Mommy's Husband

NEVER AT THE PRICE

For 1 month, I've been learning to carry my son. It's so hard to be scared because it's so fussy that the baby, she'd rather be in her grandmother's cradle than me. I've tried but my mother slalu emotions because I can not carry the baby, but being a first time mother must be really painstaking as well as her ngajarin.

My husband was complaining, he wanted us to be together like any other household. Whether he pretends to be nice or really what he is, my husband wants me to go with him to accompany his days and want to hang out with his wife and children.

"neng, we really want to gather with children let alone brother will work far away, see if my brother is happy when he comes home from work"

I was confused, sad, looking at him when we were not in line. I just wanted to stay at my house, my husband when given the chance he didn't appreciate, because of the disappointment he gave me. All this time, I've been pretty patient with how he's been doing to me.

Whether God tested my patience and I was emotionally unstoppable, I was angry with my mother because every day she nagged as if I was unable to listen to her babble every day. Mother always brings up until I am hurt, if I disobey the same parents from a long time ago I will not be a submissive child.

"so the old man is not easy, look out for nantu if I am old in living emang yang yang so good old man, kayak now nyuci blood, nyuci B.A.B his Rudi samain later"

As if I am a child who does not know in utung, all this time I have been able to be proud of parents, work for 5 years have been able to buy things at home. I can't make my own home, but I've done my best to make my parents happy and proud of me.

"any mother, can not learn alone, can not do anything at home. Mending a good working mom gets money than taking care of a baby"

Mother's tirakin heart scorn, but she used to love me very much. Wherever I went, since she was pregnant she was slalu temenin. At birth she revealed everything I felt was really painful.

I can't stand the feeling every day my mother is emotional, then I lock the door, I call my husband, I tell him as I cry I want to go home to situbondo. Maybe from here I was given the test of God, being a wife and mother. Around 12:00 pm my husband came to pick me up, I was ready for clothes to be brought there. Open the door I keep going out the house without saying goodbye, I've ambitions....

"nyo'on saporana seraje, adek mik andik sala. gule apamitanna"

"polana la seraje, se let mellet burikna say no ka reng tuana"

Our language is madura, bondowoso is indeed java but because here most local madura so we speak every day madura.

Not nyampek 1 hour we arrived, I still cry it still feels in the chest. Many neighbors there gather, see my baby is very small, padlocked, unyu-unyu many who pinched his cheeks. during these 2 months I have not had time to play at the house situbondo, because the scars of surgery are still not healed.

Today I will feel how warm it is with my husband, together every day, taste bitter sweetness with his own family.

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I was surprised, my father suddenly appeared, I think no one cares, actually kasian kataian same father he worked hard for all of us. But even I was not strong with the babble of mother, finished dawn father was in front of the house.

"why come here sir?"

"i miss you and the grandchildren, let's go home don't listen to your mother. Let's just say he prattles himself don't take heart"

"mom prattle on, I can't stand it"

"people ajer embuk en, deteng deri lako tadek oreng posang kok, tao embuk en mik la tak buto been, tao, ngucak kok gik buruk kik buto son bik kompoy iye mun been jiye tak la tak buto. silver endik son settong eweng buweng"

Everyone was angry too, mother had gone too far. Every day he nagged when his own son was like a stepson.

Dad came home I couldn't go with him because I knew I had a heart too, to be treated like that. The promise was that my son was still in the womb he said he would take care of his grandson every day. After birth, mending work than at home taking care of the baby.It hurts like the mother herself talks like that..

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"Dek, mending you stay in my house rather than not occupied, dear. You will certainly also condone your mother if you collect sleep like that"

"yes, but I'm afraid you won't"

"later I'll help you talk to your husband"

"ok"

Ma'am-in-law help me forgive all to the husband, where - where the husband slalu is on the wife's side is not the words of his mother.

"you mending split the house, if you gather continue to want a hug both condolent, want a kiss condolent. Good cooking to collect like that"

"continue to want where else mbak, is the house has not been moved in the back"

"grandfather my house, rather than not occupied, if the whistling must be bangus too"

Husband still asks "how is neng??"

"it's good, both of us. I'd say I'm collecting kayak gini"

To esokan day we clean the room of the house mbk, even though the house is really small it fits alone. Looking at the roofs, it has been destroyed precarious fear actually afraid of collapsing when no one.

Seeing the rich mother-in-law so far we moved, even though it was just next door. Not far to china. Feel the togetherness of the husband is very cool, but slama husband hold hp I have something odd in my mind. After the dawn prayer he was a pengalu hp, seriously we sometimes ignored almost 1 month I never had sexs. Sometimes he cuekin me, nyuci sometimes not helped when said midwife can not work hard. The laundry continues to never help me, after coming home from work he never carried his son at all during my stay where there is my husband carrying his son even he was fun playing games, he never carried his son at all, until I asked "kok you never carried your son, have I never seen you carry rudi?"

"i'm tired anyway, he's a kid I don't know the baby carrier"

Mas-in-law just a smile that is not sincere with the answer of a father who does not care about his wife's child.

Over time I suspected, hp I checked, it turns out there is a new application hidden. He used to pair his fiancee with this application to see porn, only I delete it so we don't fight. Whether he is looking for the application has not met, then in the open youtube there is already writing in the search (maria uzawa).

Foolishly see youtube want to search about fussy baby, after the search "kok no writing maria uzawa and bath aunt" was shocked so far he never changed, he never changed, I thought he would be a loyal husband and accept me for who I am. I finally cried to go to the house of the brother-in-law who was next to me.

"why deck??"

"porn clay branch" while I cry czech..

Mbk silent already do not know to say whether he might already know the character of my husband, I still have not eaten hungry once it feels but I am really lazy. My mother-in-law came to me

"there eat first do not need to be thought of, if there are rich pictures that are again removed, do not ignore his brother"

Not his son in nasehatin, even I did not get angry because it was too profitable about this. All this time I have never been horrified nasehatin nasehatin mother-in-law, even in this alone. Whether I'm the stupid one or the crazy one, always give her a chance and sorry for her. All this time I was never valued by my husband, I always appreciated him, he played games after work I was silent. Because I know he's tired, cranky, bosen needs time to play. Understand very much in his position, he works alone for us, banging bones. But why am I the one who is hurt, not appreciating me as his wife.