Marriage to the Destroyer of my Dreams

Episode 18 I'm Not That Girl

The two pairs of distinctly different colored netra were staring at each other inside. The breath that was inhaled was so long, clearly greeting the hearing of Jillian who was still faithfully waiting for the strand of words from Jeffran's mouth.

"I've made a very big mistake. And that mistake is one I have always regretted until now.." For a moment Jeffran lowered his head while pressing firmly his chest that began to claustrophobic. Jillian's expression still seemed flat, though her mind wondered what Jeffran would tell her.

"About 3 months ago, I had dinner with Dessy, my business partner to discuss our corporate cooperation project. At that time I drank a few glasses of red wine, because Dessy kept forcing me to drink, under the pretext of celebrating our cooperation." Again Jeffran sighed deeply, before continuing his story.

"I went to the toilet, but when I came back and drank a glass of water, I felt something different about my body. I knew something was wrong with the water I was drinking, especially when Dessy started teasing me. At that time I was immediately angry with Dessy, because sure, if he had put stimulant drugs into the water that I drank. But of course Dessy doesn't admit it. I decided to leave immediately before I lost control of myself."

Jillian's face was flat when she heard sentence after sentence that slid from Jeffran's mouth. But actually Jillian's heart was turbulent, realizing that the story told by Jeffran was the beginning of his dark story that night.

"Once I called Liam, but he didn't pick up my phone call. Then I decided to call and ask Jordan for help. At the time, he said he was at a cake shop and was heading to campus. So I decided to go to college and wait for Jordan there. That's where the tragedy happened.." The tears that Jeffran had been holding back from earlier, finally shed as well. While Jillian who knows the continuation of Jeffran's story, tried her hardest to hold back her feelings.

"I saw a girl standing not far from the campus gate. But since I was under the influence of alcohol and stimulants, I could not see the girl clearly, much less the illumination was lacking. Out of nowhere, I suddenly got out of the car and pulled the girl to get into the car, no matter how she kept fighting back and thrashing to be let go. I have dark eyes and I can't control myself." It sounded from Jeffran's mouth, but Jillian was unmoved, with the same expression as before.

"I forcibly snatched away the girl's honor.. I raped**it was cruel, and I'm so sorry, Jill.." Jeffran's cry broke, even his body trembled regretting the mistake he had done.

'Oh God.. It felt like I wanted to cry, scream, cuss, grab, slap and beat him until I was satisfied.. But I can't do it..' Jillian desperately held herself back from venting out her heart at this moment.

"Jill.. Please be honest, is that girl you?" Lirih Jeffran stared in Jillian's bead of eyes.

For a while, not a single word came out of Jillian's mouth. Even the look of his face still looks flat, although the look of surprise was reviewed when Jeffran expressed his curiosity.

"I was really surprised to hear your story. As a woman I am really disappointed in what you did, even though the cause is not entirely your fault. I don't know what's underlying your guess, but I'm not that girl."

"Please tell me the truth Jill, are you really not that girl? You always refused to get into my black sports car, you were delirious as if to be let go, and I always felt hatred from your eyes and attitude towards me, Jill."

"Ah everything is just a coincidence Jeff. I really like your navy sports car better than the black one. When it comes to delusions, I may have nightmares. And about me always seeming to hate you, of course because of your always bad attitude to treat me. Hmm, whoever that girl is, I hope she's okay. And if you regret what you did, change better. Make it a lesson to you, Jeff.." Jeffran flinched at Jillian's explanation. He really did not think that his assumption about Jillian turned out to be wrong. Jeffran looks for lies on Jillian's face, but Jillian's calm look certainly explains everything.

'If Jillian was that girl, she would have beaten me up and vented her hatred on me. There was no way he could act that calm when he heard me tell a story. Maybe I'm the one who concluded wrong..' Jeffran conjecture in heart.

"Jeff, I'll eat the breakfast you brought. My head is pretty heavy, so I'll eat it in the room huh. You don't forget breakfast, either, Jeff.." Jillian stepped towards the room without waiting for Jeffran's silent response without a word.

After locking her room, Jillian instead of eating her breakfast menu, she went into the bathroom and locked it from the inside.

He began to fill the bathtub with warm water, then went into it without taking off the clothes he was wearing. The cry he had been holding back from earlier, instantly broke. Even hysterical screams and swearing and swearing came out of his mouth. Fortunately, Jillian's bathroom and bedroom were soundproofed, so Jillian's loud voice was not heard by Jeffran.

"Whatever the reason, your actions are still cruel. You really brengs*k Jeff. You took away my honor, ruined my life, ruined my dreams and made me suffer. Many people consider me contemptible, and as my stomach grows bigger, I must be prepared to accept even more cruel insults. If it wasn't for your curse, Jordan and I would still be together, he wouldn't have died.. Because of your mistake, Jordan was looked upon badly, for haunting me before marriage." Jillian pressed down firmly on her aching chest, each remembering the Jordan that was gone for good.

"If it wasn't for your depravity, my parents wouldn't have been ashamed. My family became a gossip for people, because I was suddenly married before graduating from college. And of course they will laugh more and more at my family, when I give birth to a child in my womb." Jillian's cry grew louder, venting her grief and anger.

'Jeffrey.. I would never say I was that girl. I certainly remember, you once said that you would carry a child in my womb after we divorced. If you knew, if this kid wasn't Jordan's son but your son, you'd be easier to take him away from me. I'll never let that happen. Before you find out the fact that I'm that girl, I'll be away from your life.' Jillian's determination in heart.

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