My Fiancee Is The One Who Has Tainted Me

Chapter 42. Hope Without Hope.

As a father, Maik is really in a very difficult position. He is eager to follow Bela to see the situation of his daughter, whose existence has been kept secret by Bela and her family. But on the other hand, he could not run away from his responsibilities towards the woman who was now his fiancee. Maik had to let Bela go on her own. Although he could not bear to see Bela, who was so devastated by hearing the news of their daughter.

"I'll go first. Tonight I will take care of all the needs, for your departure to Indonesia. I'll be back in a minute when it's all done." Said Maik but not answered by Bela at all. Finally Maik immediately walked away. Although he felt a little disappointed towards Bela, who did not care about him at all.

Bela just fell silent on the bed, while putting her clothes into the suitcase. The dam of tears that had filled her eyelids, signified how devastated she felt. When she found out that Maik would not come with her. But he also could not speak. After realizing their status at that time.

"Enjel, I am both Mom and Dad to you. At any time, your biological father will remain a secret. Forgive me for not being able to tell you who the man, who has presented you in this world. Because now he already has a new life with another woman, and the future child of that woman." Bela spoke alone in her room, with tears in her eyes.

Bela who does not know anything about the pregnancy test kit, which Maik bought at the pharmacy earlier, still think that the pregnant one at that time, still think, the woman who was with Maik on campus that afternoon. She becomes more convinced by her wrong thoughts, after knowing the status of Maik and the woman he is with.

How sad Bela was at that moment. Hope without hope, and wait without certainty. But he still tried hard for the sake of his baby who was dying. Although hope has been destroyed with a status that is no longer promising, Bela still struggles as a mother and father, for her daughter who never knew about Maik.

While Maik who was already in one of the places with Endru, was taking care of all the files for Bela's departure later in the morning. Actually it's not that easy to get all the files for Bela's departure. Especially in the middle of the night like that. But with the money he had, Maik easily got what he wanted, in just a few hours.

At exactly 4:00 in the morning, Bela who looked so fragile was sitting on her bed, with a gaze so empty. From the radiance of his eyes, there was a huge burden in his mind. But all that he can only overflow, with clear details that always decorate his beautiful eyeballs.

Bela, who has experienced severe pain, prefers to be silent when in such a difficult situation. Because according to him, words can not necessarily reduce the burden in his life. While staring at the photo of Enjel on the screen of his phone, Bela again said words alone while staring at the picture of his daughter.

"Darling, even though your life was destined to be a child without a father, I can still make you happy, with all my love and affection for you, I'm sure you won't feel lonely. Do not be discouraged. There is still your mother who will always be faithful to accompany you whenever." Bela said with a faltering voice, as tears unceasingly broke from her beautiful eyelids.

Without Bela knowing, what he said was heard by Maik who was behind the door of his room. Hearing Bela's words accompanied by a cry that was so sad, making the stiff man immediately sculpted. From the look on Maik's face, he was so devastated to hear what Bela had just said. With a look of guilt, Maik began to wonder in his heart.

"What should I do? I have to take responsibility for my daughter's current situation. Whatever happens, I have to follow what Bela wants. For the good of my daughter."

Maik who was so confused in making a decision, immediately thought to ask Bela's opinion. And he was determined to do whatever Bela said. As long as it's for the good of her little daughter. After thinking about what he should do. Maik knocked on the door without making a sound.

tock..tok...

"Who...?" Bela's voice from inside the room, which sounded so raucous.

"Just enter! Not in the lock." Connect Bela.

After opening the door, Maik immediately looked at Bela who was only silent on her bed. With a slow step, Maik approached the bed and asked.

"Are you okay?" Ask Maik with a attentive look.

"I'm doing fine. I just want to see Enjel soon." Bela replied lying with a very forced smile.

To cover up the state of his heart that is being denied because of the situation. Bela tried to smile even though her heart whimpered. The feeling that was in his heart, he had to hide with great difficulty. Because he realized that the man in front of him was no longer the man he used to love very much.

"Why don't you sleep? Aren't you sleepy?" Ask Maik, who made Bela's heart even more sad.

Maik's attitude was suddenly gentle and attentive. Makes Bela even sadder to remember her past, which was so bitterly pregnant without a husband. But he didn't want that sense of getting back in control of him. Because all he wanted to think about back then was Enjel. Not the story of his past.

"I'll sleep on the plane. Is everything done?" Ask Bela without looking at Maik.

"It has. But I want to ask you one thing." Said Maik while continuing to look at Bela.

"Are you ready to go alone? Or do you want to go with me?" Ask Maik with a look of finding out.

"I'll go alone. After all, Enjel never knew about you. And I also don't want to confuse him, because of your presence with his current state." Bela said that made Maik immediately speechless.

"Yes already. Then I'll take you to the airport tomorrow morning." Said Maik with an uninspired look.

Hearing Bela's reply, Maik was immediately disappointed to feel so insignificant as a Father. But he also did not want to make Enjel confused by his presence, as Bela said. In addition, Maik also does not want to disappoint his parents, who have chosen to pendaping life for him.