
“ And lo why? Lo
fall in love at first sight with that guy?.” Irma was impatiently waiting
answer from Fani.
“ And I accidentally
hit a handsome guy, and it turned out to be Andry, the guy I've been avoiding time for
hospitalized. Uh even met at the place to eat.” Fani breathed
coarse. It was as if he was upset by what happened to him.
“ Continue? Continue?.” Ask
Irma. His voice seemed happy and impatiently looking forward to the continuation of the story
her best friend.
“ I want anyway
avoid, uh but I can't. My legs sprained and I forced Andry to make
the meal. He keeps me going while the stories are exchanging news. Huffhhhh.” Fanny
taking a deep breath, his face was bent miserably when he remembered Andry who was
told struggle.
“ From there also me
know the real truth. Turns out I was wrong all this time Ir, I was rash
in making a decision. I'm childish. You're right, I should have found out
the truth used to be, ask for an explanation from Andry, not even secretly decide
one-sided relationship. At first I didn't believe Andry, I just felt it was just
nonsense to keep the facts. His reasons for avoiding his mistakes,
but it turns out everything is right. He really took me to Pontianak, until
aweek. But it's a pity he didn't see me at all.” Fani stopped talking, though,
he's been talking too much. His breath was as stuffy as a person who had just
running for miles meters.
“ Huffhhh Fan, right
at that time I said the same. You better ask Andry for an explanation, but you
even the same thing with Endi who is beside you. It's actually natural, anyway,
your position will be again heartbroken while Endi is always there for you. He also
not counting attention and care, it is also natural that you are interested
same Endi, it is only natural that you are comfortable with Endi. It's humanized.” Irma attractive
long breath, there was a slight annoyance in his heart. He had already been
once advised Fani, but Fani was reluctant to listen.
“ Yes Ir, I regret
no suggestions from lo.” He said full of guilt.
“ Keep how
the continuation? Is he angry with you? Or you are angry with him?.” Ask Irma
who are still curious about this side-by-side love story.
“ She's still the same Ir,
it's the same as Andry I used to know. I swear in my heart
guilty already makes him tormented just for the sake of finding a certainty.”
Fani's voice began to be abnormal, as if she was about to cry.
“ And he's still the same,
still love me.” Finally Fani's cry broke out, after quite a while of holding back
but it's not stalled anymore.
“ Hey Fan, why
cry anyway? Relax, I don't know what makes you cry. Lo calm down
used to dong.” Irma tries to calm Fani down, hoping that her best friend will continue
this hanging story.
“ Several times I
take a walk with Andry. We come to places that
historic, a place full of memories for both of us. It was like Andry on purpose
wanting to repeat the old story, he piled up his love while I
trying to dig up the love I have accumulated with tears.” Fani
sniffle.
“ Honestly I'm still in love
same Andry, even without the need for him to do anything. It's just because of anger
I said over and over again in the letter if I no longer loved her. Ir
do you know my biggest mistake right now? I accept Andry's call to
reciprocate. I can no longer hold back, I love her Ir.” Fani is getting
crying, hysterical. His cries filled the silent house
this depopulated.
“ Fan, why do you cry
hell. This is not a mistake, this is a natural name. What is wrong with both men
the separated then decided to go back to making love?.” Irma with
sage, without remembering there is one strangle that causes problems.
“ But Ir, you know
I just got to be with Endi. How many months. I have to say the same
Endi's? I don't have the heart. Should I repeat the same mistake? Decides
relationship for no apparent reason, then piled up regret.”
“ God. Fan, I
just remembered. This is the biggest problem in your life. Actually if I
to be honest, these two men are victims of you who do not have
stance. You pull two men between you, at first you feel like a victim
from a cruel romance, when in fact they are both victims
verily.” Irma did not hesitate to directly blame Fani when
reminded of Endi. His taste of cassation instantly turned furious, wrong
who wouldn't listen to that time.
“ Lo itself that traps you in trouble,
you should have shunned me at that time. If you manage to hold back from
endrico's death appeal at that time, at least you do not need to face the situation
like these. You must be much happier when you rediscover your love
it has disappeared far away. But look now, even the universe is reluctant to help,
it's pure fault lo own.” Irma was increasingly unable to hold back. All
annoyed that he had been quiet with straightforwardness he expressed, without him realizing
that he made Fani more and more cornered.
“ I can't help
anything Fan. You should start now thinking well what you will do
lakain next. There should be no fourth victim and so on. I
hope you can make wiser decisions without harming yourself and
anyone.” Irma took a deep breath, no longer knowing what to say
whatt. Even the stock of his anger had been blown away.
“ Ir, why you even
follow angry anyway. Please help me dong, how should I?.” Fani begged
Irma helped him to solve this complex problem.
“ Fan, I can't
help lo. Not because I don't want to, just because I don't know what to help.
It's a matter of your heart, it's a lo.” romance Irma tried to refuse. No
there was something wrong that he said, indeed he did not have a role in
fani's relationship has been going on all along. Even if Irma is her true friend, Irma
still can not interfere with his heart problems.
Instantly
turned into silence, no one spoke. Still was before
fani's voice was sobbing, but now there was absolutely nothing.
Silence as a grave. It was as if the two were thinking. Not long enough
there's talk, maybe almost 5 minutes. Until suddenly Fani opened her voice, and,
saying something that made Irma boil her anger.
“ Ir, what if
I wear both. Stay in touch as always.” Fani said with
feisty.
“ Ha? Lo put up meaning
two?.” Irma screamed in surprise.
