My Jutek Woman: My Pain Doesn't Need You to Know

86# Crying in silence

the return of Hasby and the others was entertained by Nafsah and Vanesa with many types of food, at that time they praised his food as delicious as usual, as usual, but after Nafsah said that all this food was cooked by Vanesa, Hasby was surprised not to play.

he did not expect that Vanesa would quickly learn to cook, it is hard to believe, but for someone who has felt it directly, he said, the taste of the food that Vanesa first made with the one he was currently eating was very much different.

right after eating and packing, Rafa took out a medical kit and infused Hasby. Apparently from his face, the color that was normal is now pale again, whether the effects of fatigue due to long travel, or other factors, Rafa began to provide first aid so that the possibility of unwanted things does not happen.

while Rafa, Firdan and Ardi sleep in the same room as Hasby, Savira is still the same as the previous days, she is currently sleeping in Nafsah's room. For Vanesa, no one hitchhiked in his room, perhaps because they were not very familiar yet, so they still awkwardly offered to hitchhike, especially if Hasby would allow the men to sleep in Vanesa's room?, yes, he is not, he is his wife.

Midnight....

Savira is currently on the balcony in front of Nafsah's room, it is difficult to close his eyes, he is still reminded of Hasby's remarks this afternoon, at first he thought Hasby was just nonsense, just nonsense, but after his eyes saw for themselves the existence of Vanesa in the man's house, Savira's heart seemed to be slashed by dozens of sharp daggers.

For a long time he loved the man in silence, but after he opened himself, fate did not side with Savira, because at that time Hasby had found his own soul mate.

always spinning in his head about the speech, the cry he had been holding was now spilled. Without a sound and sobs, Savira cried in silence giving off a lot of sadness. Accompanied by the noise of insects and the slow breeze, tonight the full moon shines watching Savira covering her face.

this is known by Nafsah, he waited for the right time to bring himself up. Pitying that one of his friends was heartbroken, Nafsah knew the taste even though he himself had never experienced it, but by taking a quick look, Nafsah knew how hurt Savira was, moreover, the instincts of a woman are always tied to each other.

seeing Savira a little quieter than before, Nafsah stepped up and stopped beside the woman to look up at the sky.

" Uh? You haven't slept Nafsah? ".

realizing Nafsah's whereabouts, Savira immediately wipes away her tears, not wanting to show her the weak side of herself, Savira behaves as if nothing has happened, but who can she lie to?, his face at that time was already telling honestly representing his heart.

" I'm sorry sis." said Nafsah looking at Savira.

" Hm?, about what? ".

" About sister Hasby ".

not immediately answering Nafsah, Savira puffed her head facing the Moon while smiling knots, she was a little surprised, for what Nafsah apologized to her? what's a little fun? or take away her guilt on her?.

" You don't have to apologize, Naf.. You're not wrong, are you? ". he said.

" But keep sis... all this time I'm the same brother Hasby has been secretin this from all of you, but it's not necessarily ".

" I understand, so you don't have to worry, but yes it's love, it hurts a bit too ". Savira said with a small laugh.

despite saying so, in Nafsah's heart, she felt hard to say these words, especially as she would ruin her brother's happiness when determined to help Savira out of her feelings, but for now, she felt like she was going to hurt her brother's happiness, it was only that reason that he could express to make Savira calm.

not in line with Nafsah's thoughts, Savira rejects his offer, even if it is only a contract marriage, but if as a friend, it would be nice if Savira would rather accept than deny the reality.

the woman is better off feeling heartbroken than having to be a domestic destroyer. It's okay that he lost his old love, it's okay that he lost the happiness he waited for a long time, but he can't lose a friend just because of his ego.

as he continued to speak, the tears that came out from the corner near the nose increased, followed by a hardened sobbing, Nafsah then offered her shoulder to lean on by Savira. Nafsah herself is lucky to have a friend like Savira, unselfish, even she can give up her love rather than her desire.

that night, Savira cried bitterly in the arms of Nafsah, though the patter of her tears drenched her cheeks, though the sobs sounded louder even though they were not heard coming inside, at this time, Savira let go of all grief under the moonlight.

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The next morning, Hasby and the others had already gathered at the dining table, the presence of Rafa and Savira this time adding to the atmosphere becoming more crowded. For Vanesa, this woman is good friends with them, although she rarely looks smiling and laughing, at least she can be invited to chat without any hesitation.

as for Savira, no matter what happened, this morning he looked more refreshed and cheerful, even though everyone except Nafsah did not know what happened last night, savira's eyes now appear slightly swollen and red.

as in previous days, Hasby, Nafsah and Vanesa and their three friends went to campus in the same car. While they were leaving for college, Rafa had already gone to the hospital in the city of C, seeing Hasby's stable condition, Rafa said the man no longer needed an infusion or breathing apparatus. Even so, Rafa advised Hasby so that he was not too tired in carrying out activities.

as time went by, the sun was already moving right overhead, at one o'clock in the afternoon after school, Hasby left for Jordan's company to start his new career.

There, he was warmly welcomed by some of his work, as the news of Hasby's arrival as a new employee was already known to everyone in the building, so there was no need to ask again, so there was no need to ask, the one who came at noon to the office was the one Jordan was talking about at the time.

not only good, Hasby considered that all employees here are also friendly and disciplined, seen from the way they talk, behave and act, and act, it looks like Jordan and Zihan were meticulous when they were doing the employee selection.

today Hasby does not do any work, just go around and get acquainted with other colleagues, so almost every corner of the building he goes to. The man who accompanied her around named Nathan, five years older with her, she worked in the finance department. He was assigned by Jordan because the old man was busy with his files.

not only close to Nathan, Hasby then got new friends such as Mr. Anton, Ms. Reni, Devin and Angel. They are the friendliest of the others, the people are not shy and cool to talk to.

it is natural that Hasby is warmly welcomed by employees here, in addition to being friendly, not a few women think Hasby is a very handsome person, especially one of them trying to get attention in any way, like just saying hello, getting acquainted even until someone asks for Hasby's phone number, this is indeed a bit awkward, but as a new employee, he can only nod in agreement.

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