My Sacrifice for Mother

september 12th

A bright morning begins a man who is devastated. Between continuing what has been decided or retreating backwards.

In fact, what he was waiting for did not exist. The KABAR.

Often he brushed off the hope in his little heart. Still can not believe if what he expects his presence today is the person who was once his strength when he lived in Susan.

He still refused to acknowledge and believe that this person was the same person that existed at that time.

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He made it clear that his decision was right for him and his mother. Sin, let him bear it himself later.

Hmmmmmm.....

Glancing at the watch please be anxious waiting for 7 p.m.

The day seems to slow down, very slow . Like waiting for the torment of the Hereafter.

16.30

"Ma, at 7 Anes out for a while ma, want to see a doctor." Anes asked permission from Mom.

"Why else are you?"

"Ga ma, just Anes feel uncomfortable, want to know that I used to crumple again or not." Anes answered, Reason.

"Bloody again?"

"Ga the hell Ma, ain't bleeding. Than to get rich late yesterday."

"Yes, you haven't been long, have you?"

"Ga ma, at the most 1 hour, papa justin sit first, I will go home new in bedin." Anes said because he knew what Mama was thinking.

"Oh, if you want to go away."

"Thank you ma." Anes smiled.

Cling !

I'm in front of your house √√

It was a message from Mom.

^^Yes mi, I'm out now.√√^^

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After completing the administration, Anes entered the doctor's office to perform a re-USG.

The cold gel on his stomach gave Anes goosebumps, fearing, his eyes began to water, but in his hold.

"Well, you see this, right here, right ? looks like, it's still very, very small as a green bean."

The doctor explained while showing the picture on the screen.

After the stomach is cleaned, the doctor gave instructions to Anes what to consume to maintain the health of the fetus.

Anes was just speechless listening, without responding to anything, waiting for a pause so that he could express his intentions.

"M....dok, may this fetus be thrown away ? Help me throw it away, Doc." Said Anes slowly.

With eyes slightly widened in shock, the doctor asked ,

"Know you want to throw it away ?"

"Yes doctor, sure."

"OK, now you have to have a person in charge of this, is there a ?"

"There's outside the doctor. He's my brother." Anes told a lie that Mami was his only friend, not a brother.

"Yes, tell him to come in."

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"You're the sister of this lady?" Ask the doctor about Mommy.

"Yes the doctor." Mama replied for sure.

"Do you know what he's going to do ?"

"It's been the doctor, it's been negotiated, because he still wants to continue his contract." Mami said explained. I don't know where Mami has a reason like this. Anes was astonished at him.

"Okay, now that you read this paper, you can understand English right?"

"Can doc."

"Yes, read first, then sign below, the left is your brother's signature." The doctor pointed to the box on the left while looking at Anes.

The content of the paper is a statement that what is done in its own decision, and there is no coercion from any party, he said, then whatever happens is purely the responsibility of the undersigned. And the patient promised not to pursue a lawsuit for the loss of the fetus in the stomach.

After all the signatures were done, the doctor turned back to Anes, who was,

"There are two options, want an instant, or with a pill?"

"What if docks?" Ask Anes.

"Instant, you do it here, it takes about 1 hour.

If you are using a pill, there are two stages, the first stage is drinking here, accompanied by a nurse, the second stage you drink on the third day after the first pill. The number of pills each now there are three grains, the third day there are 2 grains." Obviously the doctor at length.

Anes chose this because of time constraints. Anes can't leave the house for too long.

"However, it might hurt a little."

"What a doc." Said Anes again.

"okay." The doctor took the paper and gave it to Anes.

"Now go with this nun, after she's done just come back here."

Anes stepped into another room, he drank 3 grains of pink triangle-shaped medicine. There was no reaction after drinking it other than a full taste in the stomach.

Anes sat back down and the doctor gave him another paper for his signature, and a small packet of 2 brown pills.

"this is for you to drink 2 more days after today. Then a week later after you drink, you have to double-check the condition of your stomach here huh." Obviously the doctor again.

"Okay doc, thank you."

"Yes, it's over."

Anes and Mami stood up from her seat and opened the exit.

But Anes went back inside,

"Dok, can I have a photo of the USG doc?"

"If the photo is allowed, but if the USG photo is taken home, it can't, it's to be our document, because the fetus has been removed."

"Oh.ga can ya."

"You can just take the photo, capture it with your phone on the front sister, the real one don't take it home."

"Yes, doc, thank you."

Arriving in front of the sisters, Anes captured her USG Photo and sent it directly to Dimas.

Thank you, your son is dead. You are free now, thanks again.√√

^^^ What do you mean ?√√^^

Nothing, I just want to say your future son is dead, I just threw it away, but just relax, I won't ask for your money, I've paid it off. √√

The picture is proof, if you can see it. √√

^^^Drama√√^^

Hmmm....

Anes took a deep breath reading the last reply from Dimas.

But Anes said nothing to him or to himself.

He has begun to escape, releasing one burden not to make another.

On the way home, Anes looked down at his own footsteps, ignoring the mother who was walking beside him.

Suddenly he was shocked because his hand was pulled hard.

"Review car ! You don't cross paths at zebra cross, don't kill yourself donk !!" Shouted someone who when Anes turned his head turned out to be Mami who had just walked beside him.

"M.mmhh Sorry Mi."

"Don't daydream."

"Sorry." Said Anea feeling guilty.

"Yes already. Do not think about what has passed, the important thing now is to prepare yourself for 2 days tomorrow, prepare for the pain. Don't think about anything else. Just think about yourself."

Deg ! Anes. Right enough.

Anes also had to find a small wooden box to store the blood clot later.

He also had to start looking for a place where he would bury him later, so that when he returned to Indonesia he could still be taken again and brought home.

As if forgetting what he had just done, Anes was his guest at home, busy unloading cupboards, and, because he remembered once given a gift of a small jewelry box made of wood by his sister mama who lived in China. The brown color box is very beautiful, with a cute dragon tail carving, not scary or ferocious like most other dragon carvings.

"Well, here it is. Now just look for a clean white cloth, mmm.... what the hell is it, cook the t-shirt ?" Ask her to herself.

Finally Anes cut his mucena into several pieces, small only not to 30 cm.

"Good thing I got two, there's still one more backup."

His murmuring back with a slight smile had solved one more problem.

The more the night, the more the stomach is full, there is a little bit of wanting to vomit, but not nausea.

I don't know... Anes felt his stomach and warmed up.

"May be good and have no problems."

Anes muttered and went to the bathroom to fill his heart.

Warm water flushed all over his body, giving a massage a comfort massage, giving a reflection on his heart.

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