My love is Fragile

I'm back Injured

My legs are heavy to step on, my eyes are hard to open, my body feels so stiff to get out of my sleep, I just think this is just a dream, this is in soap operas, I have not been strong enough to accept the fact that I am just Kael's ORDINARY FRIEND.

I'm not ready to live my days with this state of heart.I'm really fragile. I want to be hugged by Mama. Only my mother knows how I feel right now. Mama, I'm hurt. Ma, I'm so fragile. Ma, your son is not okay. I miss Mama😭.

One month there was no news from him and it further solidified my heart to move on from my feelings of affection and love to him. I try to keep getting up, being tough even though every day I have to see those who continue to make out through my friend's story account. I try to be mediocre, yes even though one point sometimes the sadness arises and the pain is present.

The more I get carried away by my feelings of sadness, the more I cry. Until finally I tried to refresh myself to return to my hometown. The atmosphere of the village is so cool makes me a little move on, feel comfortable and gradually I forget it and try to get back up.

One month I went online college in the village made me a little complicated because the network in the village is unstable and sometimes completely dead which requires me to return to Medan. Sunday morning I left, and at exactly 2 pm I arrived at the boarding house and suddenly I found a letter in the front window of the boarding house whose cover read “From Michael to Sita”. I'm shocked and spectless I want to tear it apart. But I was arrested with my sister and tried to calm down.

I opened the letter containing

I speak a thousand languages. I don't understand what Kael's intention and purpose is to do this. She was expecting me while on one side she was already together with another woman. Actually I want to know from him directly about the events of that time. I wanted to ask her her real feelings.

One night I thought long, I hesitated to meet her again. But to prove it all, I had to meet him. Finally I unblock WA him and did not wait long, at exactly 2 pm, he said he wanted to come to the boarding house and I just say yes.

Upon her arrival at the boarding house, she wanted to try to hug me but I stayed away.

“ sorry you are nobody me and you also already belong to someone else”. He tried to calm me down and pulled my chin to look at his face but I refused. "What do you want? Is there something you haven't returned?". he just said. Plisss. I got angry and said. "Understand what you mean? You lying to me? you hurt me, you gave me false hope, you said understand Maik? What wrong? What was it that made you change? Am I too ugly? Am I too innocent not able to follow trends like women today? are you ashamed? Or what El? (high tone and crying). You said dong (hitting his chest and hands)..."El Speaking".Kael was silent and I could only cry. My sister could only see us from the window because I wouldn't let her out.