Missing the Love of Husband

Chapter.5 Alin Go

Dery wakes up from his sleep at 5:30 a.m.. Usually Alin his wife will wake him up for dawn prayers, but like his Alin is still angry about the shock last night, when he admitted if all this time he had shared love with other women.

He rushed into the bathroom to perform dawn prayers even though he had missed, he glanced towards his bed, where Alin used to sleep was still neat, even his pillow had not shifted.

’Is she still in the children's room?’ gegas Dery headed to the wardrobe to pick up his suit plus shirt, Alin usually already provides it, complete with your t-shirt, tie and also a handkerchief..

But this time.. ’So here's how his taste dicuekin wife.’ inner again.

Dery went down to the dining room, but there was quiet.. It's still 6:30.. Usually Alin and the children are boisterous there enjoying their snacks.. But why don't they exist..

“Alin..." 

Silence, no answer at all.

“Rafa! Rafi!”

Silent.. There was no response from his children.

Dery had lost his mind when he realized that Alin and his children were gone..

Several times he tried to contact his wife, but there was no answer either..

'Where are you Lin.. Is that how you are the same? Is it hard for you to accept Renata to be your honeymoon sister.. You shouldn't be selfish Lin, I love Renata, don't you want to be filial to your husband?' Lirih Dery in heart.

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“Alin..” call Rubi my best friend.

“Rubi.” I cried in Rubina's arms, all this time there was no place I was leaning, only God where I spilled all my grievances all this time, in the real world I don't even have parents, they left me alone.

“You are patient yes Lin, every problem must have wisdom, there is a way out.. You must be strong!”

Rubi's words did give me a little injection of spirit, wanting it to feel like everything I heard last night was a dream.. The fact that last night was true, the fact that Mas Dery got married again really ripped my heart out..

“What are your next steps?” ask Rubi.

“Entah is Bi..I don't know what to do yet, Dery reluctantly let go of me, do I have to endure a little more? Wish Dery would love me back?” ask him...

As Rubi was also confused in responding to my question, on the one hand I was still so deeply in love with Dery, the man who followed me 15 years ago.. 

Lika the twisting of our relationship is not easy, Papa.. Who used to be blatantly against our relationship, strictly forbid that I did not accept a proposal from a Dery ikhsan Dirgantara, not about Dery mas only ordinary employees, but either.. What Papa saw from Dery until he assumed that there would be a gap in the future for my marriage..

It turns out that now answered already, even I refused the proposal from a family that is famous for both religion, I chose mas Dery..Because what I see is that she has so much respect for me as a woman, she upholds the principle of touch after halal, which woman does not feel lucky to be treated in such a way..

“Travel.. I don't want you to be my girlfriend, but I want you to be my halal lover, would you marry me Lin.. Will you sail the household ark with an ordinary man like me?

I will not promise to bring you a myriad of gold and diamonds.. But I'll be as hard as I can to make you happy.. We sailed together to the paradise of God,” Those are the words that could destroy my heart.. I was so gobsmacked by the way Dery asked me, so sweet..

To this day, that sweet memory still lingers in my head,

But.. When I remember the words of Dery who was married again with his first love, burning forcibly the sweet memories that until now are still left in my heart..

So ill.. As soon as his pain.Imagine them living happily with laughter ria..

While I, sitting in the corner of his heart watching all that torment my inner..

Noddy.. I'm not that strong.

Yep.. Rubi's right, Dery wants Renata for his happiness, I also deserve to be happy right?

“You are actually Bi, indeed I do not intend to return to that house, even though Renata is not there, but the shadows are always there .. ”

“Terus you will sue Dery?”

“For now I have not thought, I still have to organize my heart first, but maybe sooner or later, all of that will happen.”

Rubi gently rubbed my shoulder, he tried to calm me down..

“I'm sure you're strong Lin, spirit.”

I reviewed a smile for her, for the spirit she had given me.

“Thanks Bi, you are the best friend for me, ”

“Definitely.. Oh yea.. The photos of Dery and his second wife together should not be deleted, it could be evidence in court tomorrow if you want to sue Dery!”

“OK.. ”

“I said yes.. If you need my phone, I'm on time 24 hours for you!”

After Rubina's departure from the boutique, I re-occupied myself to the sofa, my gaze still fixed out the window..Since last night the atmosphere is still cloudy and drizzling.. Same thing with my feelings from last night like in a big storm.

“Alin!” Call someone whose voice I miss so much every day, who else if not Mas Dery.

I turned his head for a while towards his, his handsome face, with a nose that is sharp typical Indonesian face, first.. 

But now, that face is what I have been avoiding and don't want to see right now.

“Sayang.. Why did you and the kids leave me alone?”

The darling? For the past 6 months I have never heard those words from her thin lips.

“I want to win myself,”

“But you don't have to leave the house, let alone bring the kids.. You know, no one wakes up for a meal, no one is ready for breakfast, no one is ready for the needs of a mas.. Mas Need you Lin.”

“Don't you have Renata too? You can stay with him, right? Sooner or later we also have to get used to living each mas,” 

“What do you mean? I told you, I won't let you go, I want Lin's kids, you don't act like this!”

Kids said? Did she also think about the children when she got married again? Did she think of the children when they would bring strangers into our household life?

Very selfish!

“Kids? Don't make children for the reason, all this time do you think of children when they will marry Renata? Do you also think of children when you deliberately pick up a girl happily at the same school as our child? While you don't glance at all if they see all that?”

I laughed a little to neutralize my heart that had rumbled violently, wanting to feel like I was giggling a human before me..

“You purposely hurt us mas? During this time you never even have time for our children, you assume they are already big who do not need your attention anymore!”

“Try you to say, which part of our marriage is able to make me and the children to stay by your side!”