My Sacrifice for Mother

I Don't Want Tau

Danu is still a war of thoughts with the position of his back on his bed. Without realizing it his hands had started to turn red due to the grip of his own fingernails. Danu doesn't know how to tell her father about this failure. As for his mother who had not seen his second son-in-law .

How will he answer his father's questions. His father would blame him of course. Because his father knew very well that Ghanes was not a goddess who liked to get along with men, who could not do homework, who could not even cook and work at all.

Her father would definitely blame her if her daughter-in-law this time left the house. Because his father loved Ghanes' cooking. Since Ghanes was in this house, his father and himself have become increasingly fat and look so well-groomed.

Then if Ghanes left, surely his father would have scolded him instead of defending him.

Danu closed his eyes, thinking about what he would do after Ghanes' departure.

Without him realizing it, it turns out that there was someone who had been watching him, who saw his cheeks wet with tears.that even Danu himself did not know why he could be that crybaby now.

Danu opened her eyelids slowly after feeling her bed slightly sway a sign of someone riding on it. At the end of the bed he saw a woman wearing a black striped yellow hijab sitting looking at him.

he faintly looked at the woman, as her eyes were still wet with tears. But he knew very well the silhouette of the body belonged to Ghanes Anjani his wife.

Danu just kept quiet, not moving, because he did not know what to say to his wife who was already angry. Danu also knows how his wife feels when she is angry. Shut up and do whatever he says. Because Ghanes is not a person who only likes to threaten.

"Well, are you crying? What are you crying about?"

Suddenly Ghanes opened his voice.

Danu gasped and immediately took a sitting position, because he realized he was still given the same opportunity Ghanes to speak.

"Lha because you're still why me." Reply to danu with a hoarse voice.

"Continue?" Tanya Ghanes flat.

"Can't it be if you don't have to go?" Danu asked expectantly.

"depends you. You're a man, and I'm just a follower, so what I'm going to do is up to you. But all you need to know is that what I've said can't be bargained for."

Ghanes replied still in a horrible flat voice.

"Okay I'll try." Answer the weak Danu.

"No word berusha, no yes yes yes yes yes. That's that kind of."

Danu was silent,,, not making a sound. Until finally ,

"Yes." Yeah."

Ghanes breathed a heavy sigh, then, then,,,

"Let me go for a minute."

"Where?"

"Ga know, I want to refresh first."

"How long?" Tanya Danu enthusiastically.

"Ga know."

"I am anterine." Persuade Danu.

"Ga need, I can do it myself."

"I anterin go home yes, say you miss with mom. It has been almost 1 month you have not come home. out of your nganterin, I came back here again. Let you sleep there. Yep.... Pleaseee.."

Ghanes again took a deep breath, though,

"Hhhmmmmmgghhhh,,,,,, I have, but I want to bring my own motor."

"OK, okay. What matters is that I am anterin . This part is malem, not good to see people, ntar in the thought you want to stop by. Kasian you if later in ghibahin people. You know what our neighbor is."

Ghanes remained silent, for he did not care. His heart is not okay. But he is not an ABG who behaves as well as his own, without thinking about other feelings.

What does Ghanes think about Danu's feelings? Definitely NOT ! But what he thought again was the feeling of his mother, which is Miss Santi.

Ghanes was still very worried about his mother's heart, he again did not want to make his mother worry or even feel embarrassed.

How would her mother feel if her only daughter had to divorce at the age of her 6th marriage ?

What will his neighbors talk about him later ? Will the divorce of Ghanes guarantee that his mother's condition will be okay ?

But if asked if Ghanes wants to continue his marriage or not, then the answer is Tidak. His heart was too sick in the lie, to be played that way.

And Ghanes was indeed not a person who could easily forget the trouble that came to him. He can forgive but not forget.

Ghanes put his backpack on the bike, without saying anything. It just so happens that his father-in-law is not around . He was in the river doing his hobby of fishing. Almost every day after returning from work he always went to the river to fish. Whether it can fish or not, but indeed his hobby is hanging out in the river along with the fishing rod.

Danu with a pale face is only able to follow his wife, also without much talk. He let his wife carry a backpack with her letters (marriage book etc).

He did not want to forbid anything his wife wanted to do, because he was very familiar with the character of Ghanes . That Ghanes when angry is very dislike to be disturbed or hear babbling from others.

Danu purposely let Ghanes return to find tranquility with great hope, may Ghanes return to his arms with a peaceful heart.

"My Lord, do not separate us." His prayer in his heart while guiding his motorbike followed Ghanes' motor.

While holding his motorbike, Ghanes tried hard to hold back his tears, because he knew that tears were the source of disaster when riding the motorbike, especially at night, because the burem can't see the street from behind the helmet glass.

