Marriage to the Destroyer of my Dreams

Episode 21 Though Without Love

There was not a single sound, not a single word broke out of Jillian's mouth. But Jeffran clearly caught the hatred on Jillian's face. Jeffran realized, if he had just made a mistake the umpteenth time, thus provoking the anger of a Jillian. But his ego is more domineering, he feels more entitled to be angry, because it considers Jillian has made a big mistake as a wife.

"Detail your clothes and some of your personal belongings." The sentence that Jeffran had just uttered, provoked a question in Jillian's head.

'Did he kick me out?' Ask Jillian inwardly.

"Tomorrow we will go to Raja Ampat." Said Jeffran, then took off his embrace and walked towards his room. While Jillian was still unmoved in her place, looking shocked and incredulous at what she heard.

"Whatchu mean? What are we going to Raja Ampat?" Jillian's question stopped Jeffran's steps who was already at the door of her room.

"Of course on vacation, Jill. What else is it? At 8 am, you should be ready." Jeffran replied, then stepped into his room. Letting Jillian grumble at length for not liking Jeffran's sudden plan.

"Why is that guy always on his own terms? It was as if planning a vacation without talking about it with me. I don't have anything busy. I don't want to go on vacation tomorrow, let him go alone." Jillian said, then walked to her room, stomping her legs in annoyance.

The next day, Jeffran seemed to be sitting sweetly on the living room couch, enjoying a Jillian-made milk pudding he had taken from the fridge. Jeffran looks handsome with a navy short-sleeved shirt and khaki shorts. To the right of the sofa looks a navy suitcase, which Jeffran will take to Raja Ampat later.

Jeffran glanced at the clock on his wrist which turned out to have shown at 8 more. But there was still no sign of Jillian coming out of her room. Finally, holding back his annoyance, Jeffran knocked on the door of the room and called out Jillian's name. Up to 5 minutes passed, but Jillian had not yet opened the door to her room.

"Jillian, you really suck." Bumpat Jeffran along with the opening of the door of Jillian's room. Appears to the owner of the room still wearing his pajamas, complete with an expression of waking up and eyes half open.

"Why is it so noisy? He said the room was soundproof, but why did you scream until I could hear it? You shitty man." Now replace Jillian who cursed Jeffran.

"Jill, what the hell? I told you, this morning we are going to Raja Ampat, why are you still not ready?" Jeffran protested while staring at the appearance of Jillian who was still not ready. Jillian seemed unconcerned, leaning her body against the doorpost of her room.

"I didn't say I wanted to come. If you want to go on vacation, go alone." The light answer from Jillian's mouth made Jeffran upset. Jeffran may have forgotten that Jillian is not a submissive woman, who will do whatever she asks.

"Jill, I've asked Liam to prepare for our vacation, he's even rescheduled all my schedules. I don't want our vacation plans to fail. I'll give you time to get ready in half an hour. Quickly clean up your stuff." Jeffran is seen holding back his emotions, trying to speak kindly to Jillian. But it turns out Jillian is still reluctant to comply with Jeffran's request.

"I don't want to." Jillian said, then closed and locked the door to her room. Leaving the silent Jeffran, still could not believe Jillian's answer just now. But a few seconds later, Jeffran vented his frustration by shouting curses and threatening Jillian.

"Jillians.. You're really stubborn. Look out if until our vacation plan fails, I'll ban you from going anywhere. Jillian, you really do give me a headache." Jeffran held his suddenly throbbing head.

Meanwhile, in the room, Jillian did not want to bother with Jeffran's annoyance. He even returned to lay down himself while closing his eyes, about to continue his sleep that had paused.

Actually Jillian just fell asleep for 1 hour, all night he was busy tidying up all his documents and personal belongings. But not for a vacation with Jeffran, but as preparation for him to escape abroad.

By lunchtime, Jillian had just woken up from her sleep. After bathing and getting dressed, Jillian came out of the room to go to the pantry, because her stomach was so hungry. But how surprised Jillian, when she saw Jeffran who fell asleep on the sofa still dressed the same as this morning. But Jillian chose to return unconcerned and continued her steps towards the pantry.

The noisy sound from the direction of the pantry, drew Jeffran's consciousness from his dream realm. When he saw Jillian cooking in the pantry, Jeffran rushed to his wife.

"Jill.. We're going to Raja Ampat this afternoon?"

"No.." Jillian's short answer again upset Jeffran.

