Midwife's Idle Police

REASSURES

"Nur, why don't you be honest, I just want to cheer you up and be your best friend Nur" said Fatimah

"I'm sorry, Fatimah, I don't mean it that way, but I'm not used to telling other people about my problems"

"I want to be friends with you, but it seems like you can't accept me as your best friend yet" Fatimah was disappointed

"Abah actually called me because of ustadz Guntu"

"Ustadz Thunder? what happened to ustadz Guntur?" Fatimah asked round her eyes

"Ustadz Guntur wants to invite me to ta'aruf" jawba Nur

"What's? ustadz Thunder wants to ta'aruf with you? how could the ustadz of Thunder invite you to ta'aruf?" Fatimah was astonished because many santriwati in this cottage were much more deserving to be the wife of Ustadz Guntur but why even Nur? that is what made Fatimah so sad.

"I don't know why I have to" either"

"What's your answer then?" Fatimah who is actually jealous to know the fact that Guntur ustadz there is a sense with Nur when she first fell in love with Guntur ustadz

"I can't be with the guntur ustadz" replied Nur

Fatimah smiled the deacons secretly feeling relieved Nur said so

"But why did you say that you couldn't possibly be with the Thunder Ustadz?" Fatimah was curious

"It's okay, it's just that I can't be together with the thunder ustadz" Nur replied with tears

"Why are you crying?"

"It's okay, I'm just remembering something. Fatimah I'm sorry, but when I want to be alone" Nur said

"Yes, I go first. remember yes, if you need anything call me. Here you are not alone. there I am. you can tell me anything" said Fatimah

Elsewhere, Guntur ustadz was pensive at his study table trying to digest Nur's words that were difficult to understand.

Then Thunder tried to remember the little boy who came to the boarding school the other day and hugged Nur while crying.

"Is that Nur's son? then who was with the kid yesterday?" muttered Thunder

The statement that Nur conveyed was enough to make him shocked, but that does not mean that Ustadz Guntur directly judges Nur just like that. ustadz Guntur for several days did not appear in front of Nur not because it dodged or disappeared just like that but Ustadz Guntur tried to calm his heart and during some of this Istikharah prayers to strengthen his heart. ask for the best guidance from Allah.

And after a few days not seen in front of Nur now suddenly Ustadz Guntur met Nur at the edge of the lake that is in the dipesantren. ustadz Guntur asked him to hear what he wanted ustadz Guntur to say, of course they are not both. there is one santri invited ustadz Guntur there so as not to cause slander.

"Assalamu'alaikum"

"Walaikumsalam" Nur turned to look at Ustadz Guntur

"Why else would Ustadz ask me to come here?" nur

"There are things I want to tell you directly" replied Ustadz Guntur

"What do you want ustadz to say?" Nur frowned

"Ustadz, it's okay. I understand, any man will definitely do the same. really I'm fine. ustadz don't feel bad. timpal Nur cut off the talk of the guntur ustadz

"Listen to me, Nur.. "

"No need to feel bad ustadz, I'm really okay" Nur said with a smile

"I want us to crush you" ustadz Guntur

"What, did I hear wrong?" Nur widened his eyes in disbelief

"No, you are not wrong.if you allow.I will immediately meet your parents and ask permission to propose you" said Ustadz Guntur full of confidence

"Is ustadz not wrong to say that? ustadz, I don't deserve to be the wife of an ustadz. I'm just a despicable sinner. let alone an ustadz, with ordinary men I also don't deserve.maybe for the rest of my life, I will be alone.maybe this is my way to atone for my sins in the past" Nur said with teary eyes.

"Who are we so that we can judge our sins and mistakes, Allaah is forgiving, and Allaah Will accept the judgment of his servant as long as it is serious. Never precede the destiny of Alloh Nur" said Ustadz Guntur

"Trust ustadz, I'm not a good woman for ustadz. marrying a sinner like me will only make ustadz shy" Nur with teary eyes

"Surely Allah prefers sinners who repent than those who are sholy but always feel right.I have said that, right? so do not constantly blame yourself for the sins you have committed in the past, make it a reference so that in the future you can become a better person. your past has happened and you can no longer change it, but your future can be improved by becoming a better person.get close to Allah! InsyaAlloh I believe you can be a sholihah woman who obeys Allah.because really the best servant is always obedient to Allah. Stay away from His prohibition and keep His commandments" ustadz Guntur tried to give understanding to Nur so as not to always dissolve in penitence.

"With you regret your past actions and want to repent asking forgiveness to Allah, it is enough to prove there is still faith in your heart" said Ustadz Guntur again

"Sorry ustadz I really can't accept all this. ustadz is too good for me. I really feel unworthy to be a companion to ustadz life" Nur stepped away

"Please don't rush to reject me! pray istikharah first for three days in a row, if after you pray istikharah and your heart still hesitates to accept me. then reject me, and say no, but if after praying istikharah your heart feels steady with me please accept me and do not you fight against the will of Allah" said Ustadz Guntur stopped Nur's steps

Nur who was still speechless pegged at a glance turned his head again to look back at the Thunder Ustadz at a glance and immediately ran towards the room. at the intersection of the road Fatimah saw Nur who was running and not long after there was ustadz Guntur and a santri who also passed Fatimah.

"Why could they happen to be like that" Fatimah's inner gaze continued to be fixed on the Thunder Ustadz.

While in the room Nur was crying so much, buried his face in the pillow.the day felt tight.which woman did not want to have a sholih husband? obedient worship and understand the science of religion that can lead his wife and children later to heaven, as well as Nur felt. his little heart wanted to accept the Thunder ustadz as a companion to life that could lead him to become a better person, but the sins of his past seemed to be a hindrance to him.

At a time like this Nur wants to ask his best friend Ane for an opinion.

Nur took his hape looking for Ane's number in his contact and pressed the call button.

"Assalamu'alaikum Ne" Nur sobbed

"Walaikumsalam Nur, why is your voice like you're crying" Ane worried from across the phone

"It's okay, are you busy?" tanya Nur was afraid to disturb Ane

"No Nur, it just so happens that Amar is taking a nap. What is Nur? you why? are you really crying?"

"Yes Ne, I want to be able to tell what I feel to you. You know, all this time it's just the same you I can tell the truth" cried Nur

Fatimah who was initially curious to ask why it could be together with the Thunder Ustadz accidentally heard Nur talking to someone on the phone.

Fatimah who was originally going to knock on the door broke her intention because she heard Nur mention the name of the Guntur ustadz