Midwife's Idle Police

TA'ARUF

Five months later

Ustadz Guntur expressed his desire to Abahahah want to invite ta'aruf Nur.

"What is the basis of your desire to tour? do you know her background?" ask Abah

"Thunder felt that Nur was a sholihah woman, and inexplicably saw that Nur seemed to have the heart of Thunder steady to ta'aruf with Nur" said Guntur

"Well, the intention of your heart, Abah will tell Nur" replied Abah

Guntur is the eldest son of Abah and has one younger brother named Burhan.

"Assalamu'alaikum"

"Milkahmur"

"Mbak Nur, Abah wants to talk to mbak Nur" said santriwati conveying a message from Abah

"Change?" Nur was astonished

"Yes, Abah said that Nur was told to meet Abah now."

"What's up? why is Abah looking for me?" Nur was confused

"I don't know if that's me"

"Yes, thank you" said Nur immediately to meet Abah with a heart of wonder

"Assalamu'alaikum"

"Walaikumsalam" replied Abah and Thunder simultaneously

Nur's feelings increasingly feel unwarranted because of the existence of Thunder there.

"Sorry Bah, there was a santriwati who delivered the message that Abah wanted to talk to Nur?" nur hesitated

"Yes right Nur, please sit down. Someone wants Abah to talk to you"

"Yes bah" Nur sat down with a lowered gaze

"Look Nur, this is Thunder Abah's eldest son. You already know that right?" ask Abah

"I. yes bah, I know." Nur replied with mixed feelings

"Thunder told Abah that Thunder has good intentions to invite you to ta'aruf"

"Ta.. ta'aruf bah?" Nur stammered

Hearing Abah's statement about Ustadz Guntur who wanted to invite him ta'aruf, making Nur kelabakan. because he could not accept the invitation ta'aruf ustadz Guntur, he is just a sinner who does not deserve to be with Ustadz Guntur, a famous kiayi child, the owner of a boarding school and he also has a religious knowledge that should not be doubted. ustadz Guntur who had been studying religion in Cairo, a handsome man, the dream of all santriwati there.where maybe married to a sinner who already had children outside marriage. but rejecting him was also like an insult to him.

After a moment of silence, Nur opened his voice

"Sorry Abah, ustadz Guntur. Nur was very flattered by the invitation to his ta'aruf, but once again Nur apologized. Nur can't. Assalamu'alaikum"

Nur immediately rushed out and cried in the garden chair that was in the school.

"Nur" called out to ustadz Thunder who stood some distance away and lowered his gaze

"May I ask why?"

"There is no excuse for ustadz" Nur replied lowered his head

"Why don't you think about it first but immediately refuse, is there anyone else in your heart?"

"No ustadz" Nur shook his head

"Then what was the consideration you immediately rejected me? am I not good enough for you?"

"No ustadz, very good ustadz. precisely because ustadz is too good for me. I feel inappropriate for ustadz" replied Nur

"Why can you think like that? why can you decide that you don't deserve me? honestly from the beginning I saw you, there was a chill every time I saw you, and I wish you were my soul mate"

"Ustadz don't know who I am, ustadz don't know what my past is. if ustadz tau. ustadz won't be able to make me the companion of ustadz." Nur answered with tears remembering his sins.

"Everyone has a past, no matter what a person's past is he has a chance to repent and become a better person. That God loves a repentant sinner more than a sholih who always feels himself right."

Nur shook his head and sobbed.

"I am an ustadz sinner.I even feel disgusted with myself.My sins in the past are very big ustadz.ustadz Guntur should look for a sholihah woman, which is equivalent to ustadz. lest I ustadz." cried Nur

"What sins do you commit? how dare you judge yourself? So, forgive yourself, why can't you forgive yourself? with you currently here, learning religious knowledge.it means you have become a better person.willing to change for the better" said Ustadz Guntur

A moment all fell silent. ustadz Guntur who felt unanswered by Nur left Nur

"I have a child" said Nur stopped the steps ustadz Guntur

Instantly the thunder ustadz sculpted, only silently hearing Nur say have a child.

"What is true you say?" tanya ustadz Guntur turned to look at Nur

"I may lie about my child" Nur replied

Ustadz Thunder looked confused

"I had committed a big sin when I was in college. until I was pregnant. But the men who had impregnated me did not want to take responsibility and chose to run away leaving me pregnant. I gave birth to the baby itself.even I had depression did not recognize anyone, including my own child.I was also admitted to a mental hospital.even because I also my father died. what can be expected of a sinful woman like me? now ustadz Guntur already know the facts about myself.I am sure now ustadz Guntur must regret ever intending to ta'aruf with me." Nur was already relieved to have told her all about herself. Despite the consequences, Ustadz Guntur might look down on her but still it was much better. rather than himself having to make the Thunder ustadz expect more from him.

Ustadz Guntur just kept quiet, no response and left Nur without a word.

Nur who was still sitting could only hold back so that his tears would not fall.

with a heavy step Nur towards his camp. dropped his body was exhausted. and in this room Nur finally evaporated all his sadness.His heart was bitter.The shadow of the past that was painstakingly forgotten is now back present. who would have thought he had to face something like this and maybe everyone who saw his past will also have the same response. Nur has resigned, maybe now his whole life will be alone.which man can accept his past is so dark.

"Yes Allah strengthen me, this may be the punishment of the sins I committed in the past" muttered Nur shedding tears.

Nur took ablution water and performed sunah prayers to calm his heart.

after the prayer Nur reopened the Koran, read it solemnly.

after finishing teaching Fatimah approached and asked again what made her cry after meeting Abah? but again Nur did not tell the base.

This made Fatimah even more curious

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