Missing the Love of Husband

Chapter 6 The Arrival of Mother-in-law

“Try you to say, which part of our marriage is able to make me and the children to stay by your side!”

I saw Dery staring at me fixedly, 

“Because I love you.. You love me so much, don't you? Please Lin.. Our marriage can still be good.. We can be happy living together.. Mas.. Ye.. And Renata,”

Sick, it hurts so much Dery's words coming out of his mouth, how could he be so selfish like that?

Isn't her nature like this just to benefit her, she doesn't even think about how I feel right now.

“It's been a while, our marriage has been over since you decided to marry Renata, without my knowledge.. You can even announce to the world that you and Renata are together again..

Go mas.”

Suddenly Mas Dery came closer and hugged me from behind..

O Allah.. How much I miss this hug..

“Do you not love mas anymore? What does being together for 15 years mean nothing to you?”

I closed my eyes for a moment, “It is precisely because I love you too much that I am this sick.. If only I loved like I did.. The pain must be different.” the answer from me contact relaxes Hugs mas Dery to me.

He shook his head.

“Mas will give you time To own Lin, to think about our household, mas know you are wise.. I'm sure you're only angry for a moment, later if you're not angry at you, go home.. I will always wait for you.” Dery turned around and left my boutique. 

My head throbbed pain, it felt tired to cry.. No, I can't be pitted .. I can't afford.. Excuse me.

“Bu.. Is Mom okay?” asked Nisa who was standing on the doorstep of my room, maybe she had heard my conversation with Dery.

“Nothing Nis.. ”

“I make warm tea huh Bu?”

“Bby.”

Shortly after, Nisa came with Tea and Bread.

“Bu.. There are guests for Mom..” said Ika one of my other employees.

“Who Are You? I have no appointment with anyone today, our order is also finished delivered right?”

“I don't know Mom, she's a little old.,” I frown on my forehead thinking who's coming?

“Tell in. Ka, oh yes Nis.. Make one more tea, huh?”

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“Alin.”

“Mother.”

I immediately greeted my mother-in-law, kissed her hand and let her sit down.

“Mother when is it here?” I asked the woman who had given birth to my husband, Mother had been so dear to me, often giving advice about marriage.. 

“New.. You're the same kids haven't played at Mom's house in a long time.. Mother misses the children.” Yes indeed, I have not visited Mother, grandmother of the children..

“Not because you're busy looking around for Dery errors right?” 

“Means Mother?”

“Already Lin.. Why have you changed like this, during the 15 years you were married, you never run away like this if you are angry?” I'm still trying to digest Mom's words, all this time I know, you've always supported me .. Why is he now supporting Dery?

“Bu.. This is a different matter.. Mas Dery married secretly behind my back. . You can imagine how I feel, right? ma'am sick.. Especially when I know that it turns out that all this time Dery did not love me,” my eyes have been glazed.. Just finished with Dery mas, now Mom was like judging me if what I did was wrong.

“Dery just remarries right, she she didn't leave you.. What's wrong.  He is able to remarry, and most importantly, in Islam the husband may remarry and can have more than one wife.”

O Allah, I have heard the words of my mother-in-law..She is also a woman, why.. 

I can draw a conclusion if my mother-in-law already knows Dery's remarried, and that's not a question for her.

“Indeed ma'am, but the context is different, dery married again without my permission, is it not called treason? And mother.. What if our position is exchanged Mom, how does Mother feel if the late Father remarries with a person who is so dear to you since long ago, is right to Mother.. I never had the slightest love.” furious it feels like I am in a position like this, not me who is hurt here.. Why do I feel cornered?

“Suppose you are Lin, I did not expect you can at least talk to Mom, besides you are married not one or two years, already 15 years Lin.. Do not be like a newlywed who is left out of marriage again.. Inget, your age is almost 4 heads!” 

I let out a sigh of annoyance, how to deal with Mom if this is the case.

“Sorry Mom, long or short marriage, whose name is married husband again just feels the same, equally sick, if Mother assesses what Mother's children do right, no problem Mom, no, but sorry.. I can't hold on.. I set Dery free to live with the people he loves so much!” I said steady, enough. As soon as I will take care of the lawsuit for Dery, my soul is already sick of his betrayal with Renata, now I am forced to accept this situation. 

Do they think my heart is a stone, which can't feel pain..

“You don't get cocky.. Your age is no longer young.. There are men who want to live with women like you.. Even though you're rich, and the kids.. They still need the Abi.. You don't be selfish Lin, lower your ego. Think of your children!”

I knead my temple which began to dizzy, O God must how I face the Mother of my husband.

“What is the selfish Alin Ma'am? Did Mas Dery think about the children before deciding to remarry Renata? Ma'am, in this case the one that should be said to be selfish is mas Dery!!” 

I tried to remain patient with him, because besides Mom was old, she was also still my mother-in-law, the woman I had considered my own mother.

“Dery boy Lin, he's the leader of the family.. If he needs two queens.. Why are you not ridho? You know if the wife mengikhlaskan husband married again, then the reply is heaven!” bright Mother again, she still kekep if what her son did was right.

“But Alin does not want heaven in such a way Mom, Alin is not an angel who can sincerely and freely accept all forms of betrayal, please understand Miss.” I begged Mother that she immediately stop her rant that had supported my husband's betrayal.

“Bas stubborn, it has changed you Lin.. It is up to you if you still want to leave Dery's life, after all he is also happy with Renata, still young.. Rich.. career anyway.”

I'm silent about her words Mother, too sick to keep arguing with her, silence is the best option.

My mother-in-law just left from the boutique, I saw the watch on my wrist showing at 4 pm.. Time to pick up the kids..

I'm going to drive my car, sure..There the kids are waiting for me.

“Assalamu'alaikum darling.” greet me to them.

“Wallaikumsallam Ummi,”

“Come in.. You guys are already at the ashar prayer yet?”

“Not Mi."

“Yaudah we pray in the crossroad mosque there huh?”