“ Yes, I wear
both.” Fani said casually without thinking about her words.
“ CRAZY YES LO! WANT
KAYAK LO'S. ARRGGHHH.” Irma screamed in anger then without warning
disconnect the phone directly. The volume of his voice has run out. Utterance
That crazy Fani really made his blood boil. I want to feel hit
chief Fani many times so that he is aware of his stupidity. Intention wants
solving problems, instead of solving problems, they add up
the problem.
**
Fani sits down
looking at the grandmother who was lying weakly in the hospital bed. Just look at her
who was there, his mind had already reached the other side of the world. Her eyes
mutely, even blinking seemed reluctant. There are only two in his head
the man who is currently his lover. Greedy indeed. But yes it can't
denied, because they like both and are reluctant to lose both
make Fani desperate to do all this.
“ What I just keep going
huh uh? I'm dating both, and no one knows anything but Irma. Not a chance
also he deliberately contact Andry or Endi just to complain about the
like this.” Inner Fani had started to not know herself.
“ Enti is in Chicago
now, Andry is also soon to fly to Chicago. Rarities
meet, and even difficult later. There is no time for them to possess
me, there's no time to check and recheck my phone. Safe dong yaa.” Further
the more you don't know yourself. As if there was no other way but to
in a relationship with these two men, Fani really turns into a
humans are greedy for the love and affection of men.
“ Uh no, can't.
This can't happen. I can't be this crazy woman. Nope,
no.” Fani awakens from her crazy thoughts, her head shakes quickly resisting
that crazy thought.
“ Arghhh.” Grunts
snarling, then hurriedly stepped towards the bathroom.
“ Could be me
crazy thinking like this.” he said while washing his face.
“ Just Worth Irma
cursed me earlier. Turns out my mind is crazy, worth reviling maki.” Fanny
taking a deep breath, stroking his face until it felt quite calm.
“ Anyway I have to choose
one of them, there is no such thing as two pairs. Someways
the way I have to find a way out of the problems I have made myself
this.” Fani clenched her hands, encouraging herself to find soon
solution to this complex problem.
Fani walked
shoveling towards the patient's room, his lethargic and gloomy face was already unable to
denied again, everyone who saw it would have known if he was
sad and upset. Fani grabs her phone, wants to take Andry out and
remove her self-imposed.
“ Mending out ajadeh
same Andry, count-count nenangin mind.” His inner. Fani looking for contact
Andry, stared at the screen of his phone for a long time. Want to calm the heart and mind, and,
but Fani forgets that the person she's going to take out is one of the causes
fani's mind is broken.
“ Arghhh why stupid
here is. If I take Andry out, there's not a calm mind,
even more burden, the more mumet, sumpek.” His grunts to himself.
“ Not yet if later
he asked about Endi. I promise I will break up Endi as soon as possible,
for her. Ahhhh mending I die instead of having to face my own stupidity
this.” Fani hit her head in annoyance. Regretting his thoughts that are no longer
clear again.
**
“ Haaaaaahhh wants
it feels like marrying Fani right now, then freely and powerfully I can
take him away together. Pursue the ideals together with love. It must be me
the spirit of college every day. Go take the miss, go home to the antidote
longs. Stay one-stop, free dating, no bans. Ah beautiful
fantasize.” Andry lay flat on the bed with both arms outstretched.
His eyes were closed imagining everything he said.
“ Hahahahah delusional
aja first.” His words then chuckled in amusement after realizing his ridiculousness
by oneself.
“ If Only Fani
my age, I must have begged seduce him to come with me.
Take the same field at the same university. So you can meet each
day, no need to miss anymore. Again, again, the beauty of fantasizing.” Andry
still chuckling at his own words. I don't know why today was day-dreaming
it was the most fun thing for him. In addition to happiness
fictionally, he could also treat the mess of his heart since yesterday.
“ Imagining more
it's more fun than facing the reality of the moment, if in the fantasy world it's not
there is such a thing as goodbye, but in the real world? Ah even farewell
it's in front of the eyes. Huffhhhh.”
Andry snorted and rose from his sleep. Grabbing a phone that has not been
he touched. Remembering her lover whom she hasn't called since last night.
“ Phone or invite
meet huh? Kangen too. But if you continue to meet, Fani will feel
lost and sad when I stay. Hmm but if not
see ya miss.” Inner raging.
“ Haih why the hell move forward
wrong backward wrong.” Mumbled annoyed.
It's been a while Andry
struggling with her own thoughts, she finally decided to call and
invite Fani to play to the beach. Beach again? ahh it's like there's no
just somewhere else in the world. Andry grabbed his phone, rushed to call
this beloved heart that has been missed so much.
“ Hello dear,
where?.” Ask Andry when the phone is connected, no longer trite. Though
maybe Fani is waiting for an explanation and the reason why Andry is new
contacted him this afternoon.
“ Where are you? Again
busy no?.” Ask Andry again, even Fani has not had time to answer his question
the first.
“ This again at home
it hurts, really. Why sis?.” Fani from across there.
“ Hem okay I picked up
you yeah. We have lunch all I want to invite you to joke bentar.” said
Andry, without waiting for Fani's approval, hung up the phone and left
to pick up the lover of hearts.
“ Uh brother,” Fani
calling repeatedly, his intention wanted to refuse but had not had time to refute
the phone was turned off by Andry.
Huffhh, really that's a guy. Just me
think of him, uh he's straight on the phone. This inner contact is what the intention of the universe is
let me be more afraid of guilt.