Nindy (Hijabers Norak Conqueror of the Heart)

32. Giving Up on Feelings

The man was still focused forward looking at the road. His hands were busy driving at the rate of vehicles that were getting faster and faster. Nindy's lips trembled, frightened by Yang Pou Han's reckless attitude.

"Which, stop! Please. Put me down right now!" Nindy screamed in tears. Fear and anger have mixed into one. His hand gripped the seatbelt attached to his body, as if it felt it was not enough to keep himself safe.

The man was still silent, 'the more the vehicle accelerated, not caring for Nindy's frightened whimper. Overtaking several vehicles in front of him, be it fellow cars, buses or trucks, nothing to be concerned about. All were overtaken by Yang Pou Han without exception.

"Which, stop! Do you want to kill me by scaring me?" Nindy shouted, although her body had already felt shivering in the way Yang Pou Han was driving. The man did not care, the more Nindy shouted, the faster the taxi drove.

"If you hate me so much, why did you marry me? Why don't you just kill me!" it was followed by sobs.

He closed his eyes, sensing the taxi speeding up, along with a body staggered to the right and to the left, as if Yang Pou Han had driven that taxi at a speed beyond the maximum limit.

"Down me! If not, I'll jump!" shouted Nindy again, this time in a threatening tone.

The one pressing the central lock, made the taxi door lock automatically. His gaze was so cold, the look of Yang's eyes sharpened to the point of stabbing anyone who dared to face him. "You want to come down? Want to leave me? How about we go together. Leave this world?"

Yang's words managed to make Nindy creep and anxious. His hand gripped the seatbelt even more firmly. He wanted to get angry, but could not get a word out of his lips, because they seemed to tremble in fear.

"You're crazy, Yang. Lower me! I don't want to die."

"Didn't you want me to kill you? I don't want to kill you, but if you force us to die together. Isn't that so exciting?" A terrible smile appeared on the man's lips. Nindy really can't do anything. Yang Pou Han really thought short. Not appreciating Nindy who still wants to enjoy life despite all the shortcomings.

"Why are you doing this to me? What was my fault with you, Yang? Don't you always hurt me?"

"Shut up!" He snapped, his emotions out of bounds. The words of Nindy who wanted to be free from him made Yang's heart hurt. An ordinary girl like Nindy dared to abandon her, it greatly hurt her pride as a man with abundant treasures.

If he wanted to, a thousand women who were much more beautiful and learned than Nindy could easily get, but he did not understand why it was Nindy that he had to choose? Though he knew that Nindy could not be conquered with treasure.

I don't know how many hours Yang took Nindy away, until the man stopped her in a house that looked like a villa. He opened the door and got out of the taxi. Roughly opening the door in the passenger cabin, Nindy grabs her hand to drag her out.

Nindy rebelled, she was afraid of Yang Pou Han's rude attitude. The man had no intention of killing him in the house. The house that looks empty is uninhabited.

"I don't want to, Yang. What do you want?" Nindy tried to let go of Yang Pou Han's hand grip on her wrist, but what she did seemed to be a waste. His unrecovered body was completely powerless against the man's energy. Until her tears shed instantly soaked her cheeks.

Who pulled the key out of his pants pocket, opened the fence of the house. His hands were so alert, not one bit releasing the grip on Nindy's arm.

Until the gate opened, Yang still dragged Nindy to follow in his footsteps. Nindy could only go where the man would take her away. He was no longer able to fight, his body was still weak without energy. Until the door of the house had opened, with Yang Pou Han pulling Nindy into it.

Nindy's shadow will be killed in that place even more clearly. He didn't know that Yang would be like a demon if he was angry. Though previously he often quarreled with the man, but his attitude was still normal and often gave up. However, the current was very much different from the Yang Pou Han he knew. She doesn't know her own husband.

Just when a room door opened, Yang dragged Nindy in and threw her on the big bed. He locked the door of the room back quickly, anticipating if Nindy ran away from him.

Nindy looked increasingly frightened, seen from a deathly face with trembling hands.

The man drew closer to her, making her inching away as far as she could. Until when he could no longer avoid, yelled at the back of the bed, who had trapped Nindy's body and locked her movements.

"What do you want, Yang?" asked Nindy with trembling lips.

"Ease you," Yang replied while showing a cold face that made Nindy's body shiver in fear.