Ghanes slowly put a helmet into his head,

"Lord,,, give my best, keep me away from explosive emotions, don't let me make angry decisions. Give it your best." 

Then he took a deep breath and began to slowly pull the gas handlebar.

The dim street lights seemed to know about the turmoil in their household at this time. Cloudy gray also hung over the sky as if ready to come shed tears for them.

Ghanes drove his bike at a standard speed, because he was still very affectionate with his life.

He did not want to make his mother cry because he lost a child for the second time.

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Crossroads after crossroad he passed with Danu who continued to follow him from behind. The usual distance traveled within 1.5 hours takes up to almost 3 hours. Because they walk very slowly.

Still in the yard, Mr. Alan suddenly came out of the house with an anxious look.

Ghanes casually parked his bike and smiled.

"There's nothing, sir, I want to go home all of a sudden. Mmpung malem, males have to wait until tomorrow ampe."

Mr. Alan looked at Danu with a suspicious look, "Is that so Dan?"

"Yes, mr. bener. Tau himself Ghanes how if you have a desire can not be held. " Reply answer danu gently so that Mr. Alan does not become suspicious.

"Thus why carry such a big backpack ?" Mr. Alan asked as he pointed at Ghanes' green backpack.

"I've been sleeping here for a long time."

"Why?" Mr. Alan asked increasingly distrustful of this son and daughter-in-law.

"You guys dropped out of the house? Fighting with your father?"

"Akhh ga sir. Why also quarrel, I'm going home this time sir." Danu answered Mr. Alan's question.

"Loh, you're not here Dan?"

"Ga sir, I'm working tomorrow, so if I stay here, tomorrow morning I'm sleepy sir. I can't focus my work. I better be home tonight."

Mr. Alan glanced, "So you were here just to nganterin Ghanes?"

"Hehhehee yes sir. Kasian, he was afraid later if it was found out the neighbors even in case they ran away from home anyway."

"Well,,, look at Nes your husband as well as that, you become a wife try not to be hard as when you are not married. Kasian your husband."

Ghanes only glanced at a glance with his cynical eyes without commenting anything. A word never comes out of his mouth. Then he stepped into his backpack towards his room.

"Oh, haven't you slept?" Ghanes asked Bu Santi who was in front of the television watching his favorite OVJ.

Miss Santi who seemed to understand what happened to her daughter just smiled, she said,

"Not An, you're okay, are you?"

"Good buk."Answer Ghanes briefly.

"Well, if you're tired of sleeping, wash your feet first so that it's fresh." Miss Santi's orders without trying to talk more.

Which mother does not understand the child she gave birth to herself. Miss Santi is even more aware of the condition of her children only see from the look and feel of her face only.

Without having to tell in detail, Miss Santi knew that her daughter was not okay.

He also understands the character of his daughter. He does not want to add to his mind by talking too much or giving advice.

After all, if his heart is calm, usually Ghanes will also tell himself about the problems he is facing.

While Danu sat for a while in the living room, 15 minutes later he entered his wife's room,

"Dec, I'm home."

Ghanes was silent not to answer, he was busy with games on his phone, he was busy with 8 ball poll that he almost won. Ghanes did not hear her husband's voice, but she did not want to know. Unconcerned.

Danu just smiled watching his wife. Because he knew Ghanes just wanted to relax, just,

he slowly rubbed Ghanes' head and kissed the top of his head.

"Yes already, I go home first, the night hunt, you sneak a break huh. If there's anything chat if you don't want to talk."

Ghanes remained silent, unconcerned.

"Gua don't want to know, you want to say also, what care cave try."

Not long after heard the roar of the motorbike Danu increasingly went away from leaving the house of Mr. Alan, leaving Ghanes alone in his room which was only illuminated by lights from the side porch.

From the middle room, there was a vague conversation between Ms. Santi and her husband,

"Sir, what did you say to your son?"

"What's? There's no one."

"You are yes, if you know the children are having problems it does not need to be lectured sir, just be quiet first, let them calm down, do not be pretentious to be parents. Let it go first, let them learn to solve their own problems. Don't like to interfere with the household affairs of the child."

"I'm his father."

"Who said you were his neighbor ? Everyone knows that you are his father. But interfering with the child's household is not something wise. Ghanes would have told himself if his heart had calmed down. Rich you don't know your son."

Ms. Santi and Mr. Alan are still busy arguing in front of the television, as long as Ghanes do in his room as much as the sound of a motorbike Danu disappeared tears had wet his cheeks to the clothes he was wearing.

He sat down and hugged the golden satin pillow he had made himself.

He cried without making any sound. But his breathing was so tense because his heart was too hurt.

Again Ghanes again remembered his old story, again remembering his son who he had thrown away deliberately. Recalling all his folly had fallen in love with Dimas.

And she still felt foolish to have chosen Danu to be her husband, if in the end she came back crying like this.

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