My love is Fragile

El Betrayed me

I was in front of his house and I was confused as to how he could get out to see me. If I knock on her door, what should I say is that her parents are coming out.

I was really confused and very, very sad. For half an hour I was there and suddenly he came out dressed and perfumed. He pointed his eyes right at my two eyes. I can't say anything. I cry so much. I'm really hurt. I was really fragile at the time. I'm not strong, I knelt in front of him and said “I MISS YOU”.

He tried to calm me down and hugged me. My tears just flow incessantly. I really miss him. He drove me home and started telling me that he was working part time (leisure time) at his family's cattle farm so that he didn't have much time to hold the phone and tell me.

All the words he said back then made me really calm down and treated my longing for him. He also cried when he saw me like a dazed person with empty eyes. "Yes I'm waiting for you El, I really miss you, I said".

A moment after that, he took me out to eat and spent some time joking, telling me with him. I was wrong, I was selfish, I didn't think about Michael's activities. I apologized back then for bothering her to drive me home. He just smiled.

And after an hour we were at the cafe, suddenly someone called him and from the content of his conversation it required him to go home immediately. He said there was a mother order he had to deliver. I don't know what that is either. Understandably her mother is a property entrepreneur. I told him to go home without having to take me and he refused to let me go home first. I followed him and he drove me home.

And I asked him to let me know when he had some free time. He nodded and passed from before me. At that time I felt relieved because I had met him and already knew his condition.

Two hours after the meeting, I saw my college friend's instastory showing Michael's face in the group. I have a college friend who is also a friend of Kael High School time as well. They are at KNO Airport. And what makes me wonder is why Michael's face and that of a long-haired, blond woman were highlighted and showed the affection of both.

I still keep a positive mind because I've seen Kael's loyalty and sincerity when I drive me home. Until finally I saw the last story of my friend that contains the caption “ SECONDS-SECOND MICHAEL EDITING KEIREN TO BE LOVER”.

And until finally I watched the moment when Kael knelt expressing his feelings to Keiren and asked Keiren to be his Beloved. At that moment my feelings were broken, I cried out all my might. It hurt a lot when Kael expressed his feelings to Keiren with the expression that Keiren was the only one he loved, nothing else.

I'm really helpless, I'm fragile. I'm sick, I'm sad, I'm hurt. My tears don't stop crying watching my friend live from ig. The live ended when Keren grabbed Kael's hand and hugged him.

I spent my night crying, which left my sister unable to say anything to me other than crying. That's when my sister started to think and realize that I wasn't the one who was wrong all along. I had no appetite, I just stayed in the room, I could only lie down with so many tears. I'm really very fragile. I'm battered.

I'm a really stupid woman. I'm easy to fall in love. I can easily trust a man like him. I...i....akuuu (so deep crying). What wrong? What's my cage? What do you want from me? Is it because I'm just a poor woman who wishes a lot to a handsome man like you? Is it because I'm a stupid woman who falls in love easily? Is it because I'm too innocent to believe in your fake love? I'm sorry to know you, I don't want to see you again. I really didn't love you, I lied back then. I don't really love you. You are so stupid to believe in me. I don't love you Maik. Listen to me El, “I DON'T REALLY LOVE YOU, I JUST PLAY YOU, I LIE TO YOU, (crying)".