My Sacrifice for Mother
What am I considered ?
"Because........" Anes replied, not continuing his words.
Mami patted Anes' shoulder gently.
"Rethink well well, there is still a week, the father of this child is there right ?"
"There's no." Answer Anes slowly.
"Well, you ask first the Father, how good, do not be rash to make a decision, if it can still be maintained yes in the defend, this kasian fetus does not know what. However, if you want to decide to be fast within a week, do not wait for the fetus to be big." Mami said she gave advice.
"Yes Mi, I know all the risks, and I also think about it too, besides there's still something else."
"Well, whatever your decision, let me know, next week I'll get you again."
With a very bright face, Anes turned to Mami,
"Seriously Mi ?"
"Yes." Yeah." Reply Mami with a smile.
"Have you eaten ?" Ask Mami back.
"M.. hasn't Mi from the morning."
"Lha why ?"
"Ga napsu anyway. continued this afternoon also vomiting so my appetite was lost altogether."
"How much do you eat fruit now ? or buy hot soup ? How can you work if you don't eat?"
"M.. maybe a hot soup deh Mi, it's good if the stomach is empty and then eat an anget and seger." Anes agreed to mami's suggestion.
"Well, that's donk, yuk buy first, later on eat here aja while ngadem."
"Okay, yuk."
They moved from their seats on the concrete chairs of the garden. Because the season is hot, so they choose to sit in the park, because many trees, automatically the air is fresher and more comfortable.
Not until half an hour they had returned to their original place with a plastic bag containing two bowls of salmon head soup and tofu.
The smell of seaweed is very fresh when the lid of the bowl is open. While smiling, the two began to eat the soup slowly.
But after spending half the bowl, Anes began to feel nauseous and immediately stopped eating.
"Why?" Tanya Mami saw Anes stop feeding a spoonful of soup into her mouth.
"Nice noodles." Anes replied trying to hold on and take a deep breath and then exhaled slowly, to relax himself so as not to spit out the food he had just eaten.
"yes, if you are not strong, do not need to be on the axis. Two-bodied people are so, btw, you're how you react, but there's not 1 month, right?" Tanya mami was a bit surprised.
"M. I don't know mi either, this is the first time, the 18th yesterday really."
"Well, it hasn't been a month. It's the 31st."
"Have not discussed, the important thing in this week take good care of yourself. Eat as much as you can. Try to have food come in, if it's not your body glue, you can't work."
"Yes mom, I understand."
"Okay, after this we go home. If there is anything do not hesitate to tell your mama this yes."
"Yes, thank you lo mi."
"same. We're here family. So it's only natural. Don't feel alone."
"Thank you."
They walked along the sidewalk of the shop that is still crowded with people and vehicles that pass in the middle.
"Mommy, thank you, bye bye." Said Anes waving her hand at mami when she had approached her house.
"Get health."
"ready mi. Meet you tomorrow at the park. Mi.. don't tell me that child. Pleasetite."
Anes said pleading.
"Mommy knows. Don't worry." His mouth while smiling.
"Yes, it's bye." Mami waved back at Anes and continued to pass towards her own home.
"Kok tumben go home no sound An." Said Mama who looked up when she heard the sound of the roling door open.
Anes smiled wryly, "Capek Ma."
"He took a shower there. Hunting malem." Said Mam concerned to see the drenched and lethargic Anes.
"Where did the child come from, how did it look so lethargic." Mama muttered alone and went into her room again.
"H......hgh.." take a deep breath Anes slammed into his bed.
Tuu...**...... ttuuuuttt....tuuu...
"What's the deck?" Asked a voice that was none other than Dimas.
Anes was silent as if unable to make his own voice.
"What the hell is it ? I'm tired of this."
"I'm positive." Anes said softly and lethargicly.
"Oh that one ? It's not possible..."
"I said I'm positive ! I just got home from the doctor, and it's positive." Anes said half-screaming.
"Akh. You don't do most drama deh, I said it's not possible ya ga maybe, people I oveloinnya in the dalem kok can get pregnant. There's just you." Answer Didim evasive.
Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !!!!
"Now I just need your answer, you're ready to go home soon, we're married ?" Anes asked while enduring the pain in his chest .
"Ga. I can't go home now. If you want to go home, go home first, 6 months or 1 year later I'll follow." Dimas said a very nonsensical answer.
"What did you say ? 6 Months ? a year ? you want my mother dead ? you crazy Dim ?" Anes said starting to get rough with his word.
"Okay. If you don't want to go home, now gini, let me have an abortion, but I hope it costs us both, it's ours, not mine." Anes said he had a choice.
"How much money do you want ? 4 thousand ? 6 thousand ? enough ga ? if not enough to ask for another ma don't ma me. I don't have any money."
"Huh ??? you mean what the hell is Dim?" Anes asked in surprise mixed with emotion.
"Well, why should it be my responsibility, is it not my son, please marry his father why should it be me. Don't go nailing donk's scapegoat." Said Dimas again.
Anes was dizzy to hear all the sounds in his ears. And don't understand what that means.
"Living to admit that the child is not my child, how difficult is it really ? Just tell me, who slept you are not me, right?! Fucking lonthe."
"Lu said Dim's lonthe cave ? so all this time you've been nganggep cave just lonthe, your entertainment is that ? Emang all this time you've paid for the cave how much Dim ? Cave ever spend your money how many billion Dim ?
Answer !!!!" Snapped Anes very hard because it was too an emotion that could not be stopped.
"Here you go, you want to do whatever you want, I don't want to know. If it doesn't matter, don't look at me. One more thing, don't do most drama. If you want to tell me frankly ma me, let me be the pimp." Dimas said and immediately turned off his phone.
Teess...... Her tears flooded her clothes.
Her phone has sagged somewhere.
No sobs, no swearing, nothing, nothing quiet.........
In the corner Anes slammed his head against the wall repeatedly, cursing his folly, cursing his innocence, cursing his heart.
Until after his head was heavy and quaileng, Anes in a wet shirt with his own tears, he went to the bathroom, flushed all over his body with cold water, rubbing all over his body, and then he went to the bathroom, hoping to clean up the dirt in his flesh.
"An... What are you doing inside ? you're crazy what a 2-hour ampe bath . Why you?"
Shouting a voice from outside the bathroom that is none other than the sound of mama sambik banging on the door.
Anes suddenly realized from his dream.
No ! it was not a dream, but a reality that he had to face alone. Yes alone. There's no who.
"Yes ma. Anes immediately came out, was shampooing, Anes' head stinks, Amis." Anes said he gave a reason.
"Can we ? I don't feel what smells like."
"iya ma, there is a meeting last year that I did not accidentally throw eggs."
"What if there's a birthday is always that ?"
"Yes ma, always, like the video I've shown you mama is lo."
"Oh. Yeah, kirain you fainted inside ."
"haha, it's ma." Said Anes laughing with reddened eyes as it drained his tears.
After Anes heard Mama's steps away, Anes came out of the bathroom and immediately went down to the bed, so that no one would question him again.
His phone blinked green.
But the disappointed breath , because what he expected was Dimas apologized for what he had said, but Ariz contacted him.
How ?√√
^^^Positive√√^^
Haahh ??√√
And Dimas ?√√
^^^Mati.√√^^
Does that mean he's hands off? √√
^^^yes√√^^
Lacking √√
^^^Don't look for him.^^^
^^^Biarin.^^^
^^^Let the cave take care of itself.√√^^
^^^Udah , cave to sleep √√^^^
A lonely night. Only papa's snoring was heard. Tired of the eyes Anes cried, but his tears were not yet dry. It just keeps flowing non-stop. He stared at the sky of room 'sky, the carving engraving on the ceiling turned into like the claws of a monster ready to pounce on him.
The opening of the facebook timeline, the more painful it will be to see a post Dimas who uploaded a photo of his happy activities today with his friends.
Cry and keep crying, until the alarm goes off at 7am. Anes fell asleep in his tears.
And he is also increasingly aware that this is not a dream, this is the reality of his life today. .
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