My Sacrifice for Mother

Take it

The morning was so bright, the warm shining sun woke the creatures on earth from sleep. No exception Ghanes with his burning clover, began to busy themselves at home with his new engine. Start diligently drawing design-design bags made from fabric. Why not clothes? Because Ghanes wants to start from something completely new and still not on the market. Of course with a relatively cheaper cost.

While singing small, Ghanes clean under the stairs under the house, because as long as he is married he has never touched the house alias clean . In addition to yesterday cleaning the room where the sewing machine, it was also assisted Danu.

Who has been cleaning the house all this time? Yes Danu. Who else.

Ghanes was treated properly, which was never required to clean the house or cook.

But if the matter of cooking is indeed Ghanes who likes to do it, Ghanes is very hobby busy himself in the kitchen.

Sreekkk......

Ghanes' broom about something.

"Hey,,,? What is this paper? Much really?"

Ghanes was surprised because it turned out that the paper under the table was not only 1 sheet two sheets and even dozens of sheets.

HVS A4 paper contains scribbles of numbers with fresh ink that several lines across the cross are marked arrows to the right and to the left, there are also cross each other. There are a few numbers in the color orange and bright green mark some important numbers.

One minute, three minutes, until the 7th minute, Ghanes realized that the papers in his hand were paper lottery numbers.

At once Ghanes's face instantly heated up, feeling deceived by her husband. Feeling betrayed, feeling played.

From the beginning before marriage, Ghanes actually already knew that Danu likes to buy lottery numbers. I'ik told me.

At that time Ghanes gave conditions to Danu so that he would quit his bad habit.

Danu said at the time,

"Please deck, it is just entertainment, will not spend my money anyway, I buy it at most only 500 silver to a thousand silver doank really. Just for entertainment."

"No mas, absolutely not yes no, I said , the thing I can't accept is gambling. Even I am nothing if for example you drink liquor, narcoboy or play women, as long as not GAMBLING. How heavy is it to play gambling?"

"It's not heavy either, but I'm just looking for entertainment after work, anyways not to spend money kok deck."

"I said no ya ga. Gini dech, if you can't stop mending don't try to get married. I don't want to worry about my life because I think about your behavior."

"Well, if so, I'll stop. Where might I prefer lottery numbers instead of choosing to marry you deck, yes obviously I prefer to marry you." Danu replied smiling sweetly pleasing Ghanes.

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Ghanes took a deep breath, exhaled it, then took another breath, doing it over and over again. He did not want to be angry at all, because anger only made his heart more depressed, making him lose focus in work. No appetite can sleep either.

He sat on a short wooden chair, trying to think about what he would do with these papers in his hand.

He tried to recall, that the paper under the table this time was not the first paper he found, before he had three times found it in different places. And at that time he had already confirmed it with Danu.

Danu just smiled and said that it was an old paper that he didn't do anymore.

Ghanes exhaled his breath in great annoyance.

"Bad day." His grunt.

Ghanes' eyes grew hot, slightly regretting why he had accepted Danu's proposal for her. While the one thing he asked not to do was still done secretly.

Ghanes hates lying. Because then he felt played. I don't appreciate his presence. He feels a little.

Why didn't Danu be honest with him that he was still trying to bear fruit, and couldn't do it yet?

Why lie just to make him happy? Wouldn't it have been discovered that this was more hurtful than honest in the beginning?

Screens of tears began to trickle down her plain cheeks that were without make up. He looked far away imagining how he really hoped Syaif would come to his house before the arrival of Danu.

"Am I wrong again in making a decision this time? Tuhaannn,, when will you forgive me? Why do you still give this torture to me? and now I'm back stuck with my own decisions."

Ghanes looked at the clock on his wrist, did not feel it had been 3 hours he sat in this chair without any activity at all. Just crying and regretting his fate that was always stuck with a situation that was not conducive. He always felt wrong in his life. Which always wrong to set the pace.

He then stood up, set foot into the room, stirring cardboard boxes containing various kinds of items made one. He was looking for a photo frame of the gift given i'ik when he got married first.

While continuing to breathe out his regret, Ghanes arranged some paper sketches togel into the frame, then hung it on the wall in place of their wedding photo.

While the wedding photos are stored in the cardboard.

Ghanes began to tidy up some of his clothes into his large green backpack. Take the marriage book and take hers.take off her wedding ring and put it in a plastic clip with Danu's red wedding book. Cleaned up all his important papers, including his hijasah and some photocopies of his KK.

Yes, Ghanes is planning to leave Danu. Not because he has another man, but because he cannot accept the behavior of Danu who likes to play the lottery and can not change.

