My love is Fragile

Crying at the Airport

Sita had been waiting for Sita at KNO airport for almost an hour.

He was really worried about Sita's condition after their debate with Enggar's parents.

While at the hotel, Sita only told Uli, her best friend. Sita asked that this news not reach Sita's parents. Sita was afraid that she would burden the minds of her parents.

Sita is looking forward to meeting Uli. His heart was already very hot to pour his heart to his best friend.

From a distance, Sita can be seen walking pushing her suitcase with helpless steps. Seen from his lethargic face, his eyes were swollen and his lips could no longer speak when he saw Uli.

"Aaa...aaa..kuuu" cried Sita hugged Uli hard.

"Okay darling.. I know your heart now. I was right here. I will accompany you" said Uli who also joined in crying.

Everyone is pointing at us. I don't know what's on their minds. We don't know. They seemed to understand the circumstances that I was experiencing at that time. Not many of them were crying when I didn't know her and didn't know what I was going through.

Sita did not speak in the car for nearly 15 minutes. He was silent and occasionally wiped his tears.

I haven't dared to ask him anything. I know it must be hard for him to talk right now. It must have been hard to share the wounds he received.

Arriving at the apartment basin, Sita did not turn her head to me who was taking a suitcase from the trunk of the car.

He just went out and stood next to the car.

"Come on" asked me to pull her hand towards her apartment.

I didn't see Sita pushing the elevator button.

The apartment is on the 5th floor.

I don't know why we got out of the elevator and we were on the 8th floor.

I followed Sita. I don't want to bother him. I want him to walk as he pleases.

He stood at the door of someone else's apartment and said nothing.

"Sita...plissss.don't mess me up like this" Uli said.

"Please, you need to be strong. I have the same you. Do you understand that?" said Uli who was crying for a long time.

"Please.. Aware Sit. Let's go to your room" Uli said.

As long as he stood at every door of the apartment room on the 8th floor, Sita cried. He remembered all the memories with Enggar that would soon be extinct if there was no blessing from Enggar's parents.

Sita's eyes were empty, she didn't want to talk. So that makes Uli afraid to face him.

Every day Sita laid herself on the bed, she cried.

He poked his body on a pillow.

His body was helplessly lying on the bed.

Sometimes he asks me to hold his hand.

I could only stroke her hair and slowly get her to speak.

"Okayahhh... I'm with you Sit. Don't think there's no hope. Enggar is struggling. You have to strengthen him as well" said Uli who continues to strengthen Sita.

"I've been so fragile" said Sita crying. I can't see the world anymore. I can't see the color of my life. I'm already tired. I'm already helpless Li" said Sita sobbing.

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My heart is filled with worry

Should I give up what I've been fighting for all this time?

When prayers and blessings are not forthcoming

My world is filled with darkness

So many obstacles I have overcome

The blessing prayer has not yet been accomplished

The heart did not come

All hope fades into a dream

Sincerity no longer matters

Our love story was never approved

I hope you understand

If love does not have to have each other

Let me give up and go

And if we are meant to be together

I believe God will show you the way

Be patient until that time comes

The story about us I keep

Waiting for you who I always wait for

Until our love is approved

But should?

After all this time we were together

I want us to be together forever

I want to make you happy

I want to keep a smile on the corner of your lips

Spend time with you

I thought everything was beautiful in the end

But it turns out that our love hit the blessing of both our parents

Is this the end of two hearts loving each other

It's an unresolved love story

It is wrong for two hearts to love each other

It is our fault that we love each other

Where should I give all hope

As if everything had been swallowed up by nothing

When happiness seems to be just a figure of speech

Should I let you go..

Even though I know my heart can't...

Should I go..

And not going back to your life again.

God, please give me a little patience..

If the farewell is no longer welcome.