Married With My First Love (Travel Story of Lantern Love And Scintillating)

18.Lantern liver records

" (Sir, I have to how now, I think I'm starting to like people who don't like me, I'm starting to like my employer's children with my mother.

I'm sorry sir, because it's not done with the father, the father always said I can't like anyone before finishing school and get a good job.

I am sorry for being a child who does not know me.

But I promise you, I won't tell anyone, I'll keep everything alone until I have a good job and deserve to like someone.

Sir, until now, my father is still the best for me, my father was always there for me, never at all angry or upset with me,but the boy I liked was often angry with me, and often good all of a sudden, like the weather was changing.

Sir, I may not be mistaken, if I like the same person as that child.

May you see from there, if the child is really a good child.

I'm the same mom until now is still fine here, dad is also fine there ) ."

Tera now began to realize that a strange feeling had slipped into her heart somehow since when.

And he chose to write down those likes in his diary so that his heart would calm down a little.

He would not tell anyone such a thing so that he could continue to live his days as usual.

Indeed, everything is not so easy for the girl who soon turns seventeen years old, even to make friends she already feels very inappropriate, especially to love someone, especially to love someone,all such things would only add to the burden of his mind.

He chose to avoid Gilang at this time, so that his feelings would not become clearer and make him lower in his current state.

He really sucks, he used to even flatly tell his Father that he would not like another man other than his Father, before he was 25, but in fact, he did,he even began to keep his joy deep when he was still that young.

It was hard to avoid someone he met almost every day.

But for the sake of all his dreams, all his wishes, he will survive and continue to live with many secrets in it.

...*...

After they played in the children's park a week ago, Tera today began to avoid Gilang, looking for the right time so as not to always meet the boy who had made her restless.

He always went to school first, and finally began to choose to leave class early with his other classmates so as not to miss the bus and meet Gilang.

As for her best friend, to her astonishment, unlike Tera who usually always asks out the last class when almost everyone has left the room.

"Raa, why are you, I'm so weird like this, you're the genie's welcome?"

"No papa Sel, not afraid to miss the bus, when it never missed the bus even met the naughty children near the stop, very cool."

"Oh my goodness Ra, why not say the same to me, I will be able to wait for the bus there, then anyway if taught to go home with it in order, because you know Ra, Ra,they're going to meet the school kids from here, it's a real grudge, so don't mess with them."

"Whose assortment is who Sel is, I have nothing wrong at all, they were the ones who used to hit me all at that time, even angry at me at the ends."

Sela was silent in front of him, recalling Tera who had even just told him of such an incident.

"Cell, just shut up."

"I don't think we should be friends anymore, Raa,"

"Well, what is it?"

"You said there's nothing you don't want to tell, the evidence is even new to the story now, I feel guilty if you can't help you know."

"Sorry Sel, that time I missed home, where I was left with you, so yeah, I don't think it needs to be mentioned anymore, now I'm okay."

"Even now I'm upset with you, what else I didn't know about you all this time."

Sela was upset that only she had always been open to Tera, but her friend had always been hiding something from her.

"I'm sorry I dong Sel, I don't mean that, just don't want to make a lot of people bother because I, next time I must tell you, sorry ya."

Tera smiled as she embraced her best friend's hand.

Sela could only laugh at Tera's behavior which made her unable to get angry.

They walked together towards the school gate, Ela waiting for the gojek because her father could not pick up today.

Tera ran towards the stop after saying goodbye to Sela.

He jumped on the bus because the bus almost left him.

He sat there biting the tip of his fingernail.

It's really exhausting to be like this every day, he thought.

But he has to be like that for everything to go back to normal.

"Aaahh, you want to move house if this continues, but how the same mother?" Tera ruffled her hair which had indeed been a mess since earlier.

Liking someone is not easy.

Or maybe if it's not Gilang, everything can be easier, or even more complicated.

Tera was getting late in his unrest.

...*...

At home he went straight into his room and laid himself on the sofa that had become his place of silence, hugging a heart-shaped pillow in his chest.

It felt like he was leaving there quickly, why did such a feeling quickly run through his heart that was still not ready with all forms of disappointment.

Sitting there for a long time made him feel hungry, but since then he had not thought about food at all.

With weight he set his feet into the kitchen, hoping there was no Gilang there.

