My Jutek Woman: My Pain Doesn't Need You to Know

97# Hope

This morning, still in Hasby's arms, Vanesa calmed down thinking that the man in front of her was doing well from the start, the dream that seemed real had indeed made his mental drop instantly, but if he opened his eyes and saw Hasby's warm smile that was welcoming, he said, this time he was convinced that the man was a strong man and could endure his suffering.

After a few minutes of loud crying disappeared, replaced with a lingering sobbing, Vanesa began to loosen his embrace from Hasby due to the sudden feeling of embarrassment coming, how not? Last time remembered, when he woke up he immediately embraced the body of the person and suddenly cried loudly, if someone saw the incident, it is not impossible they will assume that he was looking for attention from his lover, he said, still mending his lover, this is not, even though he and Hasby have a contract marriage relationship, but Vanesa does not know if the man likes it or not.

“ You've improved Van... “ Ask Hasby.

“ Yes... I.. have not papa “ Vanesa said a little distanced.

“ Did you have a nightmare last night? “ ask Hasby.

Only answered with a nod by Vanesa, Hasby assumed that Vanesa's nightmare was enough to make him hysterical, judging from the reaction when he woke up earlier, he said, maybe the woman next to him dreams of losing someone he loves.

“ No papa... everything will be fine, so you are calm yes..”

While looking gently at Vanesa's eyes, Hasby stroked her filthy, limp-looking hair, unlike the young lady whose body was well groomed and beautiful, the girl's appearance was not far from that of a lazy bath person, even though he knew that he was in my condition, but a few days just bathing with water was not enough to remove the dirt in their bodies, moreover, Hasby had to remove the fishy smell of blood from his small and medium wounds.

While still comfortably stroking Vanesa's hair, Hasby was surprised by the tears that flowed back from the corner of the girl's eyes, he was quite panicked, whether He made a mistake, whether He made Vanesa uncomfortable, or not, his mind this time was filled with confusion.

“ E... Vanesa, what's wrong with you? Is anyone sick? Did I make a mistake? If there's a stay say yes.. I'm sorry if I'm wrong, ok? “ Say Hasby with her long words.

“ I'm afraid Hasby... “

“ Scared why? What was the dream last night to keep coming again? If you want a story, I'm ready to cry, ok?.. So you don't cry anymore... “

Not directly telling his dream, Vanesa sighed while he mnyeka tears that fell earlier, after that, he began to tell about his dream that there Hasby died in a state of saying something that he could not hear. At that time vanesa's feelings seemed to be destroyed like a vase of stumps slammed hard to break, even though it was just a dream, somehow Vanesa felt adega it felt real.

“ Relax, Vanesa... it's just a dream doang koko, you don't need to worry, the proof is I'm fine right? “

“ But..”

“ Shut...”.

Hasby puffed out Vanesa's words while touching the girl's mouth with her index finger, advising that the dream was just a sleeping flower, not all the events in the dream would come true, he said, even in special cases, the events in the dream are very rare, so he therefore appealed to Vanesa not to worry anymore.

“ but... That's not a bad sign right Hasby? “

“ Not... instead I was horrified from people, if we dream of a brother or the closest person we died, it's a sign that the person will live a long life “

“ Really? “ Ask Vanesa with bright face.

“ Yes, I boong time anyway?”

Only able to please Vanesa with such a speech, Hasby told it because he had heard from someone about the dream someone died, when in fact he also did not know for sure about the truth behind the dream, but he did not know for sure, at least for now he can make Vanesa think positively.

‘ Sorry yes Vanesa.. I boong let you not cry anymore ‘ Inner Hasby while smiling guiltily.

***

Nafsah stands among 3 adult men who are currently staring at each other, not just Bayu and his uncle Panji, not long ago He ended the discussion that was discussed, he said, come someone who is known that He is the parents of Vanesa, who else if open Jordan.

“ You... bang Panji?! “ Said Jordan who had been silent since then now open the voice.

Only silence answered Jordan's question, neither Bayu nor Panji answered at all the man's words, seen from the look in both eyes that they seemed to have a hidden grudge, plus the expression of Bayu, Nafsah never saw his foster om angry, especially with a face that seemed to explode at any time.

But not Bayu his name if he is not wise-minded, but instead of answering Jordan the man is now even asking back “ You want to why here Jordan? “ Ask Bayu.

“ Cave... sorry... means I'm here to find out about the development of the search for the rescue team, but... somehow can meet you... and.. bang... Mr. Panji “ Jordan said a little humbling.

After Jordan said that, for Nafsah the current atmosphere is very awkward, not only without formal treatment like welcoming someone who has just come, Bayu and Panji seem to not want the existence of Jordan here, but also without the formal treatment, maybe if he were not here, Nafsah thought it might be worse than it looks today.

Initiating to melt the atmosphere, Nafsah invited Jordan to sit in the chair she had previously sat in and told the other two to sit down as well, while she looked for an excuse to order a few drinks.

After Nafsah's departure, the banner spoke for the first time. “ Long time no see Jorda “ Say Panji with his flat face.

“ Yes Ba_.. pack “

The conversation stopped again and the atmosphere became quiet, but not long after that Panji asked Jordan again. “ How is your life right now? Are you happy?, or.. Is there something that makes you not enjoy all? “ Say Panji.

Just being able to stop breathing, Jordan knows the implicit meaning of the question, although impressed only asked pleasantries, but behind the sentence ‘ there is something that makes you not enjoy all ‘, but behind the sentence, Jordan believes that the man in front of him is discussing the past that he has done before.