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Nindy curled her back at Yang Pou Han with a body that felt helpless. The man covered Nindy's innocent body with a blanket around his neck. He didn't think he could do that to Nindy. The emotions that affected him made Yang Pou Han treat Nindy harshly.

His heart ached when he accepted the rejection from Nindy, making the man fuck his wife in an inappropriate way. Nindy's shoulders shook, as if she was holding back sobs from pain.

"I'm sorry" he whispered later, giving a warm kiss on Nindy's shoulder.

His hand slipped inside the blanket, enveloping his body as well as Nindy's body using the same blanket. Closer to the distance between the two, Nindy felt her back skin touch the man's bare chest.

Nindy pretends to be asleep, she still won't be willing if Yang touches her again. Nindy was raped by her own husband, although there was no prohibition in religion to have sex with her husband, but at this time Nindy was really disgusted by her body touched by the man.

Until the hoarse voice of Yang Pou Han made it soften a little. "I'm sorry. I don't want to be rude to you. I ... don't want you to go."

The clear thread drips on the temple, wetting the Nindy pillow used in a tilted position. "I'm serious about this marriage. I cannot betray you. Although there is no love between us, but I don't want to leave you, Nindy. I don't want to part with you."

Nindy was disappointed once again. Only he felt the taste, but Yang did not. Why should he fall in love first? Why is her heart so fragile by giving her love to a man who never loved her?

"Do you still love that woman?" Finally Nindy spoke up, unable to bear the strange relationship they were living. His heart screams, wants to be loved, but does not get a proper reply.

Who seemed to take a deep breath, exhaling the heat at the nape of Nindy. He started telling stories.

"We were friends since childhood. There is an inexplicable bond between us. My father worked at Emelie's father's company, and we grew up together. From then on Emelie's world was my world. I tried to cover him as much as I could. If any other child bothered her, I bravely became a shield for her. And that goes to adulthood."

Nindy's heart was increasingly claustrophobic to hear Yang's words, could the man just be quiet, did not need to tell him the thing that made her heart hurt even more. Oh, dearGod. Why did Nindy feel the pain?

"I began to love her, and wanted her to be my wife. Before my father died, he left Emelie to me. My father loved him so much that he suddenly disappeared six years ago. I feel so lost. Until fate brought us back four years later. And we're finally getting married."

Enough, can he shut up. Nindy can't hear it.

Nindy's lips trembled, unable to speak, but she had to say it. "If you love her, marry her and let me go, Yang. I'll accept it and won't interfere with your relationship."

The pain, of course, was heartbreaking for Nindy. How to feel a husband whose body is so close to him, but whose heart does not belong to him. Is there not a little place in Yang's heart for him? Did their closeness not give little gap to the name of Nindy sneak between the name of Emelie who had mastered her husband's heart?

Yeah, well, maybe Nindy can compete with that woman. Who himself? She was just a poor girl with an ordinary look, a mediocre brain and had nothing to be proud of. Where could anyone possibly fall in love with her?

"I don't want to part with you. I don't know what scares me so much about losing you. Every time I hold you like this, I find a peace I've never felt before. You're making me comfortable, Nindy. I admit it."

Comfortable, not the other. Can't that comfort turn into love?

"When Lie's assistant said you passed out at home, I went home immediately even though my business wasn't done. I'm so worried about you. I'm afraid something's happened with you. Do you understand, I care about you."

Care about? Is that some kind of feeling an employer who is afraid of his beloved pet why-why? Is the feeling for her that limited?

"Is there not even the slightest bit of love for me in your heart, Yang? You hurt me with that word." Nindy was crying. Perhaps because he had never been in contact with a man, until when he had brought Nindy into his life, Nindy's heart was powerless to resist. Nindy is in love, and that leaves her hurt. Unrequited love is painful.

While Yang, already accustomed to connecting with women. Although they were always together, it did not make the man's heart knock to accept the name Nindy stuck in his heart. Or maybe, actually Nindy's name has gone too deep so that the man did not realize it.

"I'm sorry." Two words that made Nindy's heart even more sliced, heartbroken. He couldn't expect too much from the man. "I'll give you everything. As long as you stay with me. Don't ever think of getting away from me!" added later.

"I ... don't know, Yang. Can you not meet that woman again? Would you do it for me?"

Who was silent for a moment. Trying to digest Nindy's request. "Are you jealous?"

With a heavy heart Nindy said it, answering honestly what she had felt, even though it was difficult. "Yes, I'm jealous. I hate my feelings for you. Because I realize that I've been too deep in loving you."

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