She approached her mother who had been doing laundry ever since.

"Mom, I want to eat, have you eaten?"

"Look, it's late in the afternoon, I've had lunch."

"Emh yes ma'am, I used to go to the kitchen, ma'am, oh yes I can eat in the room, ma'am?"

"Hehe is ma'am."

He went to the kitchen that looked lonely, often he felt lonely in a house that big, then what about Gilang who almost every day left the cooperation of his parents, he thought while filling his drinking water bottle to the brim.

Suddenly Gilang appeared beside him who would also take drinking water.

"All of you have me."

Tera nodded without looking at Gilang at all.

Gilang was astonished to see Tera who usually directly spoke without being asked.

"Why do you."

Gilang's drinking bottle was already full, Tera handed it back without saying anything, and left Gilang while carrying her plate and drinking bottle.

"Take whatever he is, often dine instead avoid,"in Gilang then returned to his room.

Tera ate quietly in her room.

"It's very difficult not to meet the same mas Gilang, how to try, this is his house, he wants to wander where he likes."

He whispered to himself.

The food was up, he sat down for a while before going back to the kitchen and washing the dishes, then helping his mother rinse the clothes.

Just standing in front of the washing machine, Gilang appeared again carrying some clothes that did not seem really dirty.

"Bude, I'm sorry that it's still there, so I forgot to bring it down," he said as he glanced at Tera.

"Oh yes nak Gilang, no matter what, this is Tera kok ya ng bude ng help."

Tera remained silent while taking out the clothes that had been washed, and then put the rest of the clothes that Gilang had brought earlier.

Gilang went back in but sat not far from where Tera and her mother washed.

He sat there watching Tera, and deliberately brought down some of the clothes he had not yet worn, as an excuse to see Tera.

"Mom, today's laundry is so much," asked Tera who was getting tired.

"Not much Ra, this is the same as usual mother wash, you will always help mom if it is done, so do not know."

"Emh, I've been drying this out first, ma'am."

"The sun beside aja raa, because it's already afternoon."

"Ready ma'am."

Tera prepared to lift the basket full of half-dry clothes in front of her, but she was shocked again by Gilang who appeared suddenly to lift the basket.

"Now Gilang, don't do it, and then if your mom finds out, she'll be mad at both of us."

"Gak bude, when his son helps people even angry."

Gilang immediately lifted the basket to the clothesline beside his house.

Tera had to follow behind him.

They got there, Tera remained silent, then took one by one clothes from the basket.

Gilang took the clothes and thrust them at Tera.

Despite feeling uncomfortable, Tera still welcomed him without saying a word.

Almost finished, In his heart Tera was happy because her work so quickly finished because Gilang also helped her sunbathe even though she had to return to tidy it up.

"You just wait here, let me take the rest."

Tera just nodded.

Waiting for Gilang to come back or get out of there, is just as stupid.

If he waited, he would look forward to Gilang, if he left, then everything would become clearer.

Finally he still chose to stay there waiting for Gilang to come back, he could not lie to himself, he liked to see Gilang up close, loved the scent of perfume used by Gilang, even if he could, he liked to see Gilang up close,he wanted to always be near the young man, but he should not be selfish, liking Gilang openly would make him have to leave the house.

Gilang brought back the clothes one full basket.

"Bude has finished his laundry, I've told him to rest, and he also said he wants to learn the same as you above."

What exactly is Gilang thinking, thought Tera.

Does Gilang know that he likes her, and now intends to play tricks on her because she is only a maid in her house.

He was sad to think about it.

If that's true, then he's the most stupid person right now.

"I want to rest, too, so I'm done with this, I'm going to go back to the room." Tera resolutely refused while finishing her clothesline.

Gilang was still standing there watching Tera who deftly sunk.

As Tera prepared to carry the empty basket of clothes, Gilang held her hand.

Tera could always just be silent without being able to dodge when Gilang had behaved like that.

"Mas Gilang, I want to go to the room, if there is a need please tell my mother, then I will help you do."

Gilang who also did not understand his treatment of Tera could only quietly look at the girl whose eyes always look sad.

Then slowly release his grasp.

"Mas Gilang, please just go back to being the first Gilang I know first." Tera sat all the steps of her feet towards her room.

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