Married With My First Love (Travel Story of Lantern Love And Scintillating)
71.How are you?...
Afternoon, after work.
The lantern was walking from a bus stop not far from his home.
His mind since then was almost drained from his unexpected encounter with Gilang this morning.
The person who had made him understand the true meaning of longing.
In the middle of his journey, he looked at Gilang's face which was like waiting for him.
..."Because I met him this morning, now I'm seeing his face here..." Tera muttered while trying to pass through Gilang's body that stood straight in front of him....
..."Argh..this is really a Gilang mas, I thought it was just a hallucination of me..." His inner being from hitting Gilang's chest with his head, then raising his head looked at the handsome man seriously....
Gilang put his handsome look in front of Tera while staring in the face of the girl who had left him.
..."Hi, how are you?"...
..."Emh, I-I'm fine..."...
..."Coming home from abroad, how to say so stuttering so yes..."...
..."What the..."...
Tera intends to leave Gilang.
When Tera was already two steps ahead of him, Gilang called his full name.
..."Pradania lantern..."...
Tera quickly turned back and looked at Gilang.
..."Tera..I need your time for a while, my rest time is not much..."...
..."What's up, Mas Gilang can talk here..."...
..."We'll just sit there..." Gilang answered while pointing at a bench on the side of the road....
Tera then followed behind Gilang.
After they sat down, Gilang asked correctly about Tera's news.
..."Tera. when exactly did you come back here..."...
..."Early last month..."...
..."How are you doing?"...
..."Well, Mas Gilang himself how are you?"...
..."As long as you're gone, I almost forgot it felt all right..."...
..."Why?"...
..."I don't know, for sure I can't forget about you..."...
..."But Gilang had a girlfriend again..."...
..."But I'm not happy at all, and Jihan never really loved me..."...
..."Jihan?"...
..."Yeah..."...
..."Now where's Jihan?"...
..."There, maybe she'll marry Haris soon?"...
..."Mas Haris's..."...
..."Yes,Tera..."...
..."Mas Gilang himself now what do you want?"...
..."I want you to come back..."...
..."But I'm already here..."...
..."Back to me..."...
..."But mas..."...
..."I don't want to hear any more excuses from you, I've been patient enough to wait for you for a few years, now I want everything to be clearer..."...
..."But mas, we've just met again, what mas Gilang not curious about me..."...
..."About what?"...
..."What if I had a boyfriend now..."...
..."You can't lie in front of me Tera..."...
..."But, I'm not ready if there should be any relationship for now..."...
..."Tera, I have to wait how much longer, until you're ready, I know you can't forget me either?"...
..."Why is that sure...?"...
..."I can tell everything from your face..."...
Tera was silent, she indeed could not lie about her feelings which was still very much expecting Gilang, but she was not ready to accept everything in a hurry.
..."Tera, please believe me..."...
..."Is Gilang not angry with me?"...
..."No, because I love you..."...
..."Is Gilang not vengeful with me?"...
..."Not at all, Tera..."...
..."But give me time to think things through..."...
..."Yes, but please don't think too long..."...
..."Mas Gilang, but now my brain is slow, so it's hard to think fast..."...
..."Hemph..."...
..."I'm serious, but I have to go back to the Hospital now, so think about it, I'll say goodbye, your cell phone number is still what it used to be, right?"...
Tera just nodded, because Gilang had run to his car across the road.
..."Is he always that busy, what if he even more and less time for me..."...
Inner Tera with doubt...
..."He did not change, he was still a Gilang who always wanted his wish to be achieved quickly..." Continue Tera's heart again....
..."What am I supposed to do now...!"...
Tera with a confused face continued her steps so that she could get to her house soon.
...*...
Just opening the door, and wanting to get into the room, his mother who had been waiting for him, stared intently at Tera.
..."Mom, why?"...
..."Tera..."...
..."Why baby mom, hemph?"...
..."Is there nothing you want to say to your mother?"...
..."I don't think there's a mom yet, why?"...
..."But I told you there was a story of something with mom..."...
..."Well, it's precisely now that I want to ask my mother, since when did mas Gilang often play here?"...
..."Well, since mom moved here anyway Tera, there's no way she'd play here if mom still lives in her house..."...
..."Often ma'am?"...
..."Not really, sometimes once a week, sometimes once every two weeks, sometimes he comes the same boy Haris..."...
..."Why didn't you ever tell me that?"...
..."Nak Gilang asked..."...
..."Why do they always like this ma'am, we also have to be independent, can't always hope for their help, how if they consider everything as a debt of gratitude that we have to replace..."...
..."Dear Tera, can you change your way of thinking just a little bit, as you know, you also cannot accept that they continue to help us, you know,but thinking that they think that debt is also wrong son, they are all sincere, because their families love you..."...
..."But ma'am, from the beginning we were just their helpers, if they could accept our situation that just always depends on them..."...
..."Tera, if you can't accept it, please go to their house, and give back all the good that Mother Jullie has given us..."...
..."I'll give you back Jullie's mother's money, but the other good I have to pay with what mom, do I have to go back to work at their house..."...
..."It's up to you Tera..."...
..."Mum...!"...
..."Go take a shower and eat, then go back to your room..."...
Tera obviously knew her mother was angry, but she also felt right, for these few years, they always made Tera feel inferior,although actually the Gilang family did all that because it does not want to live Tera difficulties.
Tera stepped in with a shunt in her room.
Because seeing the attitude of his mother who had just left him, made Tera lose the spirit to do anything.
She was spilling her body in her little bed, wanting her to cry there, but her tears were held back.
She complained in her heart, why so many things made her always want to shed her tears.
..."Mr..."...
..."Until when else I should hold on, when I'm happy..."...
..."I'm not strong like this..."...
He hugged the pillow in front of him, holding back the tightness in his chest whenever people around him could not understand him.
...*...
Dusk began to approach the entire City today.
Tera was still drowning in her sadness, holding back her stomach hunger, holding back the stifling stinginess in her body from a long day at work.
He thought, Just want to go back to his hometown.
But no one there would care about her and her mother.
..."I'm tired..."...
His mind then fell asleep in his work clothes.
He forgot his hunger.
...*...
At eight o'clock in the night, feeling guilty for her son, Mother Nur left her job in the kitchen to see Tera in her room that had not come out since.
Tera did not turn on her room lights, as she had fallen asleep when dusk had just ended.
Nur's mother went inside and turned on the sleeping lamp next to Tera's mattress.
His son's face looked very tired, a drop of tears left on his cheeks.
..."Forgive me, son, for not thinking about your feelings, but I just want your life to be better, I actually do not like it if you continue to live thanks to the mercy of others,but Jullie's mother's family seems very sincere, so I don't mind..."...
Nur's mother rubbed Tera's head, and confirmed her sleeping position, then came back out of there.
...*...
They have their own sadness, just because they do not want to burden each other, they choose to be like people who think about themselves.
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