The sudden vacation plan, apparently started from Jeffran's annoyance because Jillian went with Ethan. There's a sense of disbelief in knowing Jillian is spending time somewhere with Ethan. Until Jeffran decided to take Jillian on vacation, in order to spend time with Jillian in a beautiful place. Keep Jillian away from Ethan. But it turns out that Jillian actually rejected the idea of Jeffran.

"Jill, come.. I want us on vacation. Your gestational age is also safe to travel by plane. I asked your obstetrician." Jillian frowned hearing Jeffran's words.

"Are you really asking the obstetrician?" Jeffran nodded steadily in response to Jillian's words.

"Not Far from Jill, we're not going abroad. Just to Raja Ampat." Persuade Jeffran, beginning to look compassionate and desperate. But Jillian again refused, along with the ready menu lunch in the form of vegetable salad, beef teriyaki, shrimp tempura, and two glasses of strawberry juice which he then served on the dining table.

"Eat.." Jillian said briefly, then sat down and started eating her lunch menu. Jeffran, who still looked upset, chose to sit face to face with Jillian and ate Jillian's food greedily.

"Lusa I have a test, of course we can not only be a day, right in Raja Ampat? You should have talked to me first. But you always decide anything without my consent." Jeffran was silent, himself justifying Jillian's words even though it was only in his heart.

"I didn't know you had exams the day after, Jill. But I want to stay on vacation today."

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After the drama that Jeffran did, finally arrived Jeffran and Jillian at a luxurious and exclusive Resort, set in a green and soothing natural scenery. But not Raja Ampat as Jeffran's choice this time, but the Resort is located in Lembang, Bandung. Although the holiday to Raja Ampat failed, but Jeffran still want to vacation with Jillian. Even though tomorrow, they already have to go back to Jakarta.

The natural atmosphere is beautiful and beautiful in the evening, pampering Jillian netra that circulates the view from the balcony of the room located on the 2nd floor. Jeffran deliberately rented a room consisting of 2 floors with two separate bedrooms, a private pool on the 1st floor and other facilities that are quite complete. For a short holiday they can be a memorable and fun holiday.

Suddenly Jillian was startled with two sturdy hands coiling around her body. Jillian glanced sideways, looked at Jeffran who was hugging her from behind then piled his chin on Jillian's open shoulder.

Actually Jillian always felt uncomfortable every time Jeffran made physical contact with her, but Jillian understood that she would re-inspire Jeffran if she rejected Jeffran blatantly. So as long as Jeffran just hugs, kisses her cheeks and does nothing further than that, Jillian is determined to just accept her legal husband's treatment.

"You likey?" Jeffran asked as he looked straight in the same direction as Jillian.

"Like. The view is beautiful." Jeffran smiled at Jillian's reply. He was quite happy, because Jillian liked the resort he chose.

"Tonight you want to have dinner at the restaurant or just here?" Jeffran asked as he inhaled in the scent of Jillian's body that he liked.

"Here you go, I'm lazy to get out."

"Okay.."

Jeffran tightened his embrace and kissed Jillian's neck to make Jillian pound her teeth.

"Jeffs.. Off." Pinta Jillian, starting to be uncomfortable with Jeffran's treatment. Especially when Jeffran's hand moves up to the twin hills of Jillian.

"Jeffrey.." Jillian slammed Jeffran's hands hard, then turned her body against Jeffran's.

"You always said that we should only have this marriage until the time we got divorced, because we didn't really love each other. Why do you touch me so often? I'm worried about Jeff." Jillian vented her heart over Jeffran's treatment of him.

"We're Jillian's husband and wife, there's no harm in us doing that." Obviously Jeffran, felt there was nothing wrong with what he was doing.

"Although without love?"

"Yes.." Jeffran's short answer made Jillian's emotions instantly rise.

"Maybe you can do all that without love, but I can't." Jillian pushes roughly Jeffran's body which erodes the distance with her.

"But Jill, we can.." Jeffran's unfinished words, instantly cut by Jillian.

"You can, but I can't. Oh yeah, I forgot. You can even take away the honor of a girl without any love and bond. So you feel you can do anything to the woman you've married, even without love. Bajing*n.." Jillian said, then stepped into her bedroom. Leaving the silent Jeffran, feeling struck by the sentence Jillian spoke.

*'Am I that way in Jill's eyes? I just follow my instincts that are always comfortable with you. I can't control myself not to touch you.' *

Inexplicably why Jeffran felt a great pain in his heart, even unconsciously he pressed his chest that suddenly felt tight.

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