“ As you said.. I cannot enjoy what is not my right, let alone... “

“ Ouh, what is it? “

“ Yes... “

“ Given the past, can you not think that the impact of the incident will affect the same bad people concerned? “ Panji said and only answered with silence.

“ At first I thought you would be aware, but unexpectedly, your awareness came when it was too late, even though I am still grateful you can return to being a Jordan is no longer a greedy Jordan, he said, but when seeing the suffering of the child of your good friend it. I am quite disappointed because you still have not returned their rights “.

At once, Jordan's eyes widened, hearing the Panji that mentioned a child from his friend made him surprised instead of dumbfounded, it turns out his opinion was not wrong all this time, about Bayu and Panji who know about the existence of the children of Rishad. He had been searching for their whereabouts, if not wrong, among the children of Risyad that Jordan knew, his eldest son named Fadil and himself did not remember enough to know the name of his sister.

“ Bang Panji know about Risyad's son?! Where are they bang? May I meet them, are they in this city?, or...no, are they in Indonesia or abroad? “ Ask Jordan

“ It seems like you are quite enthusiastic when talking about them, do you have any hidden purpose? Or..”

“ No bang, I mean.. no sir, I have no bad intentions, if I may. if I can meet them, I can meet them, I want to redeem all my mistakes to Risyad through their children, I am sure, after Risyad and Hani died, they must have lived without obstacles “

“ What rights do you have to meet them? Have you forgotten who made them that way? “

“ I know, I know that it was the biggest mistake I ever made, but even if it was too late, let me see them sir, I promise to return to all their rights, I swear... so... I beg you.. pls meet me same they”.

With a sincere look in his eyes, Jordan begged Panji to be reunited with the children of Rishad, enough of the suffering they had caused him, he said, not to mention the sense of regret that is getting stronger and bigger, despite living well, his mind is very contrary to his financial condition.

Feeling Ida with Jordan who had been begging, Panji saw Bayu for a moment before he saw the look of the eyes of the man in front of him, there was a great sense of regret and sadness contained in it, he said, so with a sigh, Panji who originally intended to drive out Jordan now does not expect to even tell Jordan who the child of Risyad and Hani really is.

“ We will tell you about the whereabouts and who the children of Risyad and Hani are, but before that, we prioritize Hasby and Vanesa who are currently still not met, I with Vanesa is your son will “ Ask Panji and answered by nod.

After deciding to prioritize the search for Hasby and Vanesa, Bayu who had been silent since then now invites Panji and Jordan to go to the scene, although the three are still awkward because they have not been together for a long time, but for the sake of purpose, they threw away their respective egos.

Not long after their departure, now came a woman who approached their seat before, looking astonished at not finding a single person, who was not there, the woman was Nafsah who had previously given permission to take drinking water, and it was clear that she was carrying a tray with three tea sticks there.

“ This is the om-om on where? Maen say aja... continues the fate of this tea how? “ Gumam Nafsah.

***

“ Vanesa... Here deh “ Say Hasby who is currently sitting on a rock.

Right after cleaning up and eating from the results of catching fish in the river, Hasby and Vanesa plan to surround this forest for a moment, although it is called a forest, but the area near the river and cliff is more precisely called a large land that there are many trees, the grass here is not too high, so it does not make it too difficult for Hasby and Vanesa to pass through it, the sunlight is well radiated even though the trees here are quite high.

“ Hasby... I can't ride “ Vanesa said a little puffed up.

“ Hehe... yes well, I forgot to guide you “.

“ Huh.... That's it, maen dulua aja, do not think if there are still people behind? “ Say Vanesa pout.

“ Yes, yes, sorry... Here, give me your hand let me pull “

As per instructions from Hasby, Vanesa reached out his hand and was immediately greeted by the man, slightly staggered by the move, but with Hasby's support, Vanesa quickly shook his body even though it had climbed on the big rock.

“ How? Good right? “ Say hasby sambi pointing forward.

As Vanesa's eyes followed Hasby's hand, he was quite amazed by what he saw at this time, standing on this huge rock allowed him to see the upper surface of the forest from the wider side. In front there, in addition to the expanse of pohn stretching, there is a cliff that flanks this forest, impressed like a swamp without water.

“ Wah... Hasby... the view is really good “ Vanesa said dazzled.

“ Yes, even though I grew up in the city, but I know a little about the forest, in addition to frequent camper, I also fit SMP to join scout activities “

“ Ouh... if not wrong, the malemnya there will be a bonfire event huh? “

“ How do you know? “ ask Hasby.

“ Yes... I also used to come, Only if the business of camping..I guess I only ever come once deh “.

“ Must not get permission from father-in-law “ Hasby said and allowed by a nod of Vanesa.

The conversation paused for a moment, with the two of them now busy looking at the surrounding scenery, each of them now thinking of something. From the side of Vanesa, he was grateful that Hasby who had been accompanying him was in a state of good, although sometimes through worry, through worry, but when you see the man can move unhindered make him calm and calm.

For Hasby, she tends to think about Vanesa keeping the fever going, even though they've been through it the last few days, but still, it's, what if there was something worse than yesterday, but Hasby removed all those bad thoughts, given that Vanesa was a strong woman, so she wasn't too worried about him, but the problem is of himself for now.

While still in mind, there was something passing through Hasby's mind, whether she could or didn't talk about this to Vanesa, certainly he had and never twice to express this remark to the woman, but sometimes hindered by circumstances and thoughts.

‘ Ok, Hasby.. let's start, if not now, maybe you will not get another chance to talk to him ‘ Inner Hasby talk to yourself

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