Married With My First Love (Travel Story of Lantern Love And Scintillating)
56. Starting a New Day
..."That day we ended..."...
..."But the regret in my heart often bothers me all of a sudden..."...
..."It makes it hard for me to start a new day with someone else..."...
..."How are you there, the one I always miss in silence...?"...
..."The one who first filled my heart and my day..."...
..."Hope you start your new day well..."...
..."You must not know, what I went through here alone, what I felt after breaking up with you..."...
..."It's hard without the people we care about around us..."...
..."I even cried myself once a week, every time I met the day I decided to end it all..."...
..."Do you know my curiosity, wanting to ask your news but I held back for fear of making you hate me more..."...
..."All these years living here made me feel like I lost my true self..."...
..."I don't know what else I have to cover so I always look okay, and can still look like a friend to anyone..."...
..."Aahh, I hate it all, but have to pretend to enjoy it..."...
..."You must have never recognized such a taste, right?"...
..."You even live well, with a warm and complete family, with friends who are always there for you, as well as a comfortable home and room for you to go home.."...
..."Just imagining your life is frustrating enough, because at any moment I will never be able to surpass everything you have..."...
..."Until when do I have to keep feeling like this..."...
..."22 December, third year..."...
..."When the snow falls and the cold weather stabs it to the bone..."...
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Lantern writing adorned the home page of his social media.
He no longer wrote in the diary, because his book was deliberately left in Gilang's house, and he did not intend to write much anymore.
Now he prefers to keep everything alone.
Only occasionally did he tell stories on social media that he kept secret from everyone who knew him.
A few months after ending his relationship with Gilang, Tera is still shutting herself off from all the men who approached her on campus including Seo Jun.
But today, he wanted to try starting a new day without the shadow of Gilang in his mind.
Actually Gilang had settled in his heart, and it was difficult to just throw it out of there, but Tera tried to live out her last years here with a little happiness.
Now he's getting used to it without messages and calls from Gilang.
Accustomed to no news and no news.
His phone only occasionally reads when receiving messages from his best friend Sela, Kimi ,Seo Jun and from his mother.
Oh yes, his friend is now getting busy because soon he will finish his college.
Actually Tera is not really alone here, there is Seo Jun who almost every weekend visits himself on campus, but Tera never takes seriously the intentions of the handsome man, he said,there is also Kimi who often invites him to play every Sunday night.
There is also a Cafe Manager who often asks the news.
Early last month, she decided to quit her job because her mother often sent her extra pocket money, despite being astonished and often angry at her mother for sending her money too often, rather than keeping it to herself,but his mother did not say much and only asked Tera to study properly and not have to think about extra money when she wanted to buy her personal needs.
Inevitably Tera complied rather than receiving scolding every three days from her mother because she rarely picked up the phone due to being too busy studying and working.
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This morning, the weather was not at all friendly, but Seo Jun invited Tera to come out.
Tera who rarely comes out when winter arrives, complies with Seo Jun for his intention to start a new day.
After all, the long winter holiday was still a long time, he would die of boredom if every year he continued to confine himself in his room.
Seo Jun was waiting for him in the car in front of his room building.
Tera immediately ran out when Seo Jun called her.
Wear upholstered clothes because he can't stand cold weather.
Seo Jun laughed at himself because Tera looked fat, but she could only wear thick clothes, but because she was not used to it at all,he did such a foolish thing on his first day of walking around with Seo Jun.
Tera, who should feel lucky to be approached by a man who likes her so much, even makes her even more distrustful of a relationship.
And if he chooses to accept Seo Jun, it might reoccur a sad story a second time.
But this time Tera let things go just like that, if Seo Jun really liked her, she would still persevere to go through everything as usual, with no definite relationship ties.
Seo Jun who liked Tera since a year ago was taking Tera to the cafe where she used to work.
The cafe is still open despite the cold weather, because some people will stop there and warm themselves.
So did Seo Jun at this time.
They both came in and sat by the window.
After ordering a warm drink and his country-specific instant noodles called ramyeon, Seo Jun resuscitated Tera who was staring at the thin snow falling outside.
..."Pradania lantern, are you okay?"...
..."Aahh yes, I'm fine, I'm sorry I was daydreaming."...
..."In this cold season, indeed everyone likes to daydream and feel sad for no reason, maybe you are like that too."...
..."I'm sorry, if you're quiet a lot, but that doesn't mean I don't like your path."...
The lanterns still continued to speak formal language when they were with Seo Jun, although it made Seo Jun feel uncomfortable at times, but he let Tera, because he thought the girl was just trying to be more polite.
..."Tera, can't you be more informal if you talk to me, I'd rather you be more friendly with me."...
..."Sorry sunbae..."...
..."Tera, I've not sunbae you anymore now, so please call me oppa only, I've told you many times, but you always forget or refuse."...
..."I'm sorry, oppa, I'm afraid that speaking impolitely, even making others accuse me of being a no-no."...
..."It's okay Tera, we're friends now, so you can talk all you want, as long as it's not rude."...
..."Good oppa."...
..."Oh yeah, how?"...
..."What how is it?"...
..."Now that I see, it seems like you've gotten better, are you able to accept me?"...
..."Emh, I'm sorry oppa, can we just stay like this."...
..."Meaning you?"...
..."We just live it as it is, there is no need for any bond, because the breakup was more painful than I ever imagined."...
..."So you've really broken up with your boyfriend?"...
..."Yes oppa?"...
..."Is it because of me?"...
..."Oh no, not really..."...
..."Then...?"...
..."Hemh, it's not because of anyone, I'm just tired of having to have a long distance relationship, because that's also, now I don't want to date or any relationship, because I'm afraid it will happen again, because I'm afraid it will happen again,I don't want if I have to break up later, I hurt others and myself, hopefully oppa can understand my situation."...
..."Ahh okay okay, I get it now, but I'll always be by your side whenever you need a place to tell a story, even if you don't think of me as your girlfriend or friend."...
..."Oppa, I will regard oppa as my friend, best friend, girlfriend, brother, mother or father, so oppa will be free to do whatever oppa wishes, I will not forbid or restrain him, so oppa will be free to do whatever oppa wishes,because we have nothing to do..."...
..."Well, I'd rather be like that, as long as you don't ask me to get away from you!"...
They told stories and smiled freely, while enjoying ramyeon and warm coffee that had almost run out in front of each of them...
The lantern looks fine.
Who knows what is going on in his heart.
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..."Sorry my readers, because the UP time is always a mess..."...
..."Because many tasks are also in the real world.hehe..."...
..."I hope you can continue to support this novel..."...
...THANK YOU VERY MUCH..."...
...❤️❤️❤️...
