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Then the people in the ER area looked so busy. Every face looked sad, worried, full of hope. I leaned my shoulder on the waiting room bench for a moment. I tried to calm myself down and prayed that Dimas would be fine.
Feeling better, I immediately returned to the ER I did not find Dimas there. I asked the nurse she said Dimas was transferred to the hospital room. As soon as I caught up with her, when I opened the door I saw Dimas laughing with his mama, I was relieved he was okay.
“Assalamualaikum,” I knocked on the door and said hello
“Waalaikumsalam,” replied Dimas and his mother almost simultaneously
“Eh Eka, sorry I was in a hurry to move rooms do not wait for you first,” Mama Dimas like feeling guilty leaving me
“Any tongue Auntie, long time because queue her phone, what says doctor Tan?” asku want to know the last condition of Dimas
“Sick magh him, recalcitrant if you are busy learning told to eat the reason continues, if at the aunt's house bribe, if at the aunt's cooking boarding house ask for help Eka who bribes?” Mama Dimas spoke as she wrapped around Dimas, Dimas just smiled
“Hehehe” I laughed relieved Dimas is fine
“How is Mother? Can you not go home?” ask mom Dimas then
“Besok mother and father want to come here all tengokin Dimas, oh yes get greetings from Mother, Om where is Aunt?” I didn't see Papa Dimas in that room
“Om go home pick up combat equipment and pick up Citra Sama Abah, Citra was still school when Aunt left, ended the panic was calculated accident kayak how, how,” Mama Dimas talk while ruffling Dimas' hair like he was struggling to his beloved son
“Eka know how he fell?” mama Dimas asked me, I just shook my head and Mama Dimas answered the question himself
“He avoids small children playing rain-rain keep falling by himself nyungsep in the trench, tuh his feet tepos, fortunately not cracked or broken,”
“Mama said to buy food?” Dimas cut Mama's talk, just like me Dimas used to dodge when he heard her scolding. I wonder if all the mothers in the world are chatty to their children?
“Iya Mama knows, Eka wants to eat what?”
“Any Aunt of halal origin hehehe,”
”Ya already, Auntie stay first huh? title Dimas,”
“Each Aunt!” answer me while paying respect
“Ma, I also tipped!” dimas said stop his mother's steps
“Titip what? Can't you eat just as easily?” asked Mama Dimas while frowning wanting to get angry
“Titip out the old hehe,” said Dimas while grinning
“Hahaha this is your base!" Mama Dimas ruffled her son's hair
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Mama Dimas left us alone, I felt the atmosphere became awkward because Dimas kept looking at me. I'm trying to start a conversation.
“What hurts?” ask me while looking at the area of the legs and hands Dimas
“Hatya,” Dimas said briefly as he looked at me
“Sorry,” I'm downcast feeling guilty for making that mess
“No want!” dimas replied a little jokingly but I was not in the mood to joke
“Continue? How am I supposed to go?” ask me while staying down
“So my boyfriend of a lifetime,” Dimas replied with a smile making me feel better
“Good!” Dimas exclaimed while clenching his hands like a person who was happy to have succeeded in doing something
“Good skirt?” ask me for wonder
“Means I can make a wife,” replied Dimas idly pissing me off
“Apaan anyway, not funny!” I started to pout
“Indeed no longer funny, I just want to digalakin,” replied Dimas with seyumnya who began to suck
“If you think I'm coming home!” I said threaten to have Dimas stop teasing me
“Who told you to wait for me here?” dimas asked me silently, no one told me to wait, for some reason I wanted to stay beside Dimas to make sure he was okay.
“I know you love me,” Dimas said later
“Sok know!” I answered with a sniffle
“But I love you more, if indeed you do not want me will not force,” suddenly our chat became serious
“Sorry,” I said while bowed
“Huuuuh, you really want to break up?” Dimas sighed as if his chest was crowded with all sorts of disappointed feelings
“Sorry,” I just bowed and kept saying sorry
“But promise you will smile more after this!” dimas said as he grabbed my hand, he gently caressed it like the caress in that hand I could feel right down to my heart.
I don't know how I felt back then, I mean I should have been happy that Dimas agreed to break up but my tears came down without command as if he didn't agree with the situation. I just kept quiet and gave no answer. Maybe Abas was right I needed some time to feel Dimas's sincerity and maybe I'll want to someday.
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Tok tok tok tok
I knocked on the door of the room where Dimas was being treated. I was with my Dad, Mom and Brother Dwi came to visit Dimas. There we met Mama Dimas and Abah. They let us in, Abah, Mother and Mama Dimas sitting on a small sofa beside Dimas' bed. Dad was sitting in a folding chair beside the tv, Dwi was standing behind him and I was standing leaning against the wall beside Dwi. At that time Dimas was sleeping, my parents were talking to Mama and Abah Dimas, while I was just daydreaming looking at Dimas's face.
Are we breaking up now? I haven't given an answer but has Dimas considered our relationship to be over? Will we be able to be friends like before? Why don't I feel happy if I really want to break up from Dimas? As usual, there were thousands of questions in my head. When I was moved from the daydream I saw Dimas looking at me with a questioning gaze, maybe he was just like me questioning the status of our relationship. I smiled and she returned my smile.
“Kak Dimas is awake?”dwi Exclamation
“Eh, we are noisy huh? Nak Dimas so wake up,” said my bundle greet Dimas
“No Mother, Dimas happy there is Mother,” Dimas replied by trying to smile
“Eka yesterday phone while crying he said nak Dimas accident continues he wants to accompany Dimas nak just said, eh kok turned out to be sick magh? So this Dimas nak is sick because of a fall what fell because of pain?” ask Dimas
“Hehehe yes Bun Dimas less careful fortunately not being brought Eka,” replied Dimas while looking at me, I just silently leaned against the hospital wall
“It is precisely if you take Eka maybe you will not fall,” said Father comforting Dimas
“Male is so, if there is an answer behind him will be more vigilant, therefore Abah is happy if there is an Eka who accompanies Dimas, Dimas people like to be reckless and easy to situation, so that Abah is happy if there is an Eka who accompanies Dimas,” said Abah while stroking the head of his favorite grandson
Mama Dimas walked up to me and hugged my shoulder as she said
“Eka will always accompany Dimas kok, right baby?” I can only smile half-heartedly. I mean of course I want to be friends with Dimas forever, but I think I understand what Mama Dimas said was different. He seems to know our relationship. Dimas was very close to his mother, he told her everything, so it's possible that he also told her about our relationship. That day Dimas and I looked at each other in silence as if we were enjoying the distance we had built from a broken word.
Before I was very sure if I didn't want to Dimas, but after that day I became doubtful, I doubt if this is really what I want? Why does it feel like my feelings are so empty now? Not wanting to do anything, not wanting to say anything, I just wanted to look at Dimas' face in silence.
