Missing the Love of Husband
Chapter 43. Don't want to go back
POV Alin
Dery's car is gone from sight, I still haven't figured out why he could behave like that. Asking me to come back just because he knows that Renata isn't as good as he thinks she is?
Indeed he admitted his mistake, but the intent of his mistake he was not aware of at all.
“Have he come home?” ask Mas Raka who did not know since when to stand behind the door.
“Already.. ” My answer is short, I step foot into the house, and until inside I directly sit me on the sofa, I know for sure Raka want to know what the purpose and purpose of Dery came here. Sure enough, Raka directly sat opposite me.
“Renata cheating?” mas Raka started to open the conversation. The face that was just ordinary, now looks serious.
“Katanya so, anyways not our business is also.” although mas Dery my ex-husband, and Renata ex-wife mas Raka, about their personal affairs is not our domain right, is, in addition to no ties whatsoever, I am also lazy to deal with Renata or Dery other than cymbals. My heart is still not okay dealing directly with them.
“Indeed, but mas accidentally heard he asked for a referral for the twins right?”
“Not on purpose, what is nguping mas?”
“Slightly, after all I've been resistant to Lin, every look at his face that jerk that dengen nonjok know not!! pretentious styles have a wife of two. His life is falling apart now!”
“Mas no longer jealous right?” I purposely raised one eyebrow to tease this mas of mine.
“Ngapain mas jealous, cheap women like Renata not pantes to be envied, Lin. Maybe you used to be too stupid to ever love that same as him! don't talk about it, now you.. So what is your decision... would you like to accept that sneak again?”
I took a deep breath, then threw it away slowly. That way I do to neutralize the anger that often arises every time discussing mas Dery. Although 8 months had passed, but the pain was still there. For most people, I may be too lazy. But trying to make peace with the situation is not as easy as explaining the theory.
“The injury that Dery gave me was still wet, I myself do not know when all of it can be healed! am I going to fall in the same hole again? then one day he betrayed me again?? now maybe I can still be strong, but someday.is there any guarantee he will not repeat the same thing? So don't ask me if I want to come back with Mas Dery or not, because the answer is still the same!”
“Good...As for Za, you asked God for guidance.. If Allah meridhoi will be there to make our hearts lean towards him.” continued mas Raka, honestly I am grateful that Raka can come back with me again after the split last time. And about mas Za, honestly I'm confused how to.
“Iya.. Later Alin try istikharah, it feels if you want to approach first, it's not his time right.”
“Well it..”
“Oh yes.. I want to call Mbak Rara first yes mas, was mas Dery also said his word Mother is sick, her legs want amputation, and she wanted to meet the twins,” continued me again.
“Try permission. Even though you're not the same as their Abi, but Rafa and Rafi are still Dery's children.”
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Dery came home with a matted face, he still felt that Alin was still insistent on not accepting her back.
“Mas know your ego is high Lin, but mas still sure. if our household can still continue again!” his own oceh.
Dery unlocked his house, if the door was locked, Renata would have gone from there. When Dery arrived inside, Renata was no longer there. He felt relieved.. Turn on the lights of his originally dark room. All of Renata's equipment is no longer there.
Dery laid his body on his bed, he stared at the ceiling of his room. After this he had to think about his mother's operating expenses, his savings staying a little longer. Dery was afraid that all was lacking. Repeatedly he rubbed his face violently, his life became chaotic since the appearance of Renata.
“Why my life can be this shit! I desperately worked hard to build my career, but it disappeared in an instant! all because of that cheap lady!” he said to himself.
“But take it easy Der.. Soon, if Alin and the kids get back to you, things will get back to normal again, and you won't even have to bother being the head of the project like you are today! you will sit sweetly to be CEO in a big company!” Dery develops a smile when she imagines her life will be much better when Alin wants to get back at her. Automatically Alin will turn over the company for him to manage. There's no way Alin's still gonna intervene there.
His apologies are insincere, there are only shrimp behind the rock. In fact, Dery is indeed Tidka bike that against his own children. He thought by leaving his Renata in his life everything would return to normal.
Meanwhile, at Alin's house, after he talks to Rara to ask her children's permission tomorrow, Alin immediately prays istikharah, asking for instructions from the omnipresent. He does not want to rush but at times like this he also needs a figure of a friend who can accompany him. For child problems, Alin may not be able to get pregnant at the current age, because surely the risk will be high.
Accepting Zayn is also not an easy thing, the decision to marry is not he took alone, but there are two sons who must be consulted. Because he is not alone at this time, there is a complete package if you want to propose himself.
In the morning, Alin didn't get into the office today. Because of her schedule to visit her former mother-in-law, along with her children.
After picking up the twin, Alin now immediately drove to the hospital that Dery referred to last night.
“Agriculture, mi?”
“Iya darling.. Granny misses you guys.”
“But it's been a long time we didn't see grandma, last granny was angry at that time in the mall?”
“Sayang.. Your grandmother's grandfather yes, although Umi is not the same Abi anymore, now grandma is sick. We have forgotten the time grandmother was angry yesterday, yesterday, let's just say grandma never said that! okay.. There is also Abi, Abi also misses you!”
“Abi?” Rafi was shocked to hear that Abi was there. The shadow as he was hit by a car and in pain, his Abi did not even flinch at all.
