Missing the Love of Husband

Chapter.8 Choose to go

As soon as I got home I slammed myself on the bed, the shadow of Dery with Renata still loomed clearly, I did not expect.. My marriage will be like this, but soon we will only see the children grow up, we will age together..

But I have to swallow that bitter pill now,

Oh God.. As complicated as this..

I was stunned when the bell of my parents' house rang.

Shortly after, Rafi my second son called me.

“Ummi, there's Abi in front!”

Did Dery come here? what else for? I'm kind of upset to hear that if he's here for a second, he can't calm me down? I lazily sauntered out of the room to meet Abi's children. Yep.. That's just my relationship with Dery.

“Alin.” Mas Dery came closer about to hug me, by reflex I retreated backwards and stopped his intentions.

“Why? I'm still your husband Lin.. I miss,” said with a sad look. If only you hadn't cheated on me.. I'll definitely be devastated.

“I want to split up!"

“What? don't joke Lin!”

“I'm serious, I've thought about this carefully!”

I saw Dery shaking his head in disagreement. “No! you why like this Lin, I just want your understanding.. What's wrong with you receiving Renata, and we will live happily, I also love you and the children.. Please.”

Again.. Those words that came out of Mas Dery's mouth, his heart was actually made of what, so he was so selfish like that.

“You only think about your own feelings! you don't care about my feelings!”

“Who said, I'm still back here and persuading you back, please Lin don't be selfish!”

“Abi enough!” We turned together towards the source of the voice, Rafa..

“Didn't Abi feel that Ummi was hurt here? 6 Months Bi.. Every night I see Ummi crying alone Abi ignored, not only Abi, me and Rafi also understand the same thing? then.. Which part did Abi say understood Ummi's feelings?” O Allah my son is that mature, he defends his Ummi.

“Rafa!! it's not polite to cut out the old man's talk!! you're a kid, know what!”

“I know Bi. I'm 12 years old.. Didn't Abi teach us that we boys should take care of our Ummi? now I'm doing that!”

“See Lin, this kid is getting brazen.. You must have instigated them, right? Renata can even make her son appreciate me!” he said again, this is Mas Dery who I married for 15 years.

“KalAu so, go to a place where you are appreciated mas, and I will go to a place where I am loved.” said I slowly, it seems I have no energy to argue himself, he said, what's for.. There will be only pain left.

“Please mas.. Please let me go.. Because honestly I no longer want to bear this wound, I feel pain here, longing for your love and affection, while you are happy with your first love there... I am not an angel, who can sincerely see the person I love happy with someone other than me . Mas sick.. It hurts so much.”

“You'll regret Lin.. At your current age, you can no longer find a man who can make you happy!” he turned around and left me and Rafa there.

“Ummi.” I crouched down and stared fixedly at my son's bead eyes.

“Other times don't be like that huh.. It's not good to raise your voice in front of the parents, Rafa.. You can be angry and protest, but use words that don't hurt your Abi.. No matter how Abi you are.. People who have been working hard for the happiness of you two,” I try to give understanding to my son.

However, I did not condone my son's behavior, which showed him to be better than his parents..

Even though the pepper is reality, the parents are wrong, but I want to.. My children still respect their parents.

“Let it be Ummi's business son.. Your duty is to pray only for the good of Abi and Ummi, and also for.. If Ummi could not stay with Abi, would Rafa and Rafi be angry with Ummi?”

“Ngak Mi.. Rafa thinks it's best, rather than holding on, but enduring the pain.. Better to separate.. Ummi can be more relieved.” replied his sage.. Alhamdulillahot.. Under these circumstances, I still have my two sons who are very understanding.

I went back to the room, and leaning my body in the corner of the bed, I kneaded my temple which began to feel dizzy. I've decided.. Tomorrow I will file my divorce. Why so fast?? because there is no longer a stage that is maintained. My body and soul need to be healthy so that I don't go crazy because of the pain!

I took a cell phone, intending to call Rubina to help me with the divorce with Mas Dery.

“Halo Bi.. You busy tomorrow?”

(Tomorrow I'm free Lin.. Why?) ask him at the end of the phone.

“Meet me to the religious court huh?”

(Seriously??? have you thought carefully?)

“Iya already.”

(OK... )

I took my breath, and threw it away slowly.. Here's the best.. Than I have to feel pain..

He wants to be happy, no.. I want the same thing.

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The next day after I drove the kids to school, I went to see Rubina who was waiting for me in her office. I also have brought the files that I will submit to the court, because last night I have searched on google what conditions must be brought when filing a lawsuit to the religious court.

“Travel.. Are you okay?” ask Rubina who is now sitting at my wheel. I smiled while saying.

“It's okay.. This is the best Bi.. I can't afford to hold on to all that anymore.. ”

Rubina clasped my hand, bracing..

“Come we leave,”

After I got there, when I opened the car glass and was about to go down. I accidentally hit someone there.

Braakk!

My head, hitting his head, hurts too..

“Awww,” ringisku is sick.. Because honestly this guy hit me really hard. Maybe he's in a hurry.

“Aduh, sorry mbak.. I was unintentionally.. Problem again hurry.” said the man who was like his a man. I started to look at him a little.. Surely a man.

“Loh.. Ralin Ayuningtiyas.” he said full name. I narrowed my eyes trying to remember who this man before me was, who knew and mentioned my name in full.

“Who??”

“Zayn's... Zayn Arrassy!”