
I am satisfied playing
on the beach, the clothes worn were wet because of sweat and beach water.
Andry and Fani decide to go home, even though Fani wants to
seeing the twilight on the beach, but this time he really had to miss. Her body
already shivering in the cold, the sand of the beach is also not a little attached
legged.
“ Where else?.” Ask
Andry while swiping his palms, trying to warm up
his body.
“ Hem not everywhere,
home aja.” Fani with lips shaking.
Andry was driving
relax, there is actually something that still holds up in his heart. Though purpose
he took Fani out today is to talk about his problems
who's going to Chicago in a few days. Andry was confused, though,
how he told Fani, how he convinced Fani to
stay faithful as long as he is not there.
Even
I'm not anywhere you can just leave me, just like that,
moreover, it is I who will be gone for a long time. Could be this is
the most indisputable reason when you do something wrong
later.
“ Hemm,” Andry
thumping, biting his lower lip slowly. Still hesitant to say something
which might make Fani shocked or even ilfee. Yes, even yesterday
Andry had already told me at a glance that he intended to continue
study in Chicago.
New
a few days ago I got her heart again, don't want ah. Later on
he became ilfeel, even turning back the same guy who kept me. No, no,
can't happen.
“ Why brother?.” Foreheads
Fani shriveled, looking at Andry who seemed to be in a fog.
“ What's the problem? Exists
something you want brother Andry to say? Yaudah said yes, I am ready to cry.”
Furthermore Fani who can already catch the signal from Andry's face.
“ Hem, Fan. Actually
there's something I want to say to you.” Andry said, his lips
looks pale and scared.
“ But you don't
angry yes.” Further. Anticipating Fani's anger later was something
what he should do now.
“ Hem.” Fani which
astonishment simply replied with deheman and a slight nod.
“ Appointment yes.”
“ Appointment?.” Andry continued
force Fani to promise, don't get angry, don't get angry.
“ What's up? Yes yes
I promise I won't be angry.” He said as he looked at Andry with a forehead
wrinkle perfect.
“ My dear, sorry yes. 4
the next day I will go to study in Chicago. Sorry I am the
you have to stretch the distance that far. But I had no other choice, I didn't
could abort. I hope you still stay with me after my decision.”
Andry pias's face, sad and pale. I don't know what expression he was trying to show, though,
it can be called an expression of sadness.
“ Sorry I yes.” Andry
looking at the unmoved Fani. Either shocked or sad, the girl was just
ducking while twisting his fingers.
“ You're angry huh?
Gapapa, you're mad at me. You slap me or hit me, gapapa. As long as you
don't change your mind to leave me again.” Andry's eyes looked glazed over, though,
his legs were weak as if he could no longer step on the gas pedal. The car's moving
slow down, slow down.
Andry turned the steering wheel,
stop the car on the side of the road. Than to not driving, though,
it's better for Andry to stop and talk about this from heart to heart.
“ Hufffhh.” Andry
sighing deeply, his car was already parked on the side of the road.
“ You are angry huh?.” Yakap
Andry looked at Fani with a sad face.
“ Please don't get mad,
don't stay with me yeah.” Andry grabs Fani's hand, stopping the girl
finger twisting.
Fani tried
stop the raging of his heart. Not because I was sad to hear Andry's words
just now, but confused as to what he should say. If Andry's problem would
going to Chicago was something that made him happy. Happiest
since he could put in two, there was no longer any need to clash with his inner being to
make the choice he wants most.
“ Hem, I'm not
angry with brother. Just sad, not yet
long time we decided to go back but brother Andry instead want to go.” Shit!
Fani is even more adept at lying, not just deceiving Andry even the most
bad is that he's deceiving himself.
Crazy one! This insolent mouth is even more shrewdly lying. Without orders, without orders. How dare he say something I didn't think of before. God, why is my mouth so insolent.
“ Sorry I am Fan.
I promise every semester break I'll come home to see you, I promise.”
Andry kissed the back of Fani's hand many times, pleading for the girl who
this beloved of her no longer left her just because of distance apart.
“ Brother, don't gini
dongs. I'm sorry, I'm just sad. But I can't be angry either, because
it's all Andry's decision, it's the best for Andry's brother, for the sake of time
in front of Brother Andry.” Fani tries to calm Andry down. Brushed Andry's head
slowly. Not with compassion, but with a burden of mind.
“ Promise yes you do not
angrier. If possible I hope you who come after me, continue
study in the same place as me.” Andry came up with an idea, a great idea
for Andry but a bad idea for Fani.
“ Oh yes, I promise
next year I'll come back and bring my parents to bed for you. Promised
me, next year I will marry you.” He said excitedly, face
his joints were mixed with happiness.
Duarr! Fani's heart was as
bombarded repeatedly. Andry's idea is to ask himself to follow
Chicago alone made him shake his head. How could he be, Andry
and Endi will live in the same place. The one who has come will only
it becomes a problem, a big problem.
Not missing the shock of the one, Andry instead bombarded Fani once again. Whahuh?
Will you propose and marry him next year? Wasn't it just yesterday
a joke? Andry really is.
Oh jesus. Why my life is in so much trouble. The thing is to make a choice between the two of them I can't, now Andry instead says he wants to marry. Even I haven't had time to say, I haven't told you exactly what I want. Why so many problems.
“ Ha? Married year
up front? is this serious, brother Andry? Don't be kidding dong.” Fani said. Still
I wish everything Andry said was just a joke.
“ Yes, next year. Wh why?
You don't want to huh? you don't like it?.” Andry Sahut. His face changed again
be wistful.
“ Uh isn't it
refused, Just surprised why Andry was in such a hurry to marry her.
