Nindy (Hijabers Norak Conqueror of the Heart)

54. Gratitude

Nindy blinked her eyes when she woke up from her deep sleep. The first look was on the chest of the man who had held him last night. She smiled then, her face flashing with a flowery feeling. His outstretched hand touched the man's jaw and cheek, rubbing slowly. They can finally be together again. God's destiny is inexorable.

When Nindy tried so hard to defend the man, God kept him away. However, when Nindy had resigned and gave up Yang Pou Han for another woman, the man actually approached her.

Nindy released Yang Pou Han's embrace, moving the arm carefully.

His bare feet climbed on the cement floor, which felt cold on the soles of his feet. He crouched down, picked up his scattered clothes, then put them back on.

The smile re-rises on Nindy's lips, remembering how last night they were able to sleep asleep while hugging tightly.

They both grieve each other. Seeing how the man did not let go of Nindy's body in his arms, even though they had slept in the same blanket, was enough to prove that, it was not only Nindy who missed, Nindy said, Yang Pou Han also did not lose missing him.

Nindy came out of her room, went to the bathroom that was behind the house to clean up..

Almost fifteen minutes Nindy completed a big bath as a mandatory requirement of holiness after intercourse with her husband. The woman wore a towel wrapped around her chest with her hair still wet with water droplets dripping at the ends of her long mane strands.

He went back into the room, slowly opening the door without making a sound, hoping not to disturb Yang Pou Han's sleep. The man must have been exhausted from a day of searching for his house located far from the city center.

The man needed a lot of rest, considering his fever was so high last night, but allowed himself to make love even though not as crazy as usual. Luckily the skin-to-skin method can be an alternative when fever strikes, while there are no heat-lowering drugs available at Nindy's home.

Yes, Yang Pou Han was quite aware, where they did it. On top of the old bamboo bed with a narrow size, definitely can not do it freely, but it is enough to make both of them to let go of each other's longing.

Nindy changed clothes afterwards, tidied up the towel, then held a prayer mat next to the bamboo bed that Yang Pou Han was sleeping in.

The morning was cold, the cool air mixed with the wet skin, further creating a sense of cold and shivering. However, it did not discourage Nindy's intention to pray a third of the night.

The atmosphere was so quiet, quiet and calm made Nindy's heart feel so peaceful when chanting prayers in every prayer. The spiritual relationship between a servant and the Creator provides calmness in the heart as well as psychic or inner man when performing the Tahajud prayer.

Yes, there is a dimension of dzikrullah or remembering Allah when man is deeply enthused with his Lord. For it is only by drawing near to God that the heart becomes quiet, for by drawing near to God the heart becomes peaceful.

Nindy shed tears as a prayer she prayed for her beloved mother. No matter what her mother was, she was still a mother. The mother who took care of Nindy, loved Nindy and raised Nindy to death has taken her life.

Is not the prayer that is granted is the prayer of the child who is kind to his parents? So Nindy always asked forgiveness for the Mother to God.

I don't know why Nindy felt longing for the old man. Maybe she wanted to show her mother's father that she had a husband who loved her. He is no longer alone in this world. There is a man who has been his spouse, his priest, and will be the father of his children.

Nindy's body shook slightly as the water spilled over the prayer mat. He prostrated himself, begging for forgiveness for sin and error as long as he was a servant of God. She ran away from her husband, who loved her very much. The husband who was supposed to be where she was looking for a lot of blessings, and a field of rewards, but Nindy instead went away from her.

Gratitude many times he said, for what God had destined for him. He hoped that he would not become a self-forgetter and that kufr would be the favor that God had given him.

Almost thirty minutes passed, until without feeling the torch of dawn reverberated. Nindy got up from her seat that would perform the dawn prayer service. However, before he did his takbiratul ikh**ram, a voice called out to him, making Nindy turn his head for a moment.

"Aren't you waiting for me? I want to pray too? You want to teach me?"

Nindy's smile expands. He could not believe that Yang Pou Han would pray. What surprise is this? Nindy poked at her lower lip, then pulled it thin. The smile grew even more, along with an enthusiastic nod.

"of course. I'll help you learn prayer."

The man nodded, lowering his legs to step on the floor. The blanket detached from his body, making Nindy immediately turn away to throw away face.

"You'd better reuse your clothes. I'll take you to the bathroom."

Shamelessly the man even chuckled. Seeing the blushing face of the wife when accidentally staring at her body that is still undressed. "Why is your face so red? Didn't you see it almost every day?"

"Yes, don't start again! Already, put on your clothes! I'll wait for you outside." Nindy lowered her head, without taking off her face, she walked out of the room waiting for the man to put on his clothes again.

***

Seconds by seconds keep turning. A sense of calm and peace exploring time. Rolling along with the grain of the tasbih was spinning.

Nindy did not expect Yang Pou Han to chant little by little prayer prayers, then did remembrance together. Nindy didn't teach him much, but the man seemed to have memorized his reading? When did he start learning?

Did Yang Pou Han learn secretly behind Nindy?

Not so the question is all, because most importantly Nindy will feel her dream come true. She will be a prayer makmum with a priest, her own husband.

Nindy shed tears. A soothing sight, seeing that the beloved has followed him, follows with his heart once, not because of a compulsion. However, with awareness from the bottom of the heart.

إِذَا جَاءَ نَصْرُ اللَّهِ وَالْفَتْحُ (۱) وَرَأَيْتَ النَّاسَ يَدْخُلُونَ فِي دِينِ اللَّهِ أَفْوَاجًا (۲) فَسَبِّحْ بِحَمْدِ رَبِّكَ وَاسْتَغْفِرْهُ إِنَّهُ كَانَ تَوَّابًا (۳)

Meaning: “When Allah's help and victory have come. And you see men entering the religion of Allah in droves, so glorify with praise to your Lord and ask forgiveness from Him. Verily He is the Most Recipient of penance.”