
With the body inundated Andry down the streets. The roadside foliage greeted this hapless man. The sun has just risen, there are still a dozen more hours for him to spin and circle the city, perhaps meeting Fani accidentally. May this search end soon, hope in his head.
“ Let's be disappointed because of searching, rather than lost self-esteem because of high ego. Hi no no, I'm an expensive man can not be exchanged like goods.” Andry walked while his mouth said we were still cursing Sophia and all her impossible desires.
“ Actually lies the problem just because I don't love you, don't even love no likes. Maybe if I liked you too, it would all be nice for both of us. Let's just say I have a little taste of like, at least there's a seed that will develop. But this is not, not at all.” Andry continued to grumble in his heart. Disappointment also enveloped his head.
“ Early talk with you I feel that my happiness will arrive, already in sight. But the end of your talk turns out there is content, havoc.” His mind then shuddered his shoulders.
Andry looked around, only seemed to be in the fog of vehicles on the road, some street vendors also decorate the shoulder of the street. Here the seeker of love, there the seeker of rupiah. Andry kicked the bottles lying on the sidewalk, the act of humans with hands that do not understand the rules, littering. Andry picked up some trash and then put it in the trash can that had been provided, although sincerely doing but his lips still grumbled not because of it. From the moment he woke up to this moment his mouth was only used to grumble in annoyance.
“ This is human-human does not make sense. Schooled for years read along the nose pinocchio doang can not. ‘ Remove garbage in place’, writing time so doang can not read anyway, wonder.” Andry picked up the trash then put it in the provided barrel.
“ Huffhhh patient-patient.” Andry stroked his chest and took a deep breath. I don't know what made it
really be a good grouch today, whether because of upset with the incident this morning or because there is something else.
“ Duh hot-hot like this so remember Fani. Ah so want to play beach while eating ice cream. Oh my god, until when should I be a trailblazer. I'm like a god seeker.” Inner Andry. The heat that stung his body as if opening up old memories, dismantling happy memories.
Opening up old memories in the middle of hard like sowing acid in the wound. There is only pain, sadness. Huh. If you know this complicated situation, I would not have saved memory, better to forget every time it happened. It's my own fault, sculpting memories so that I can remember all the time, eh pas I remember now that there only add to the wound.
Andry's feelings are increasingly not careless, sad, disappointed and hurt mixed into a unity that is difficult to separate. Whether the sense of which he should correct, all is continuous. Andry stopped at a minimarket, bought some ice cream while enjoying under the bench of the city park. The cool air and the heat of the morning sun add to the delicious ice cream that decays the mouth. Unmitigated Andry bought 5 ice cream with different flavors, all the ice cream that Fani often bought.
“ It is only fitting that women like ice cream, it turns out this is how it feels. I've never eaten this much, usually nyomot-nyomot have my cousin doang.” Andry kept licking the chocolate ice cream in his hand.
“ I know why women if they are angry and upset like to ask for ice cream. Because in addition to the good taste it turns out the cold is also able to eliminate the taste that is not supposed to. Like me for example.” Andry bites out the ice cream that looks thin and sticks to the stick. Then open the other one, continue to eat until no rest.
Andry went back on an actual journey without a destination. There is only a big goal, which is to find the address where Fani lives, or just think of meeting Fani on the street. This man without a definite series of plans continues down the streets, today is truly walking aimlessly. Walking down the shoulder of the road, stopping the snack, continued the road, sitting on the street bench, ah just like that until the afternoon, really human aimless.
“ From morning to evening I walk, but it is not clear where to go. It's true that I'm human nomen lep.” Andry sipped water from the bottle in his hand. Staring at the crowded streets, how many days he had not struggled with the traffic jam of the city. Miss grumbling, berating other riders.
“ It turns out that the legs that run nonstop are nothing more than a heart that keeps looking, hoping for the uncertain.” Andry. Both of his hands were used to grab his hair that had been tangled.
“ Oh god what is this thing called karma? I approached him with crazy intentions, then he left the human tub without sin.” Andry's two hands increasingly gripped the hairs that began to lengthen.
“ Sorry I'm Fan. I'm sorry god.” His regret was getting yawning over his head, wanting to curse him.
**
The camp is over, everyone is getting ready to go home. The purpose of this event has been achieved, fun, learning to social attitudes have been obtained even in this short time.
“ Fan, know not if our kating will make a massive party. They will make a party to celebrate graduation and he said thanks to some of the hits students received at prestigious universities.” Irma tugged at Fani's sleeves.
“ Hem.” Fani simply replied with deheman without taking his eyes off the pile of items he was trying to stack as neatly as possible.
“ Dih's. This is Fan. And you know if the main sponsor of this party is brother Endrico, the party will also be pawned at his home.” Irma is still trying to grab Fani's attention from the pile of goods that are not how much.
“ So why anyway? Yaudah justin they had fun, gathering at the party. Maybe this is their form of thanksgiving, different people different characters, different regions different ways of life.” Ketus Fani to Irma. To him this information was completely unimportant to him, unfavorable and not detrimental.
“ Lo know not,,” Haven't had time Irma finish her speech, Fani has interrupted. It made Irma stop talking.
“ Do not know and do not want to know. This is their business, so let it be. If you also want to pass graduation we also make a celebration party.” Fani interrupted Irma. No longer want to hear anything that is not important to him.
“ Next time you can just tell me the information that is important to me, which is profitable, do not harm.” Continue while putting things in the bag with a little rough. A sign she was completely reluctant to hear the continuation of this unimportant news.