He does not accept playing. He does not accept lying. He doesn't accept it at all.

But as a mature woman who has grown up, she does not want to scream like crazy. He would do this in a very neatly organized way. In a good way. Go with good permission. Because he does not want to further cause his own mind . He does not want to be stuck with the world he will regret when old.

After everything was done, Ghanes headed for the kitchen to remember his stomach from the morning had not been filled at all. He knew he had to eat. He did not want to torture his body with his mind. He wants everything he does to be based on a clear mind.

While putting food into his mouth that tastes very bitter on the tongue, very much different from usual. Slowly he thought about what he would do next after he was no longer with Danu.

He imagined with the rest of his savings he would start selling local snacks in Shopee, Lazada or Bukalapak.

Or maybe he will look for Syaif to just entertain himself.

Ghanes shook his head agitatedly,

"Why did I have to marry Danu? Akh, why do I have to have that trauma? Why should my heart and my feelings die until I am immersed in the world I chose for myself? Why ????"

Waiting for the afternoon Danu returned home like a year no rain flushed the earth, dry, hot, thirsty, restless as if already on the doorstep of hell. Tightness in the chest. Ghanes also thought about how he would not make a fuss in his in-laws' house. He must really find the right place to talk.

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18:35

Finish the maghrib prayer, and relax as usual in the room watching television, Danu,

It's okay he just ngeh if the frame on the wall has been changed and there's a big green backpack next to the tv table.

Soon he jumped from the bed and designed a frame that he knew very well was the sketches of the lottery that he wrote yesterday and some of it a few days ago.

"Buck, I forgot to get the machine."His grunts to himself for his nakedness.

Then he immediately unzipped his wife's green backpack, and as he suspected that the contents were neatly arranged Ghanes' clothes.

He then opened the wardrobe, and empty, only a few gamis left in Ghanes only when the condition only. The rest goes into all of the backpacks.

Suddenly his legs went limp, though,

"Deeeeeeeeekkkk,,,,!!!!" He shouted a little loudly after a split minute he realized what was going on.

When he came home from work he did not pay much attention to the look on his face, because his wife still kissed his hands as usual and nothing happened. Still making coffee like yesterday.

Nothing strange at all. And he did not expect that Ghanes' silence contained such a great problem and feared him so much.

Ghanes casually walked into the room,

"What's yelling?" Her question was flat with no expression.

Danu with red eyes and pale face was full of shock,

"What's the deck ? This bag why is it all your clothes ? Where are you going ?" He asked in a weak and trembling voice.

Ghanes smiled sinisterly mysteriously,

"Take it, I will return to you with the dowry. I don't need any of that. Save well who knows later in the day you need it."

Ghanes said he casually handed over a red wedding book along with a wedding ring and cash as large as the dowry given at his first wedding.

"What does this mean ? Where are you going ?" danu asked with his face turning pale and black.

"No need to explain, you know what's wrong with you?" Ghanes asked still in a very relaxed and expressionless tone.

Danu bent her head deeply, "Yes, I know."

"Yes, I'm not messing with the word I once said, once said no ya ga. And at that time you have agreed, yesterday I still understand, maybe you need time to change, but now it is not. I can't. I don't want to torture myself by trying to understand you and your habits. "

Ghanes took a deep breath and exhaled it,,,,,,,

"Yes, I'm gonna take a shower, I'm gonna tell your dad."

"Where are you going to deck ?" Tanya Danu still did not believe what she was in nature right now. He really could not believe that his wife was this strict about his mistake. He thought his wife could relax as usual, apparently his guess was wrong altogether.

"It's none of your business mas.Toh all this time before marrying you I was living alone and fine is not it ?"

Ghanes replied casually and then stepped foot into the bathroom.

In the room, Danu crumbs on the bed, grasping the mating cicncin she gave to Ghanes 6 months ago during the Qabul ijab procession. The day he's been waiting for since he first saw Ghanes.

The girl with sparkling round eyes who perched on the sweet face but judas it. Unique face and super cute attitude that makes him more curious to be able to get this woman.

Simple women who at that time only wear black T-shirts and high school training pants. Unique, really unique. Where other young women are busy dressing themselves with make up as thick as a hospital plamir, but what he saw in front of his eyes was a very rare sweet woman.

Danu blew his breath hard, though,

"Do I have to fail the second time ? Who do I have to talk to ? Why am I so stupid ? What lack does it have for me ? Akhhh Shhiittttt !!!"

Danu flailed his hand on his own thighs many times.

"Basic fool, stupid, stupid."

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