PAPER BOATS (Trapped by the Past)

Chapter 70 STUCK IN THE PAST

While Surya who has arrived at Nadia's house, still sitting waiting for Nadia called by mbok Nah.

Susi is going to her friend's house. So at home there is only Nadia and mbok Nah.

Surya sat in the living room. Unlike usual, he sat wherever he wanted. Now Nadia's house feels foreign to her.

Though only yesterday afternoon, Surya felt Nadia's family home like his own home.

While waiting for Nadia to come down from her room on the second floor, Surya called Sinta. Including also angry at Yogi who has not brought Sinta home.

Actually Sinta and Yogi are only victims of Surya's tension. For some reason, Surya is so tense at the moment. He couldn't feel the fun as usual.

Mbok Nah came to bring Surya's favorite drink. Iced orange.

Actually it's not Surya's favorite. But Nadia's favorite. And since loving Nadia, Surya tried to love whatever Nadia's habits and likes.

If Yogi says it, it's hypocritical. Too selfish of himself. For the sake of making others happy, sacrificing his own happiness. Enjoy the happiness of others.

That's not real happiness. But pseudo happiness. Which will disappear when it is displayed.

"Diminum, Mother. Wait a minute, yeah. Non-prepared again. Soon also down," said mbok Nah.

"Yes, Bik. I wait here" said Surya.

Mbok Nah, was surprised by Surya's attitude. Usually Surya will go up to the second floor, then help Nadia down. Packing, or even carrying Nadia.

Mbok Nah just nodded. Then hurry back to the kitchen.

Nadia had arrived in the living room for quite a while. Because Nadia had to walk slowly down the stairs.

Nadia thought, Surya is waiting for her in the living room. Their favorite place to talk together, learn to watch television.

Nadia did not find Surya there.

"Sura...The solar! Where are you?" nadia asked in her crisp voice.

Surya breathed. The voice she missed so much. And soon enough, it could be that Surya can't hear it anymore.

"I.in the living room," replied Surya.

His heart felt hard to say that. Unlike usual, Surya will come to Nadia and they will joke while laughing.

"Ooh...!" Nadia walked to the living room.

"Cock here, Sur?" ask Nadia.

"Yes. Here you are," replied Surya.

"In the living room, all watching tv" asked Nadia.

"No need. Here alone," reject Surya.

"Why?" ask Nadia.

"It's okay." Surya felt awkward for Nadia.

"Yes already. So it feels like a real guest, yes," said Nadia.

Solar is silent. His eyes were spread throughout the room. Surya was like a stranger who had just entered the room.

Nadia was still acting ordinary.

"Sur, I want to talk seriously with you," said Nadia.

Solar's chest immediately thumped. What will Nadia say?

"What by the way?" ask Surya. He's trying to normalize his heartbeat.

"So morning, my mom said she got an invitation to dinner at your house. Aunty Rahma who invited," replied Nadia.

"Hm. Then?" ask Surya.

"Do you know that plan?" ask Nadia.

Surya nodded. You know, Rahma said it last night.

"What makes me confused, my mother said.want to talk about our relationship," said Nadia.

Degh's!

Surya's heart had calmed down a bit, beating fast again.

"Yes. My mother also said so," said Surya.

"I'm confused, Sur. Why the hell would they want us engaged. Even though they know, if we are only friends," said Nadia.

Surya breathed.

"Keep we got to how dong, Sur? My mother asked me to choose. Continue to continue the relationship and get engaged, or our relationship is done here. There is no more friendship between us" said Nadia.

Surya raised his face. He looked at Nadia's face with a glance.

Nadia seems to be acting ordinary. Like no burden at all.

"As far as you. I will, "sury said.

Lost everything he had talked about with Yogi and Sinta.

Surya doesn't have the guts to maintain his relationship with Nadia. Not even daring to shoot Nadia like Sinta's idea.

"Cock up to me, anyway? It's going to take us both. Yeah, we should both, dong."

"You're ready if I..." Surya stopped his sentence. He looked at Nadia's face. He wanted to see the reaction or the change in Nadia's face.

"Want to continue this relationship" continued Surya.

"So...?"

"We're engaged!" answer Surya steady.

Nadia shakes.

"Why?" ask Surya.

"We never loved each other, Surya. Don't force your feelings" replied Nadia.

"I never forced my feelings, Nad. L'm....I love you, Nadia!" sahut Surya's.

"Don't be crazy, Surya. Not because you still want to stay friendly with me, then you lie!"

"I'm not lying, Nadia!"

Nadia took her breath. Then looked at Surya's face sharply.

So does Surya. He looked at Nadia's face no less sharply.

"When did you love me?" ask Nadia. Nadia kept thinking, Surya is just making it up.

"Since High School!" surya replied firmly.

"What?" Nadia couldn't believe hearing it.

"I've loved you since High School, Nadia. Before you decide to date a god. One of my follies back then, I didn't reveal it first. And finally, you received the expression of God's love" Surya replied.

Nadai. His eyes stared at Surya.

"So all this time, you were close to me, good to me, because you loved me?"

Surya nodded.

"Yes. Is that wrong?" ask Surya.

"You know, Sur. If I still love the gods. And I'm sure the gods will come back to me. My paper boat will find it, Sur," said Nadia.

"God will never come back, Nadia! And forget about your paper boat. Because it never reaches the gods. That damn thing will be destroyed before it gets carried away by the river water!" said Surya with ketus.

"However you say it like that, Surya!" Nadia almost cried.

Throughout his closeness to Surya, never once did Surya speak loudly to him, let alone rudely.

"Sorry, Nad.I just reminded you. So that you stop your obsession" said Surya.

"You have heart, Surya! You're selfish! For your sake, you have the heart to say that God will never return." Nadia started to sob.

Surya Trenyuh heard Nadia's sobbing. Wants Surya to comfort her, but Nadia will definitely refuse.

"Yes already. If you refuse me, it's okay. I can take it. Because life does not always meet expectations. I'm sorry."

Solar stand. She hoped Nadia would hold him back from leaving.

But in reality, Nadia was just silent, holding back the sense that only Nadia knew.

Surya breathed. Then really go.

He has failed to maintain his relationship with Nadia. And Nadia chose her past.

Nadia is stuck in her past. He can't move. She's shackled. And ignore his future.