My love is Fragile
Enggar's marriage to Kezia
It was a hard day for Sita.
The wounds that had long since healed, now re-tear the very deep recesses of his heart.
"How can I live my days without you forever?"
"Where should I put this pain Gar?" said Sita who kept crying.
Without thinking, Sita asked Mr. Chong for help so that he could come to Enggar's wedding which will be held in 2 days.
"Sir Chong, can't take my leave for this year plus" Sita asked pleading.
Mr. Chong, who knows Sita's purpose and purpose for leave, asserts his question.
"Go away. Solve what still bothers you but don't make the situation there chaotic. You're an adult, behave appropriately there. I support you" Mr. Chong tried to encourage Sita.
"Sir, is it natural not to be angry? Is it natural not to ask for an explanation from Enggar?" Sita who suddenly cried.
"Yes you should be angry. Angry with. But don't be selfish. Let Enggar be happy with his choice of heart".
Sita who heard that could not speak anything but cry until he pleased.
"I don't promise to be okay tomorrow. My legs have been broken by Enggar's betrayal of my sincere love. Why is my love so fragile?" the sentence that kept ringing in Sita's mind.
Tomorrow is Enggar's wedding day with Kezia.
Sita has prepared a special gift that she has neatly wrapped like a gift for the king and queen.
"Hello boy. You have to be strong, son" Sita's mom cried.
"Yes ma. Sita is strong. Sita will look for a man who is more handsome than Enggar, who is better, richer. Calm down ma. Son girl mama pretty ihhhh. No one may like it. Or it is necessary that Mr. Chong will propose to me" said Sita, pretending to be hard trying to hold back her tears.
"My parents too you dragged in this false relationship Gar. You don't really love me. You pretended to be good with my family. Stupid me" Sita kept dredging her head.
"I have to meet him anyway. I want to see her one last time" Sita strengthened her mind.
His legs were not so strong as to step foot into the altar of the church door.
His empty eyes showed him that he was not well.
He kept holding back his tears so that guests who saw him were not disturbed.
He was the first to arrive in the church. She cried wet her cheeks that had been wrapped with her simple make up.
He kept looking at the room to the left and to the right as if to tell him that he should be the one who was sitting binding the promise before the Lord and all the congregation.
But what power, all that is just a delusion. In fact, he had to accept that his lover would marry someone else in the church.
Pain. yes pain once😢.
The church was filled with family and guests.
Sita sat in the middle seat. He did not want Enggar and Kezia and their families to know of his whereabouts.
A beautiful music accompanies the bride's second steps.
A handsome man and a beautiful woman walked slowly into the Church.
Everyone stands to greet the bride like a king and queen.
Sita could not hold back her tears that continued to pour.
He could not stand watching the romance of Enggar and Kezia when he had to smile at the guests who welcomed them.
He was crying in his chair which was covered by a tissue.
He had reached the reluctance to hold back his cries that increasingly could not be controlled for a long time .
"Why mba?" ask someone sitting next to me.
"I'm just overwhelmed. I wish I would be like that" Sita replied smiling.
"Just calm. Waiting for your turn." said the woman smiled again focusing on watching the bride.
...I am Enggar Son of Nadeak, taking thee Kezia Tabita to be my wife. I promise I will have each other and also keep from now until forever. In times of trouble and pleasure, in times of abundance and lack, and in times of health and illness. To always love and cherish one another, until death do us part, in accordance with the holy law of God, and this is my sincere pledge of faithfulness....
When Enggar said that sentence, Sita's heart was like being stabbed by a knife repeatedly. His pulse and heart were not functioning to pump blood throughout his body.
He fell into tears watching Enggar kiss the woman's lips witnessed by everyone.
"I think I'm dreaming. This is not true" Sita who suddenly left the room.
He was crying in the corner of the toilet banging his body to make sure that today was just a hallucination of him.
Tok.
"coming out. It's on the floor" said someone from outside the toilet.
Sita wiped her tears and tried to smile in front of the people who had been waiting for a long time in front of the toilet.
Amens.......
The wedding ceremony was completed, followed by a ceremony conducted by Enggar's colleagues from the Army.
Then followed by a custom event that will be held in a large guesthouse.
"You can't mess up my son's wedding. If you can ruin this show. Watch you. You and your family will suffer the consequences. I will make all your families suffer" said Mama Enggar threatening Sita and leaving her.
It was time that Sita would give the gift to Enggar and Kezia.
He continues to strive hard to rise to the top of the guarantee.
Mr. Chong who was also present at the event continued to encourage Sita.
"Let's go you can. You are a strong woman. Show me that you are strong" said Chong.
Sita climbed on top of the guarantee holding back her ego and crying that she had been weeping since then.
Enggar who saw her go up to the pelaminan was shocked and wanted to approach her.
Mama Enggar looked intently at him giving a code so that Enggar would not do that.
Enggar's footsteps halted and returned to his feet with Kezia.
"Congratulations. You are happy" said Sita held back her tears and tried to smile as best she could.
Sita asked Kezia Enggar's wife for permission so that she could embrace Enggar one last time.
Kezia, knowing that Sita was a former Enggar, tries to resist, but when Enggar asks him for it, Kezia immediately agrees.
Sita hugged Enggar's body tightly as if releasing the longing and destruction of his heart. He continued to cry in Enggar's arms until he made the invited guests notice the incident.
"Let go of Enggar's embrace and get down from here" said Mama Enggar looking cynically at Sita.
"Thank you for ruining my life Gar. I'll come back with this wound. I promised myself and my son that I wouldn't step on my feet in this city, this cruel city" Sita took off the hug and gave a special gift that she had prepared.
"You're a hardworking, kind, smart woman and a beautiful doctor. He continues to boast of you. You're lucky to be married to such a handsome guy. Always happy with him" said Sita hugged Kezia.
Sita left the pelaminan and cried so badly.
He took a taxi to his hotel and asked Mr. Chong for Sita's flight to be sped up the next morning.
Previously he wanted to return at 13:00 Wib, he asked to be accelerated at 08:00 Wib only.
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The gift Sita gave was treated by a piece of paper.
...Happy happy🤵👰...
...welcome to a new life...
...I'm trying hard to write this...
...Read it with your wife...
...Whatever happens, you have decided to commit. Whatever the case, fight and be assured that your vision and mission are the same....
...If there is a struggle, remember happiness as it would be today....
...Marriage is a new life that brings new challenges. Believe me, you can find happiness in it, with it....
...Happy happy! Today is the gateway to the beginning of an adventurous future....
...The purpose of marriage is not to complement each other, but to accept and take care of each other....
...Congratulations on a new life! Congratulations on having a wonderful life and an endless love story....
...May the good memories of the past and the laughter of today be the fragrance of tomorrow. Happy marrying!...
...There is nothing more beautiful than to start everything together, to live it together and together in joy and sorrow....
...Create a love and life story that will inspire everyone....
Fill in Sita's letter in the next sheet
...If you still remember this kebaya, you will definitely get hurt....
...I don't know if it's true or not....
...But here I'm hurt....
...I've sewed this kebaya beautifully....
...Take it back, give it to your wife....
...Because this kebaya is basically your promise to bind me. But the universe says otherwise, you leave me and marry someone else....
...Take it, put it on your wife. I don't want to add to my wounds when I see this....
...And also the shoes you once bought for me. Our feet are the same size....
...Thank you for stopping by my life....
...Thank you for crossing out the beautiful colors in my life....
...Pray for me to be able to move forward in the days of tomorrow without you...