“ You don't want? Sorry
yes, maybe I am the one who makes it, I am the one who hopes. I decided
alone, without even asking you who I'm going to marry. Though I
don't know if you're willing to live with me or not, uh I've done it
want to marry.” He said softly, increasingly making Fani feel bad.
“ Uh not a brother, is it
that means.” Fani still shakes her head, that's not what I mean
heys.
“ Huffhh sorry yes.
Shouldn't I ask first, Fan you want me to take it seriously? You are not willing
live with me, you are willing not to be the mother of my children.” Andry smiled, though,
yes, although forced. Behind her smile was a sad one she was hiding.
“ Sorry brother, not that
meaning.” Fani felt more guilty.
“ Gapapa Kok Fan, Vid,
I was actually wrong. We are in a relationship, there are many
shortcomings, still have to know more deeply. But I even thought about it
future, yes probably because of feelings.” Andry held the steering wheel again.
Ready to continue the journey.
Andry returned
his car's on the road, since his car drove Andry no longer speaks a word
whatever. Only occasionally could the sound of him taking a deep breath, perhaps
trying to hide his sadness and sadness. While next door, Fani
I can only stare at the streets. In his heart was mixed
guilty, sad and upset. I don't know why some days have become days
heavy on himself. Too many problems piled up on his head. Especially
hearing Andry's words earlier, Fani felt guilty half to death.
I don't mean to refuse, I really want to. Means you really love me, not just love, playfully. I just feel unworthy, especially now that I've planned to date two men at once. Look how bad I am. I can't even be loyal to one person, look how bad I am. If I only had you, I would be happy to lose my single life soon.
“ Hem, when Brother Andry
going to leave?.” Fani ventured to ask the man who looked
glumly since then, trying to break the tension in this car.
“ Saturday, 1pm.”
Andry said without taking his eyes off the streets.
“ Oh that, I'm coming
anterin kak Andry kebandara ya.” Fani said nervously. Talk to Andry who
being not good his mood turned out to be quite creepy as well huh.
“ If you are busy
mending do not need to deh, besides not important is also.” Keto. Talk with
unusual tone plus no want to stare at the interlocutor, can already
guess if Andry is currently angry.
Fani chuckles inside
his heart, he had not seen Andry so angry for a long time. Funny yeah. Fanny
thinking of ways how to get Andry back as usual, no longer sniffling
and cynical.
Hahahaha men again crave more handsome huh. Hey, you usually tease me, what
should I tease you now? Aha well laa will gladly tempt you.
“ Aaa darling, dong already
don't sulk.” Fani fiddled and hugged Andry's left arm. The only
the way that he thinks will succeed in destroying the man next to him
these.
“ I don't reject you
I'm just surprised. Why do you suddenly want a young marriage. I
thought you were just kidding yesterday, even now I still haven't
fully trust.” Fani continued getting spoiled, hugging Andry's arm increasingly
tightly.
“ You really want
marry me?.” Ask Fani to convince herself.
“ You really, baby? Inreal
want to marry me who is not this much?.” Ask Fani again, asking
Andry convinced himself.
“ Why talk
anyhow? I like to joke about other problems, but if it's serious.
Not kidding at all. From yesterday I told you I wanted to marry you today
I also said one more time. But you still can't believe it, still think about it
joking aja.” Andry answered, not taking his eyes off the streets
which is quite crowded.
“ Yes sorry, I am
still can't believe it. Still feeling the dream. Very young for marriage, not yet
up to 20 years instead.” Fani wrapped her hand around Andry's neck. Only
hugging the arm was not able to persuade Andry.
“ I want, want
so even.” Further. Again he lied. Though he hasn't
able to think about marriage.
“ Really? Seriously you
want?.” Andry instantly became carefree, his face back in bloody red. Smile
the sweetness is broken, staring at Fani who is embracing her affectionate self.
“ Appointment? Really yes
you want.” Further. I had to ask him many times to convince him
myself and Fani. Let the answer given by Fani really from
his heart, not just to make himself happy.
“ Yes dear.” Answer
Fani with a smile.
“ Yaaassshhh.” Yells out
Andry was excited, happiness emanating from his face. Finally Fani accepted
also his good intentions.
“ Gapapa if we
should Idr first? Not long, promise. One year, and then later, brother
marry me I promise I'll take you with me.” He believes Fani.
“ You want to
committed, you're fine here, I'm fine there. You're loyal here, man,
I'm loyal there too.” Andry clasped Fani's right hand. Then
guiding that soft hand touched his chest, as if asking Fani to feel
his heart beat was irregular, too happy.
“ Yes brother, I will
faithful here, will keep our commitment until later brother Andry comes home.” Yakap
Fani was straightforward, all the words that came out of her mouth were as if they were true now
Fani is really shrewd in his tongue-tinning.
“ Oh yes how? Ye
broke up with a guy, right?.”
The duarrr! Again Fani
being bombarded by questions that he doesn't yet have answers to. Instantaneous heart
Fani stopped beating, her fear grew. Who would have thought if Andry
still bringing up the matter. He promised he would decide
relationship with Endi, but in fact he has not been able to, not yet able to.
God, it feels like my body has been blown to pieces by being bombarded so many times. How many more lies should I tell? Can I turn the clock? I want to avoid the problems I make myself. You idiot, I'm stupid, you stupid fool. Inner Fani shouted out loudly.
“ Hemm, u.uu.
brother.” Said Fani stammered, her lips bitten strongly. Wanted to cry roaring
I guess why everything is so messed up.
“ Good. Finally
you're just mine a.” Andry said as he chuckled. Unquestioningly
over and over again, today she trusted Fani so much. maybe because of too much
happy with Fani's statement that she is willing to marry.
“ Hehehehe.” Fani is coming
laughingly. Though in his heart grimaced crying, swearing
own stupidity.
Just die you Fani, you are no longer worthy to live on this earth.