Nindy (Hijabers Norak Conqueror of the Heart)

38. Self-Esteem as Worth Ice Cream

“Heavy hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky, are best relieved by the letting of a little water”

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The room was still quiet, just like before. No meaningful change. Only the chrysanthemum flowers have been replaced with fresh new flowers, making the room look more vibrant and colorful.

The woman sat down at the end of the bed. Combing hair with her lentic fingers. Her mysterious smile proved there was something she had been thinking about.

Someone who was waiting for him has arrived. A mature man dressed as a doctor complete with a briefcase stepped forward. His steps stopped by sitting on one of the available chairs beside the bed. He started doing his job after a little bit of pleasantry. So deft his hand examined the condition of the woman who was currently in a lying position.

"How are you feeling?" The doctor asked as he put the equipment back in his briefcase.

"empty. I don't feel anything."

The doctor smiled. A look of pity hidden from those smiling squinty eyes, showed concern for the woman.

"You can cry if needed. Holding too much weight alone does not make you strong. You need to blow it all away, because the human mind can only hold a certain amount of weight."

He chuckled at the doctor's words. Netra had not cried for a long time. He forgot how to cry, until all the people closest to him one by one left him to make the woman absorbed how to vent emotions by crying.

"My tears are frozen, just like my heart." The woman said without looking at the doctor.

"You can dilute it if you want. A frozen heart can be melted by feelings of love and affection. Start loving yourself, then someone will come bring you love."

"Love?" Sentence hangs. "I've lost him. And it was my own fault. When I wanted to fight for her, another woman took that love away from me. I should what?" The question was filled with hope and despair at the same time.

"If she does love you, any woman who tries to take her heart will lose. You just need to fight harder to get his heart back. Hasn't your time with you been too long? There must be many memories between you. You can use that to spark the flame of love that was extinguished between the two of you."

The woman turned her head for a moment, there was curiosity from the look in her eyes. "You think so?"

"Enhance! If he's destined for you, fight as you can."

The smile expanded on his lips, the netra was shining instantly. The desire to have a new color in his life. He wanted to bring back someone who should have been his, his adoration up to any time. "I'll bring him back" he said later.

***

Love seems to be finding a place where it comes down. Some things that had previously been a barrier, seemed to decay by themselves over time.

The human child's exaggerated view of a thing called love, triggers a presumption of true happiness. But happiness is not just about love. There are two distinct individuals of contemplation who are united on the basis of equality of hope as well as the goal of mutual acceptance and happiness.

Love will be the number one when comfort and mutual respect have been present in a relationship. Man will boast proudly that he understands 'the meaning of love'. Despite their relationship in a critical time at the edge, they still maintain their opinion of 'love'. Yes, because in fact, humans always feel they know everything without wanting to measure their own abilities.

Yang Pou Han just came out of the bathroom. While Nindy prepares dinner downstairs. The man picked up the casual clothes Nindy had prepared for him that were neatly placed on the nightstand.

The new habit that made it hard to leave Nindy was the woman's dedication to being a wife. The experience of not being good when living a household with Emelie gave the man many valuable lessons. Yes, not only love can make the household happy and last, but the loyalty, obedience and impiety of a wife to the husband that can make the household heresy can be intertwined forever.

Yang Pou Han didn't get that from Emelie. Although Emelie's education was much higher with a more respectable social caste, it did not make an Emelie succeed in becoming a good wife.

The woman is more concerned with her ego, ambition and desire than having to do her duty as a wife. And Nindy didn't do that, even though she never expressed love to the woman.

The man came down from the upper room, passed the stairs and went to the dining table in the middle room. Her hair looks wet without being combed first. Nindy threw a smile when she saw her husband had entered the dining room area.

"You're hungry, aren't you? I've prepared dinner for you." Nindy pulled out a chair for Yang Pou Han to occupy, and was immediately well received by the man. She sat down at the place where Nindy chose a chair for her. "Thank you."

"Heem, is this enough?" Nindy poured the rice into the plate while questioning the man's portion of the meal.

"Enough."

Nindy saw some side dishes and vegetables to put on the same plate. It wasn't Nindy who cooked it all, but she interfered in it. Nindy shifted the plate that was already full of food in front of Yang Pou Han, then took the food for herself.

They enjoyed the dinner without a sound. Only the sound of friction of plates and spoons clashing, grinding against each other was heard many times.

It only took ten minutes of food on that plate. Yang Pou Han patted a handkerchief on the lips to end his dinner. He immediately got up from his seat, before hearing Nindy's question. The man did not stand up because Nindy seemed to want to ask him something.

"What do you want to show me?"

Nindy was still waiting, what a surprise for her. He had been curious since then, until the curiosity was already at its peak, Nindy could not help asking.

"show me? Show what?" He raised his eyebrows, feeling clueless with Nindy's words.

