aja,” said Diah justifies Ayu's attitude
"Eh almost forgot, you got greetings from Mail Brother son 3 IPA - 1, he's the son of my Papa friend, yesterday met in the market" said Aura
"IPA-1 pinter tuh yuk," I said trying to blend in with the situation, I tried as much as possible so as not to look moody
"No ah, I want to take time off to think of a guy first" Ayu replied
"Aaah yu, was he said to have gebetan? turn someone has a crush saying he wants a leave of absence," said Diah sewot
Ayu just smiled wryly. I don't know why I feel something is strange. It seems Ayu is hiding something from all of us. Maybe he had secretly met Bagas or maybe he was still replying to each other's poems.
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Even semester break is about to start, I heard Dimas is preparing a journal for the competition in America. It seems like she can already forget about me and focus on her journal. I had seen Dimas watching me a few times before and smiling at me, but I did not heed him and avoided him. Whether tired of my attitude or busy, Dimas no longer appeared before me.
I once met Dimas in the library while I was accompanying Ayu looking for materials for mading. Dimas was having a discussion with his female friend whom I knew his name was Ratna. They seemed to be cheerful together, whatever they were discussing, it seemed to be about their research plan. Dimas had looked at me, at that time I was also looking at him, but we did not greet each other. I just left them and Dimas again had a cheerful conversation with Ratna.
“You've really broken up?” ayu asked me, I just nodded
“The girl's name is Ratna Class II child Language 1, but her age is still sepasari us she once took the class acceleration time Junior High, her son pinter she often decomposes the English debate competition, and, I once interviewed her as a profile of an accomplished student,” Ayu tried to tell me the profile of the woman Dimas was with but I just kept quiet and pretended to read
“Tabarnya Ratna participated in the competition to help the English Dimas, indeed he is good at English, understand his father works abroad” Ayu continues to tell me even though I did not ask for it.
I feel like I don't need to know anything about Ratna. Though I'm actually curious I've never seen Dimas that close to a woman. I have no right to interfere in Dimas and Ratna's affairs. Ratna looked like a good girl, they were both smart and looked harmonious. Then I switched the subject.
“Yu, is it true that you have not responded to Bagas?” my question made Ayu instantly silent from her fairy tale about Ratna, I saw her glancing at me and then saw the conditions around us
“Don't bitch Aura and Diah ya?” Ayu begged me as if my guess was right
“I still like to reply to his poems, but promise don't tell others!” continue Ayu
“Why don't you guys just meet? So that it is clear which Bagas,” said I gave advice to Ayu
“I'm afraid if it turns out to be true Bagas that later Aura, Diah and you disagree then I can not reply poetry again with him,” said Ayu with a sad face
“When I said I wanted to break up from Dimas you were angry and disagree, but now we are still friends, right? I'm sure you're good friends so I don't hesitate to break up from Dimas, and I'm sure in your case Aura and Diah will also understand if it turns out you want to be with that Bagas,” answered I convinced Ayu to dare to make a decision.Entah why I have a good feeling about Bagas. Ayu seemed to be silent thinking about my words.
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