
Hannah turned her head when the door of her nursery was forcibly opened, Ivander stood there gasping for breath not forgetting the two policemen who tried to keep her from going inside.
"Let me in, I won't do anything weird I just want to see how it is!"
Hannah heard the screams of Ivander arguing with the police, Hannah on the one hand felt salute to Ivander who seemed very concerned about him but on the other hand Hannah also felt Ivander doing things for free, it means nothing.
For what Ivander is good to him when Hannah alone has no hope anymore, for what Ivander tries to support and be by his side while Hannah already has no reason to stay alive in the world.
For whom is he living? No one would care if he died, Ivander's feelings were only a momentary feeling because Hannah was previously pregnant with Demitri's child, Ivander only loved the prospective child no more.
Hannah knows people don't seem to deserve to be loved, nor does Hannah want to love, whenever Hannah loves something or someone, they will disappear from her, leaving behind deep wounds.
"You okay?"
Hannah turned her head to look at Ivander who showed her worried face, "Stop that kind of expression, it's no use."
Ivander furrowed his brows puzzled, he did not understand what Hannah was going to mean.
"What do you mean? Answer my question are you okay?" Ivander was about to land her palm on Hannah's side, intending to wipe the sweat off Hannah's forehead but Hannah dodged it, she pulled Ivander's hand away.
"Stop being nice to me, your niece-to-be is gone so stop being nice to me, it's been meaningless."
Ivander who heard Hannah speak was so displeased, "Why do you look so pathetic? Aren't you a strong woman, don't you hate Demitri, and then you'll let yourself look pathetic while Demitri will laugh happily in order to have her wedding so?!"
Ivander took a step back, "I know you don't want to see me, I'm leaving but think about what I mean well."
As Ivander retreats before turning away, Ivander feels guilty for Hannah's miscarriage, and Ivander feels remiss in carrying out his duties as a potential uncle as well as a younger brother.
After Ivander's death, Hannah stared into the sky of her nursery, Hannah was right to think about what Ivander was saying, but from a different point of view.
Hannah realized that she was not supposed to be weak, how could she be desperate and lose hope of life while the person who was the cause of her suffering laughed happily.
Hannah thinks Demitri is not saddened by the loss of their future child, Demitri is too busy with Martha, Martha also if she knows this she will only celebrate with pleasure.
Hannah clenched her hands, Hannah did not want to suffer alone, Hannah would pull everyone into the same abyss, suffer together.
Hannah got up from her previous position lying down, Hannah stared at the door that was not closed tightly, Hannah could see there were two policemen standing guard at the door.
Hannah's gaze turned towards the window, Hannah researching whether we think she can jump out of that window.
Grateful Hannah wasn't cared for on the high floor, making it possible for Hannah to jump out of the window and run, but unlucky right in front of the window was a hospital park where many patients or even nurses were hanging around, Hannah would obviously be caught if she was reckless jumping now.
Hannah will wait, Hannah will wait until time allows her to jump.