"Don't he pick you up at the shopping mall also a surprise?" The man even took the little thing he did as a surprise, leaving Nindy disappointed by it.

Nindy sighed, "Maybe my expectations are too much for you. Never mind, forget what I said!" He picked up the old man's dinner plate without making a sound again. He moved from his seat, bringing the dishes to the kitchen, letting Yang Pou Han who was still sitting at the dining table.

Nindy had even imagined the slight surprise that the man might have prepared for her. I don't know, it seems like it's only in her dreams. Nindy forgot that the one who fell in love here was her, not Yang Pou Han. It is possible that the man bothered to give a surprise to him, like the sweet surprise that the husband used to give his wife, while the man never loved her.

Nindy came back out of the kitchen after finishing washing those dirty dishes. He thought Yang Pou Han would question him again, but the man was not even there. I don't know where he's going, and it just kind of pisses Nindy off.

Yes, her initial sense of pleasure made Nindy smile instantly vanished already. Yang Pou Han really made his mood deteriorate.

He climbed the stairs, headed for the roof top, aloof as before. She has no friends to talk to, and after marriage she still feels lonely. No friends to chat with or just joke with. Once felt the warmth of the marriage relationship, but it did not continue for long. The man was even far from being romantic, look at this moment, he disappeared without a trace. He didn't even say goodbye to Nindy if he wanted to get out of the house.

Nindy sat down with her legs bent. He hugged his own knees while looking at the pitch-black expanse of the sky. Yes, the rain this afternoon still leaves a dark cloud that covers the stars that used to accompany Nindy's solitude. The roof top floor also looks wet because of the rain. He doesn't care, he just wants to be alone right now.

His life is not much different, it is still the same. He was lonely with no one to understand him. Maybe that was his destiny.

He rubbed the tears that had dripped down that scroll with his index finger.

Don't cry, Nindy. You're a strong woman. Don't you often experience this loneliness? Why do you have to cry over something you've been through so often?

Maybe he was expecting too much with the man, making Nindy feel disappointed by it. Yes, there is nothing to be sorry for, all this is the destiny of his life, and Nindy must thank him.

Until something warm suddenly enveloped his body. Nindy turned her head back as the stretch of a knit sweater had hugged her thin body.

He looked forward again, disregarding the person who had fitted the sweater to him.

And an ice cream was thrust in front of his face. Nindy stared lazily at the hand that was still grasping the cone-shaped ice cream in front of her.

"I'm not a child" she sullenly exasperated.

***

"Did I make you angry?" The man sat down cross-legged, ignoring the still wet floor that was sure to put a dirty stain on the bottom of his pants butt.

Nindy nodded as she ate the ice cream voraciously. He was upset, but tempted by the ice cream. And that's enough to make him even more upset. His pride is only worth the ice cream cone.

Yang Pou Han seemed to smile at her. Nindy can always make her laugh, both with her mannerisms and words. "Is he still angry?" He asked again.

"Emmm, I don't want to talk to you. Hearing your voice just pisses me off."

"Oh, that? All right, I'll go." He stood up, moved from his seat to leave Nindy alone.

Nindy looked clucked, the man was completely insensitive. "Yes, go there. Don't look for me anymore!" annoyed screams. He threw away the ice cream pack carelessly. Which made his mood break apart.

Basic lady. His lips told him to leave, but his heart told him to stay. Women are hard to understand.

Yang Pou Han turned around, approaching Nindy who was now standing on her back with silent steps. Her steps came to a halt right behind the woman, pulling the slender body until Nindy turned to face her. The man tugged at the woman's waist to get close to her, with Nindy's hand holding the man's chest that was about to collide with her body.

Who rubbed the ice cream marks that were smudged on Nindy's lips with her thumb. That simple treatment made Nindy's heart beat fast. Until he felt the lips of the man clinging to his lips with a sassy, unannounced or a twitch. The tongue gently rubbed the surface of his lips that were still left ice cream marks, making Nindy's body stiffen instantly.

Nindy returns helpless, as the man begins to do his utmost in leaching the woman with his hot kiss. Yang Pou Han was so reliable, overturning Nindy's feelings and heart with her often fickle attitude. The touches he did always managed to melt the heart of Nindy who was often upset with his attitude.

Nindy could not resist, or simply avoid the treatment of the man who took the nira from the sweetness of the lips. He was always stunned by what Yang Pou Han did to him. Nindy realized that. Her heart was so weak when it had been physically related to the man.

Who let go of the lips after almost ten minutes of the struggle of the lips. His thumb rubbed the wet lips gently. Nindy could only resign herself in the firm arms of the man, allowing the man to act as he pleased.

Who seemed to reach into something in his pants pocket. Netra slit it did not take off the view of the netra round owned by Nindy, until his right hand showed something in front of Nindy's face.

"Do you want to go on a honeymoon?" ask the man later.

"A-pa?"

"We're leaving next week. Get ready! Maybe I should speed up to get you pregnant."

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