
What do you want in this world? As for the treasure, the throne, the woman you have obtained. Are those three not in your grasp? What else do you deny about God's gift to you? Aye! Surely you have not gained calm, tranquility from His pleasure is not it? Sure was! You can get and get that peace, that peace, that peace if you still have faith. Faith is in your heart. One point or mustard seed will feel calm your soul, if there is a light of faith. Find it! It is not merely a pledge that you are a believer. All manifest in your behavior and application of actions. Find all the light that can lead your way to the paths in His ridloi. Not just looking for pleasure and self-satisfaction and indulging in self-destination. Listen to the voices of your heart, which are soft and barely audible because of your lust. His light will give lasting peace and pleasure, closer to Him.
Truly, true pleasure is to be near and beside Him. Serving Him, pouring drinking water in vessels made of silver and food drinks that do not bring dirt. May we be His chosen people, though in tears of pleasure always long for his affection. Rest assured! God is Good at giving us everything we need, not everything we want.
Orange dusk. The heart dimmed as the memory was still fixated on his shadow. Sweet memories that are stuck in the heart carry a longing that can never be repeated because the figure in the dream is now fused in nature. His body was buried in his grave. From the ground and back to the ground, hug with the smell of animals inside. In the dark it is only the light of his goodness that will illuminate the place back to it. Respect and take responsibility for all his actions. Ridlo against the power of God punishes or rewards according to the actions done.
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" Rosiana! What are you daydreaming about, right?" ask Santi who is in his room.
Shiva was not in that room.
" There's no Santi!" rosiana replied.
" There's no how? You are clearly daydreaming. Your eyes are blank as if your mind is traveling through the outside world" Santi said, chuckling.
" In fact, I was wrong, wasn't he? We enter into the family life of Mas Wardha who is currently happy with Sister Sarwenda. Shiva has really been adopted by Sarwenda. If the madam finds out about the truth that Shiva is Wardha's biological son, what will happen. I really don't want that commotion in their household to happen Santi" Rosiana said.
" Mrs Sarwenda is sincere in treating Shiva well, as her own child. Likewise with Mr. Wardha. I personally do not want the husband and wife relationship between them to be damaged because of the presence of Shiva in their midst." added Rosiana.
" Hadeuh! It's not your fault, baby! Shiva and his presence in this world deserve his happiness. Shiva deserves the affection of his biological father. Mr. Wardha is responsible for his past deeds. Mr. Wardha must participate in raising, caring for, sending Shiva to school. Regardless of everything, one day Mrs Sarwenda must indeed know and accept the truth of the fact that Shiva is the biological child of Wardha" Santi said.
" A minute, there's one question for you, Rosiana. Do you, in your mind, have any intention of seizing lord Wardha from mistress Sarwenda?" santi asked while holding back her laughter.
" Astagfirullah, Miss Santi! Why does Santi think that way. I really don't want to go back to Mas Wardha." said Rosiana seriously.
" Haha!" Santi's mother laughed satisfied to see the reaction of Rosiana who was serious about responding to her question.
" But if Mr. Wardha still wants and likes you, how? Mr. Wardha wants to marry you, because of his guilt and regret in the past that left you at that time. Abandon and leave you when you are two-bodied. You, it's gonna be hard to resist, isn't it?" santi's Mother Goda.
" Astagfirullah! Hopefully it will never happen, Santi" said Rosiana.
" Come, Rosiana! You can't lie to me. I know that although you are the type of woman and a loyal wife, and firm in your attitude want to be loyal to your deceased husband, but your little heart cannot lie. You can't lie to yourself that you still have such deep feelings for Wardha. Even though you have been hurt by him, but you still forgive him because your love is sincere towards Mr. Wardha at that time. You are happy when you know Mr. Wardha lives a happy life." said Santi seriously.
"Santi Ma'am!" rosiana said slowly. Without realizing it, his face blushed.
" Oh yes, next week we will be invited to a vacation to a private villa owned by Mrs Sarwenda" said Santi.
" Santi's mom left. I'm at home." said Rosiana.
" Eh no! Nah! This is mandatory for us to come, loh." protested Santi.
" I don't want to! I'm at home." said Rosiana.
" why? Are you afraid to witness the happiness between your master and mistress? Ahaha!" santi's Mother Goda.
" O God! No. ti. ti. ti. kok no!" sahut Rosiana's.
" Yes already, just come along no need to refuse him. Shiva must come, you as his mother must come and accompany him. It's cold there. Very nice, later we have coffee together while chatting like this. You will be happy" said Santi.
" All right! I'm in. But please, Ma'am. Santi's mom don't talk about these feelings anymore either" Rosiana said.
" What feelings?" kekeh Santi's.
" Ah Sister Santi." whining Rosiana.
" Haha. So you admit it, don't you?" santi asked while laughing.
Rosiana just kept her head down and hid her shame.
" I'm not Shiva, Ros. It's not a child you can lie to. Especially about the psychology and body language of a person I very easily read it. And one more. Canda an you this is not just a joke that does not contain it. Likely in the future, this can happen, you know" said Santi.
" God! Then, how to prevent that from happening Mommy? I don't want to ruin their domestic relationship. I don't want to be the third person among them." said Rosiana.
" then? Ask your own little heart. It is possible and able to remove that feeling from Mr. Wardha. If it is very difficult, most likely your feelings will grow and develop because every day meet and see it. Your hopes and fantasies will increasingly appear, to want more and manifest into reality" said Santi seriously.
Rosiana simply fell silent and lowered her head. Either sad or happy that he was feeling right now.
" That's it! Just walk like running water, say! In this case you are not wrong.All you have to do is keep your distance to be safe, Rosiana." added Santi finally.