My love is Fragile

Relationship status unclear

I forgot when he knew my boarding address. But when he called me I never denied it and even lied a lot if I wasn't at the boarding house. I've always avoided it because I'm the type of person in the mood. I rarely want to meet her.

The more I got to know him, it didn't seem like he was my type because I wanted a grown man and it was the opposite of Michael. Understandably, he was 2 years under me. Fresh leaning. Haha. He was childish but a little sweet.

Counted 2 years we have always been together to live a relationship without unclear status. Jealous when I see me with other men, angry when I have a chat with a man who spoils me a little, being possessive when I am not with him in a long period of time.

I am happy but I don't know where this feeling goes. I'm happy she's behaving like that but I'm not her woman. It really hurts me. I can't say I don't love her, I can't say I love her either. I was among them. It hurt me.

Every woman wants to get clarity from every man, where the relationship is going. A man who truly loves a woman will be frank that he will be the lover of her heart. But I don't accept that explanation.

I asked him this once. How this relationship will dock. What is the reason he has until now does not give clarity to our relationship.he said that he was afraid we would break up, he said, we will split because of the fight like people and reasons on behalf of “TAKUT BREAK” so that it makes him not want to put restrictions with the word COURAN to our relationship.

When he said that, I felt like he really loved me, I was so flattered. I think he's really my soul mate. "I love him more and more. El's love was that sincere to me, until he wished we'd never parted, I muttered".

Until one day, my sister and boarding friends asked about our closeness. Because yes almost every time he meets me and makes me special. I lied to them, I said that I always refused many times when I wanted to ask me out. I don't love her. I just consider him a friend. I just consider him my junior sister.

Until the news of our closeness reached the ears of my sister and mother. They say that I am selfish, evil and have no heart for a man. They think I'm a woman who doesn't know herself because she rejects a good man like him. They think I don't appreciate her sacrifice every time, come to the boarding house bring food, celebrate birthdays together. They thought I had another man's choice.

If my heart is not this fragile, if I am not this easy to fall in love, if my feelings are not this drag, if I am not this stupid, then, if I dare say that I am the one who has been hurt in this relationship. I'm sad, I'm tired, I'm upset, I'm angry, I want to cry, I'm really sick, I'm sad.