“ But Fan,,” Irma keeps trying to convey what she wants to convey. But again Fani interrupted, repeated the same sentence and still did not want to hear the continuation.
“ No buts again Ir. I've been mending all your stuff, soon we'll be home and I can't wait to say hello to my soft bed and have sex with her. Ah I can feel how cold the mattress is after a long time untouched.” Fani stretched her muscles, her hands were pulled up and her eyes were closed. Imagine how beautiful the bed that has been a few days not touched.
“ Fan, you don't want this?.” Irma spoke in a flat voice. Not only the voice, but the mimic of his face also went flat, such as annoyed and unhappy.
“ Not Ir. We'll discuss the others yes. For example, when we go home, where are we going? Or is it a weekend we're messing around? It's more fun than discussing a party belonging to someone else Ir.” Fani smiled wily. His gaze had since looked at the mimic Irma's face that seemed less happy, not even happy with his words.
Irma answered nothing. Just looked at Fani and then let out a long sigh. Grabbing the backpack containing her belongings and immediately leaving Fani in the tent.
“ Uh Ir, Where's Fani?.” Endrico asked when he saw Irma with a grim face and a rucksack that was carried furious.
“ Tuh inside.” Dirty then passed leaving Endrico confused with Irma's indifferent attitude.
My feeling is nothing. Why does he judge that, I think I am tempted .
“ Fan, Fani.” Shouted Endrico from outside the tent owned by Fani and Irma. Although this pervert there is still manners, not entirely arbitrary.
“ Yes.” Sahut Fani from inside the tent, a few moments later appeared a figure that spoke.
“ Are you ready? Chivy. The tent will be machined with other children, here the goods I help bawain.” Endrico grabs Fani's pink backpack. Different from before, the backpack looked more contained, full. I don't know what Fani brought in it, it became bigger and heavier.
“ Uh no need brother, I bring my own aja.” Fani recaptured the backpack that Endrico had been carrying, but Endrico could not carry it.
“ Gak. You can't bring heavy things, let me just you just shut up and just follow.” He then sped up the steps towards the bus they were riding on.
If you like to lift things why not bring all the other belongings. Or why don't you just be a college student?.
All was ready, the tents were cleared and some participants were also relaxed in their seats. The sun was almost as high as the head, they had to leave immediately and arrive just at the planned time. The journey takes almost 3 hours, long enough but not boring. Since the bus wheels were turning, Irma and Fani had not spoken a word. Just keep quiet and look at the side even though they are sitting side by side.
“ Fan, later tonight I pick up ya.” Endrico patted Fani's shoulder to disperse the daydream that had gone out of nowhere.
“ Uh. Why sis? Where to?.” Fani was startled and turned to look at Endrico who was sitting right behind her.
“ There are. I want to take you somewhere else no one wants me to talk to you.” Endrico pulled his lip line. Smiling at the girl in front of him.
Fani was silent for a moment. His brain was spinning in such a way, as usual he was guessing what his interlocutor was going to say. Deg. His heart started beating irregularly when a possibility crossed his mind.
Is it possible that he will express my same feelings? Uh this is I'm really her target? What am I supposed to do? What I should do. It turns out I ran not to the end of the world, yes, this is proof stepped on him.
“ Fan? How's it? Can you?.” Endrico returns to disperse Fani's daydreams.
“ Uh, yes sis. I'll tell you later. If you are not tired, brother.” Fani quibbled, subtly rejecting the invitation of the man she labeled as playboy.
“ Okay.” Answer Endrico briefly.
**
Andry is still not moving, still sitting in the middle of the city minimarket. Staring at the sun's stinging rays had already shed his spirit. Inconsistent, goalless, unclear steps. That's what the author is trying to describe from the figure of Andry. Sometimes the spirit is burning, sometimes the hope disappears far away.
“ Huh hot, home ajadeh. Want to have a holiday first today, already tired not ketulungan.” Andry throws a used bottle right into the trash can. Then continue the journey, not chasing the destination but return home to the inn and continue the dream that had hung this morning.
“ If tomorrow still haven't met also Fani, mending me behind ajadeh. Maybe not fate, just a time.” Andry lowered his lips slowly. Feeling completely lost hope, the only way is to stop and continue the life as it deserves.
“ Huffhh sorry Fan I have to give up. Maybe our destiny is different, you east I west, until anytime also will not turn around and end meet.” Andry was getting less and more powerless to hold back his grief. A few seconds hold your breath and exhale slowly, not to cry in the middle of the road.
The figure that came with a fighting spirit, confident and burning right now became weak helpless, defeated and gave up. But not necessarily, there is still tomorrow to decide his decision. Surrender and lose or continue despite the time taken.
“ Refreshing first. Play with the mall so as not to get bored. Instead of fusing with the bed, the edges are mellow and upset. Ah man what am I.” Andry turned around and changed his route. Now go to the nearest mall. Choose to keep walking in the hot sun rather than riding a motorcycle taxi that has offered several times.
“ Buy souvenirs for mother and others deh. Even if I come home disappointed but people at home should still see me as a happy Andry.” His inner. He who is trapped in the bigotry of love slowly can find a bright spot, he thought it had begun to be airy.
“ Turns out fused with Fani is only a trace of happiness, which is infinite in the family. Even if I get bored and upset sometimes.” His words claimed to be wrong, khilaf because blind by love.
All you offer is a trace of happiness, but to get you hit me with a lump of difficulty. I was afraid, the dark could not see. It turns out that there is another happiness that is much more promising, without difficulty without pain.