My love is Fragile

El is back

Dringgg.

"Hello Mbah. Is this true with Mba Sita?" ask the driver.

"Yes sir with me" I replied.

"I am from the G*** driver***. I was in front of the mba" said the driver.

"Oh yes. For a moment sir" I replied.

I stuffed all the groceries we had packed into the trunk of the car assisted by the driver.

We left my boarding house to the bus counter.

****Up to the counter****

Suddenly my phone rang.

"Hello" I asked without seeing the nickname because while lifting things from the trunk of the car.

"You have arrived at the counter dear" asked someone who was none other than Enggar.

"Honey already. I'll call ya later. I'm lifting this mama's stuff" I said while disconnecting the call from her.

My mom left at about 12:15.

"Dah ma" I said as I waved at him.

"Bah honey. Be careful if you want to go back" said Mama.

"iya ma" I replied as I began to ride on the motorcycle ojol I had ordered.

Once at home I take a break while occasionally playing my phone.

I accidentally saw a story post by one of my friends that contained that Michael's parents (mama) died last Saturday.

I was shocked because Michael never told me anything about his mama's illness as long as we were friends.

I ventured to unblock my Ig from her.

I tried to convince myself that I could, I didn't hold any grudges against him.

Okk

"Hello El's. I'm Sita. I hope you still remember me. I am saddened by the passing of your mother. May the Supreme Lord give strength to you and your brother" and your extended family.

I know this must be hard on you, very painful. But anyway. Your mother has calmed down with the Father in Heaven. I'm sorry if as long as we're friends I don't know about your mama, whether I can help or not but I'm sorry about this.

Yes spirit.

Indeed, you will surely be sick of hearing these words. There are many who might say this to you. But what my power is, I can only say this through this chat to you.

I hope you're scraping all of this so your strength can recover".

An hour after I sent that message through the instagram DM. Kael.

Thank you Sita still remembers me. I guess you're still mad at me. If you have time, may I meet you again?

Reply back.

Sorry El, I can't. I'm afraid I can't control my heart. You know that I am weak, my love is very fragile. If I meet you again, I fear that the wounds that have been healed will be reopened. I'd better hold back.

Reply Kael

Wh why?

Do you have a boyfriend? Are you afraid that your girlfriend knows we're turning her back?

The wound ripped my heart back.

How is it possible, now that you say we're reversing?

Have we ever dated before?

You never said anything to me. You never gave me certainty. Our relationship is unclear. You hang our relationship so hard as if I'm a fool who can't rebel.

You are so good El.

Now you come say with the intention of we reverse it?

Kael returned to reply

So how should it be?

I avenge it

Right now I don't need anything from you. Be it explanation, explanation and others.

I just want to say my condolences. Not more.

Thanks

I didn't realize that my tears were just dripping. I don't know what I'm crying about. I feel like a person who is considered really despicable, there is no self-respect by a selfish man like El. He thinks I'm going back to him because I got him.

I've had it in my heart since I left him, if I don't want to be in touch with him again either from social media. Indeed, others consider my actions to look childish like it but not to me.

Blocking someone from our social media does not mean we are childish but it is necessary and important for us to maintain our own comfort and composure

I am grateful to have been separated from such a selfish man. That's right, Michael.