My Sacrifice for Mother

My hands are dirty

"Where he said it hurts, my stomach feeling is just a big ga ga until admitted. The doctor is a fraud. " Anes recalled the words of the doctor at that time.

19.00

In his room, Anes opened the desk drawer and grabbed two drugs that will be consumed at this time exactly 3 days after he took the medicine at the clinic.

"Where ? nothing." muttered Anes alone after putting the pill in his mouth and swallowing it.

But not !

An hour later Anes began to feel his stomach twisting and severe pain, as well as pain all over his waist.

"Mmmmmhhgg start nih, strong Nes, strong." His words encouraged himself.

Anes continued to try to withstand his stomach pain is quite great, unlike menstrual pain that he had experienced before, this feels 20 times more pain. His back is like a Bushcraft knife. The pain is like getting stuck in his little teeth, pulling like the mouth of a fish that hit the hook eye.

Anes leaned his back against the wall he was straddling with pillows. But it's getting sicker for longer. Grindingly. The stabbing feeling is getting into his spine.

"Scrc..sshhhhhh.......God, if you want to take my life not now God, please, have mercy on my mother who is not yet healthy, my mother may not be strong enough to lose her child for the second time." Anes said with a groan trembling and his body grew limp.

Suddenly he felt like he wanted to pee, crawling, he went to the bathroom, took off his pants, then sat on the floor and leaned against the bathroom wall.

"Sss..sshhhh I'm not me..aatt..."

Stimulate her slowly while taking out her urine.

But he did not see what, not because the urine was not there, but because it was dark, he did not see anything else, but still in his sense he released urine very rapidly.

It feels so good in the stomach.

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"Hahhhh !! is this all blood ! "Surprised Anes woke up from his sleep.

He slept on the cold bathroom floor with no pants on.

"Kok cave overslept anyway ?" Looking at the clock on his left wrist. While gnashing his eyes together because he was still confused about what happened.

Why did he sleep on the 'floor, and why so much blood came out of his groin.

"Hour 9 ???" he was confused asking himself.

Seen once again. It's the same at 9.

"That means the cave fainted ? an hour ? Zushyet." The situation is still in confusion.

"Eh, maybe yes, the cave was entered like 8 o'clock, then it's not possible that the cave accidentally slept on the bathroom floor." He said while remembering.

"Eh what is this ?" He asked himself after seeing a lump of blood, not exactly like blood, but pale red with a hint of whitish, lung-like patches that were still raw. This clot is no longer intact, but it is split in two, slightly more chewy than frozen blood. The size of one of his little fingers is divided in two.

Tesss....

"You out son ?" He asked slowly as he felt the palpable grabbing the two small lumps, because his eyes had blurred could not see clearly, covered with a dam of water that continued to flow rapidly.

Immediately he lifted to the sink, then in his wash slowly while reading Alfatihah.

"Either this is right or wrong, you don't know." The voice in his heart, because he did not know what to read.

At the same time Anes cleaned the remaining blood along the bathroom floor with the rest of the remaining power is still weak, judging from the motion of his hands are very slow.

With his strength still left he immediately shower shampooing while sitting on the toilet, because his legs are very limp.

Bathing only as long as the conditions are met.

He carried the clot out on his hand and took it to the room, with his hair still wet, and he read aloud to the blood.

His right hand held a yasin book, his left hand held a handkerchief to wipe the tears that did not stop flowing.

Occasionally he rubbed his snot coming out of both nostrils.

He put the blood on the white cloth he cut yesterday from his face, he put it on the table right in front of him sitting at this time.

After reading the yasin, he covered the white cloth like a lemon-flavored candy. And tie it at both ends with smaller pieces of cloth.

"I'm sorry Rahma, remember your name is Rahma Damasya. I'm sure you're a girl.

Go to sleep, tell God that your mother was forced to do it. I'm sorry son."

While still rubbing handkerchiefs in both eyes.

Tomorrow morning he will go to the park and will bury the box under a tree in a corner of the park.

He began to lay down his body on the bed, but in the sight of his eyes, his hands dirty with blood, Anes continued to rub his hands on the t-shirt he was wearing, but the results were nil. The blood is still there and more.

"Hkkssss... hkkkssss why is this blood getting so much, why are my hands so dirty?" Ask confusion.

He ran to the bathroom in his hand wash over and over again, but nil, blood continued to fill all his palms.

"Why is that?" The question is still confused.

He took a towel and wrapped both hands in the towel, and smiled a little calmly, because he no longer saw his blood-filled hands.

"It will be able to soak into this towel." Mumbled .

But his hope was in vain, because the towel suddenly came apart and Anes again saw his hands reddish full of blood.

Anes got angry, confused, rubbed his hands on the bed frame, the longer the blood more, and it felt more painful.

Of course it hurt, because his hands began to hurt, rubbing against the hard bed frame.

Hallucinations carried to dreamland, he fell asleep because of to capekkan.

Dddrrtt.

"Akhs ! what time is it ? it's still dark too?" Anes grumbled as he grabbed his phone.

And sure enough it was his cell phone alarm that went off at 4:00 in the morning.

"Gua Garus go now." He muttered and then got out of bed.

Without washing his face, without brushing his teeth, he took the jewelry box or rather the coffin, took it out of the freezer and put it in his bicycle basket.

With super power he paddled his bike to the park with God's paddles.

Armed with a handyman's cutlery in the barn, he dug the ground under the tree quickly, hunting for time so that no one else could see it.

Once the depth is in the taste enough he puts the box in, then heaps it back in with the ground, and presses the nekan so that it is denser, so that it is more dense, not to forget on it he put a small grass grass to cover his small excavation marks.

When he finished, he read alfatihah as a farewell.

"Remember me Rahma, come home later, I'll take you home, stay here, don't go anywhere." He said and clapped his hand 3x on the former ground.

Anes immediately moved from his squat.

"Huh, my pants are all blood ?" Shocked when checking her back pants that are already full of reddish color of blood.

"When before going to bed, the cave has used pads. Akh.." The road was quick to the house, before seeing anyone else, and to change his pants immediately.

Anes didn't know that puerperal blood would come out so much. Because he is bego. At that age, dating never did anything, once did even make a sin so double double.

"Akkhh shhiitt !"

He rode his powerful bike home.

Arriving home, he released all his woes, he immediately dabbled with water and was washed clean.

"Akkhhh what a hell ?" Shouts when his hands are exposed to soapy washing foam.

After he noticed both his hands were full of wounds, and also slightly swollen bluish.

"Why is this so ?"

"Akkhh be it, "He does not want to bother thinking about it, because the laundry must be finished quickly.

After putting on the gloves and picking up the brush, Anes finished the laundry as soon as possible, and replaced the pads with new ones.

"The cave's still sleepy." His grunts because he felt the laundry was not clean quickly. .

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