Married to a Prospective-in-Law

my fear

One thing that I fear mas Hara will seek satisfaction in other women that I cannot give at this time because if it is about it we will definitely be quiet because I feel the guilt that has not been able to be like the wishes of mas hara and mas Hara that may currently still be able to tolerate my attitude like this.

I don't know what the end of this relationship will be like I've started to be pessimistic about Mas Hara. Immediately my memory returned to the incident this afternoon.

"When will our relationship continue to a more serious level than this. I was getting tired of asking questions of various people. If my family may still understand or understand our situation but other people can only search me without wanting to know what happened mas" said me with teary eyes.

There was a heavy gasp of breath, Hara, this is not the first or second time, but circumstances like this have happened so often that I don't even know how many times. "Patience yes dear mas again prepare everything" he said while holding my hand.

Huh always like that whether it's how many kinds of reasons are thrown, which is not ready yet who wait a moment and whatever the reason for sure I will be devastated also with the words and treatment of me.

Actually, I don't understand the mind of Mas Hara, either what makes him not ready or because he has never got what he wants all this time when our relationship is no longer a relationship that runs one month and two months but has entered the year fifthly.

Five years is not a short time for a relationship that is not as certain as we live. Without feeling that I have entered the prayer time because my mind wanders somewhere, I also rushed to the bathroom and after that carry out my obligations. After praying Isya I continued the examination of the unresolved schoolwork of the students at school. When it was finished it turned out that the clock had shown at 22:15 then I tidied up my work and saved it to take back tomorrow to school.

"Have you been a long time? How come you're not in?" I said surprised because usually not mas Hara already here early in the morning especially after the incident last night.

"not too long ago Ra, just got out of the car and want to send you first" said Mas Hara with a smile.

"yes, I'm straight away" asked me to try to forget about last night's problems.

"Please say that"

" don't need to be complicated because you want to leave too while the father has left early in the morning because there is something to do before the meeting. "Yes, we are leaving said Mas Hara. On the way we talked casually until the end of Hara mas said Ra actually....